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[srans]

Well congrats Bro. A hard road and several challenges you've faced yet here you stand a free man and quit. Continue ODAAT bro and never forget that you (in your own words) "never never never never ever want another day one"


We find our train stopped in Birmingham Alabama this morning.  It's so freaking hot here and I'm so wet from sweat I feel like I just jumped out of a lake, Which would be fine if there weren’t so many damn alligators around this place!  We are here this morning to welcome our newest rider DUATHMAN!  He is a father of two wonderful kids and a husband to a very tolerant woman who put up with his bad attitude while he worked his way to this milestone.  This reminds me...... There are several riders already who expressed fear of DUATHMAN.  What is this all about?  He seems like a nice guy.  Is he a ninja bully?  I just don't see it.  Anyway, he would like to let you all know that he will be bringing his “quit” Attitude on the train to share with everyone and is not worried about anything bad happening during the ride because of how many Bad Asses are on board who have an abundance of knowledge.  He clearly doesn't know me and Erussell.  I guarantee SOMETHING crazy WILL happen on this train.  There’s enough bourbon and boobie lovers to make this train unstable!  Whats the craziest thing he has ever done?  “When in college me and a group went to nasty strip club in Columbus, Georgia.  Luckily I was not the sober driver but we had a guy that was a good drunk driver.  After leaving the wonderful establishment we started heading back to Auburn.  Instead of heading back to Auburn the dumbass drunk driver started to head to Florida instead.  Next thing I know we are pulled over by fort benning police who arrest the driver.  They leave us on side of the road while we wait on a friend to drive over to get our dumb asses in the middle of the night (this is before everybody had cell phones).  Friend finally came and all ended well for me and the drunk driver.  Apparently he cried like a girl and they never pressed charges.”  Come on...... Fess up.... Were you the driver?  LOL.  DUATHMAN defenitly plans to reach for 200.  With his attitude, I have no doubt he will make it.

His advice to others....”Don't repeat what I have been through.  You came to KTC for a reason....Your quit plan sucked before and needed the site.  Don't think your cured after 100 days.”

Who does he want to thank for helping him....”BillyBill, Traumagnet, Derk40, MattF, Kandalk, Jbob, Jrizzle and reality check --- Zam (First to bust my balls when I returned.  Quickly realized things were different as a caver.)” 

DUATHMAN...... Welcome to the train!  It's a hell of a quit you have going, and we are glad to have you in the HOF.  Try not to hurt anyone on the train. Jake Frawley.

congrats DUATHMAN proud of you. theirs no magic pill at 100 that make you cured from nicotine so keep posting those one day at a time  paying it forward  back. i quit with you

Congrats on the c note.

[Sportsfan231]

Well congrats Bro. A hard road and several challenges you've faced yet here you stand a free man and quit. Continue ODAAT bro and never forget that you (in your own words) "never never never never ever want another day one"


We find our train stopped in Birmingham Alabama this morning. It's so freaking hot here and I'm so wet from sweat I feel like I just jumped out of a lake, Which would be fine if there weren’t so many damn alligators around this place! We are here this morning to welcome our newest rider DUATHMAN! He is a father of two wonderful kids and a husband to a very tolerant woman who put up with his bad attitude while he worked his way to this milestone. This reminds me...... There are several riders already who expressed fear of DUATHMAN. What is this all about? He seems like a nice guy. Is he a ninja bully? I just don't see it. Anyway, he would like to let you all know that he will be bringing his “quit” Attitude on the train to share with everyone and is not worried about anything bad happening during the ride because of how many Bad Asses are on board who have an abundance of knowledge. He clearly doesn't know me and Erussell. I guarantee SOMETHING crazy WILL happen on this train. There’s enough bourbon and boobie lovers to make this train unstable! Whats the craziest thing he has ever done? “When in college me and a group went to nasty strip club in Columbus, Georgia. Luckily I was not the sober driver but we had a guy that was a good drunk driver. After leaving the wonderful establishment we started heading back to Auburn. Instead of heading back to Auburn the dumbass drunk driver started to head to Florida instead. Next thing I know we are pulled over by fort benning police who arrest the driver. They leave us on side of the road while we wait on a friend to drive over to get our dumb asses in the middle of the night (this is before everybody had cell phones). Friend finally came and all ended well for me and the drunk driver. Apparently he cried like a girl and they never pressed charges.” Come on...... Fess up.... Were you the driver? LOL. DUATHMAN defenitly plans to reach for 200. With his attitude, I have no doubt he will make it.

His advice to others....”Don't repeat what I have been through. You came to KTC for a reason....Your quit plan sucked before and needed the site. Don't think your cured after 100 days.”

Who does he want to thank for helping him....”BillyBill, Traumagnet, Derk40, MattF, Kandalk, Jbob, Jrizzle and reality check --- Zam (First to bust my balls when I returned. Quickly realized things were different as a caver.)”

DUATHMAN...... Welcome to the train! It's a hell of a quit you have going, and we are glad to have you in the HOF. Try not to hurt anyone on the train. Jake Frawley.

congrats DUATHMAN proud of you. theirs no magic pill at 100 that make you cured from nicotine so keep posting those one day at a time  paying it forward  back. i quit with you

[Erussell]

Well congrats Bro. A hard road and several challenges you've faced yet here you stand a free man and quit. Continue ODAAT bro and never forget that you (in your own words) "never never never never ever want another day one"


We find our train stopped in Birmingham Alabama this morning. It's so freaking hot here and I'm so wet from sweat I feel like I just jumped out of a lake, Which would be fine if there weren’t so many damn alligators around this place! We are here this morning to welcome our newest rider DUATHMAN! He is a father of two wonderful kids and a husband to a very tolerant woman who put up with his bad attitude while he worked his way to this milestone. This reminds me...... There are several riders already who expressed fear of DUATHMAN. What is this all about? He seems like a nice guy. Is he a ninja bully? I just don't see it. Anyway, he would like to let you all know that he will be bringing his “quit” Attitude on the train to share with everyone and is not worried about anything bad happening during the ride because of how many Bad Asses are on board who have an abundance of knowledge. He clearly doesn't know me and Erussell. I guarantee SOMETHING crazy WILL happen on this train. There’s enough bourbon and boobie lovers to make this train unstable! Whats the craziest thing he has ever done? “When in college me and a group went to nasty strip club in Columbus, Georgia. Luckily I was not the sober driver but we had a guy that was a good drunk driver. After leaving the wonderful establishment we started heading back to Auburn. Instead of heading back to Auburn the dumbass drunk driver started to head to Florida instead. Next thing I know we are pulled over by fort benning police who arrest the driver. They leave us on side of the road while we wait on a friend to drive over to get our dumb asses in the middle of the night (this is before everybody had cell phones). Friend finally came and all ended well for me and the drunk driver. Apparently he cried like a girl and they never pressed charges.” Come on...... Fess up.... Were you the driver? LOL. DUATHMAN defenitly plans to reach for 200. With his attitude, I have no doubt he will make it.

His advice to others....”Don't repeat what I have been through. You came to KTC for a reason....Your quit plan sucked before and needed the site. Don't think your cured after 100 days.”

Who does he want to thank for helping him....”BillyBill, Traumagnet, Derk40, MattF, Kandalk, Jbob, Jrizzle and reality check --- Zam (First to bust my balls when I returned. Quickly realized things were different as a caver.)”

DUATHMAN...... Welcome to the train! It's a hell of a quit you have going, and we are glad to have you in the HOF. Try not to hurt anyone on the train. Jake Frawley.

[CaliforniaSlim]

I had one of those days. 71 days quit and going strong. Hump day but it didn't seem so close to the weekend. I had a guy that I loaned money too text me and ask if I was at the office. I texted back and said "yes." Then after a few minutes I asked "why." He never responded. He is about 4 months late on payment and I have tried to work with him. Desperate people do desperate things. He showed up at my office and I called one of my workers to look out the window and see what he was doing in his car that he must of sat there for 5 minutes before the door opened. He finally got out of his car and came into office. He wanted to talk. I came forward and said" hey, what is going on". He motioned to walk outside and I followed him. I stood there as he sat on a bench outside my office for 30 minutes and he talked about things. He needed more money for his car note that was due today or the bank was going to repo it. He got a second job making pizza's but if he can't get there what good is the job? I told him I was tapped out (the truth and why would I loan him more money?) He is a very quite person and was really depressed. Here I am a person with deamons glowing from inside. I was a ninja dipper for 19 years. He spilled his guts for 30 minutes about things. I asked him if he thought of selling his platelets he jumped up and said "you get $25 for that." "How about a kidney?" nothing in response. I have a soft heart just not today. I told him to leave and wondered what was going to happen. He probably will never pay me back and I have accepted that not every loan is secure. Why did I write this, I don't know. Kind of like if you say "God bless You" and you hit that one person struggling that flips a switch. Was that a moment in the Bible in which Jesus says you serve me when you serve the least of these? Tough day and quit.

Hard choices are hard choices my friend. The fact that it is weighing on you just means that you recognize it was a hard choice, and you can't be sure if you did right. You made a tough call- No shame in that.
Life still gets hard, but we do get the joy of seeing the difficulties with a clear head and free of poison.
Proud to be quit with you today.

[duathman]

I had one of those days. 71 days quit and going strong. Hump day but it didn't seem so close to the weekend. I had a guy that I loaned money too text me and ask if I was at the office. I texted back and said "yes." Then after a few minutes I asked "why." He never responded. He is about 4 months late on payment and I have tried to work with him. Desperate people do desperate things. He showed up at my office and I called one of my workers to look out the window and see what he was doing in his car that he must of sat there for 5 minutes before the door opened. He finally got out of his car and came into office. He wanted to talk. I came forward and said" hey, what is going on". He motioned to walk outside and I followed him. I stood there as he sat on a bench outside my office for 30 minutes and he talked about things. He needed more money for his car note that was due today or the bank was going to repo it. He got a second job making pizza's but if he can't get there what good is the job? I told him I was tapped out (the truth and why would I loan him more money?) He is a very quite person and was really depressed. Here I am a person with deamons glowing from inside. I was a ninja dipper for 19 years. He spilled his guts for 30 minutes about things. I asked him if he thought of selling his platelets he jumped up and said "you get $25 for that." "How about a kidney?" nothing in response. I have a soft heart just not today. I told him to leave and wondered what was going to happen. He probably will never pay me back and I have accepted that not every loan is secure. Why did I write this, I don't know. Kind of like if you say "God bless You" and you hit that one person struggling that flips a switch. Was that a moment in the Bible in which Jesus says you serve me when you serve the least of these? Tough day and quit.

[Jlud007]

Our question of the day for my 48th day of quit is - Do you have support outside of KTC?

This is has to be the most important thing for me. Lets go back to when I joined KTC in December of 2011. I told NO one (beacuse that would mean I did) and hadn't even found KTC yet. I was going on a Christmas vacation in a RV with my parents, my wife and 2 kids. (We are in a Prevost coach not a station wagon). Business was slow and Skoal was too expensive. Feeling depressed anyway I wanted something new so I quit dipping. After many hours on the road and searching on my phone for anything related to smokeless tobacco I came across KTC. I sent somebody, it may be you, a message saying I had joined the website and will post when I get back in town. I think it was a day 7 when I first posted. Fast forward to my day 100. I was in Disney World and loving being with my family and not worrying about getting back to the condo so I can take a 30 minute shit and 15 minute shower. I messaged the one person I had digits for and he posted for me. I celebrated my day 100 with a text. I didn't tell my wife I quit and I didn't tell her I caved (around 180 I stopped posting around 110). CAVED

Now Day 2 of my quit I told my wife that I had been dipping since I told her I stopped in 2006 (first child was born). She said she knew that and trusted me that I had in under control. No ninja is perfect. What did I tell her? Everything. She could walk out that night, throw shit at me, sprayed pepper spray in my eyes, the point is I didn't care anymore. I wanted and needed to tell her everything about my addiction. My gut feeling was that she would understand and she did. She listened to me and read what I posted on KTC about why and how I caved. I cannot express enough what this means.

Why do we use this site to help us stay quit? We are all addicts. We understand the fight that is taking place everyday. Why don't we tell people closest to us about our addiction? I was a failure and wasn't a man to admit that I caved 5 years earlier. I was ashamed. Its not them it's us. We are afraid to tell them. Telling my wife was equal to telling the nic bitch to fuck off.

It means that much to me.

I am bumping you brother there is some good stuff here. Sometimes you pop on something on the site that really hits you in the gut and you say....yeah....that's how I feel completely. I have told anyone who will listen that I am quit of the poison today, I want accountability coming out of my ears. I want my mail man to ask if I'm still eating sunflower seeds like a fat kid in a candy store. Proud to be quit with all of you today!

[Dougie]

Your quit is awesome and just proves that you have to quit one day at a time and you will always be an addict. Glad to have you in September!

[Keddy]

Our question of the day for my 48th day of quit is - Do you have support outside of KTC?

This is has to be the most important thing for me. Lets go back to when I joined KTC in December of 2011. I told NO one (beacuse that would mean I did) and hadn't even found KTC yet. I was going on a Christmas vacation in a RV with my parents, my wife and 2 kids. (We are in a Prevost coach not a station wagon). Business was slow and Skoal was too expensive. Feeling depressed anyway I wanted something new so I quit dipping. After many hours on the road and searching on my phone for anything related to smokeless tobacco I came across KTC. I sent somebody, it may be you, a message saying I had joined the website and will post when I get back in town. I think it was a day 7 when I first posted. Fast forward to my day 100. I was in Disney World and loving being with my family and not worrying about getting back to the condo so I can take a 30 minute shit and 15 minute shower. I messaged the one person I had digits for and he posted for me. I celebrated my day 100 with a text. I didn't tell my wife I quit and I didn't tell her I caved (around 180 I stopped posting around 110). CAVED

Now Day 2 of my quit I told my wife that I had been dipping since I told her I stopped in 2006 (first child was born). She said she knew that and trusted me that I had in under control. No ninja is perfect. What did I tell her? Everything. She could walk out that night, throw shit at me, sprayed pepper spray in my eyes, the point is I didn't care anymore. I wanted and needed to tell her everything about my addiction. My gut feeling was that she would understand and she did. She listened to me and read what I posted on KTC about why and how I caved. I cannot express enough what this means.

Why do we use this site to help us stay quit? We are all addicts. We understand the fight that is taking place everyday. Why don't we tell people closest to us about our addiction? I was a failure and wasn't a man to admit that I caved 5 years earlier. I was ashamed. Its not them it's us. We are afraid to tell them. Telling my wife was equal to telling the nic bitch to fuck off.

It means that much to me.

Talking over my quit with my wife and making myself accountable to her was one of the best decisions I ever made!

Press forward . . . .

[duathman]

Our question of the day for my 48th day of quit is - Do you have support outside of KTC?

This is has to be the most important thing for me. Lets go back to when I joined KTC in December of 2011. I told NO one (beacuse that would mean I did) and hadn't even found KTC yet. I was going on a Christmas vacation in a RV with my parents, my wife and 2 kids. (We are in a Prevost coach not a station wagon). Business was slow and Skoal was too expensive. Feeling depressed anyway I wanted something new so I quit dipping. After many hours on the road and searching on my phone for anything related to smokeless tobacco I came across KTC. I sent somebody, it may be you, a message saying I had joined the website and will post when I get back in town. I think it was a day 7 when I first posted. Fast forward to my day 100. I was in Disney World and loving being with my family and not worrying about getting back to the condo so I can take a 30 minute shit and 15 minute shower. I messaged the one person I had digits for and he posted for me. I celebrated my day 100 with a text. I didn't tell my wife I quit and I didn't tell her I caved (around 180 I stopped posting around 110). CAVED

Now Day 2 of my quit I told my wife that I had been dipping since I told her I stopped in 2006 (first child was born). She said she knew that and trusted me that I had in under control. No ninja is perfect. What did I tell her? Everything. She could walk out that night, throw shit at me, sprayed pepper spray in my eyes, the point is I didn't care anymore. I wanted and needed to tell her everything about my addiction. My gut feeling was that she would understand and she did. She listened to me and read what I posted on KTC about why and how I caved. I cannot express enough what this means.

Why do we use this site to help us stay quit? We are all addicts. We understand the fight that is taking place everyday. Why don't we tell people closest to us about our addiction? I was a failure and wasn't a man to admit that I caved 5 years earlier. I was ashamed. Its not them it's us. We are afraid to tell them. Telling my wife was equal to telling the nic bitch to fuck off.

It means that much to me.

[Greg5280]

Today I turned 38 and I am 34 days quit. Things are not rosy all the time as they shouldn't be.  I poisoned myself for 19 years.  This will take a long time to get use too.  Reading the intros and newer quit groups I see where I was a few weeks ago.  34 is just a day it could all end tomorrow.  We (addicts) do some really stupid things, but not today I posted roll.  ODAAT!

Happy Birthday man quit w you today...that is all we are promised is today.

we all could play the coulda woulda shoulda game - stay focused on the day and don't let the bs drama detract remember - take what you can and leave the rest - it might take blinders but do it

oh yeah, Every Damn Day!

Happy birthday bro! It's great to see a brother celebrating his first birthday in 20 years Nic free!

5 weeks (almost) is awesome. I love quitting with quitters. Great job.

:)

[Scowick65]

Today I turned 38 and I am 34 days quit. Things are not rosy all the time as they shouldn't be.  I poisoned myself for 19 years.  This will take a long time to get use too.  Reading the intros and newer quit groups I see where I was a few weeks ago.  34 is just a day it could all end tomorrow.  We (addicts) do some really stupid things, but not today I posted roll.  ODAAT!

Happy Birthday man quit w you today...that is all we are promised is today.

we all could play the coulda woulda shoulda game - stay focused on the day and don't let the bs drama detract remember - take what you can and leave the rest - it might take blinders but do it

oh yeah, Every Damn Day!

Happy birthday bro! It's great to see a brother celebrating his first birthday in 20 years Nic free!

5 weeks (almost) is awesome. I love quitting with quitters. Great job.

[jake frawley]

Today I turned 38 and I am 34 days quit. Things are not rosy all the time as they shouldn't be.  I poisoned myself for 19 years.  This will take a long time to get use too.  Reading the intros and newer quit groups I see where I was a few weeks ago.  34 is just a day it could all end tomorrow.  We (addicts) do some really stupid things, but not today I posted roll.  ODAAT!

Happy Birthday man quit w you today...that is all we are promised is today.

we all could play the coulda woulda shoulda game - stay focused on the day and don't let the bs drama detract remember - take what you can and leave the rest - it might take blinders but do it

oh yeah, Every Damn Day!

Happy birthday bro! It's great to see a brother celebrating his first birthday in 20 years Nic free!

[cbird65]

Today I turned 38 and I am 34 days quit. Things are not rosy all the time as they shouldn't be.  I poisoned myself for 19 years.  This will take a long time to get use too.  Reading the intros and newer quit groups I see where I was a few weeks ago.  34 is just a day it could all end tomorrow.  We (addicts) do some really stupid things, but not today I posted roll.  ODAAT!

Happy Birthday man quit w you today...that is all we are promised is today.

we all could play the coulda woulda shoulda game - stay focused on the day and don't let the bs drama detract remember - take what you can and leave the rest - it might take blinders but do it

oh yeah, Every Damn Day!

[traumagnet]

Today I turned 38 and I am 34 days quit. Things are not rosy all the time as they shouldn't be. I poisoned myself for 19 years. This will take a long time to get use too. Reading the intros and newer quit groups I see where I was a few weeks ago. 34 is just a day it could all end tomorrow. We (addicts) do some really stupid things, but not today I posted roll. ODAAT!

Happy Birthday man quit w you today...that is all we are promised is today.

[duathman]

Today I turned 38 and I am 34 days quit. Things are not rosy all the time as they shouldn't be. I poisoned myself for 19 years. This will take a long time to get use too. Reading the intros and newer quit groups I see where I was a few weeks ago. 34 is just a day it could all end tomorrow. We (addicts) do some really stupid things, but not today I posted roll. ODAAT!