Intro

[humbledteacher]

I've been trying to add little snippets along the way so I can look back  remember everything that I've gone through in my quit.

This is day 60. Craves have been really bad lately. Like little fucking voices in my head. This morning, I had a sausage mcmuffin  diet coke for breakfast on the way to work  was sitting at my desk about 1/2 hour later  a voice screamed at me "YOU JUST HAD A MCMUFFIN, WHERES THE COPENHAGEN, YOU NEED IT".

I was surprised  after packing in some Jakes the voices calmed down. It also helped that I was working on the roll spreadsheet from yesterday  that always helps me focus on the quit.

No more dip dreams in quite a while, though I will say my dreams, when I've had any, have been very vivid. Not sure if that's a sign, symptom, what the fuck ever, just a thought that popped into my head.

Bought a new (used) 2012 Ford Fusion last Saturday  I take some pride knowing that this will be the very first car that I've EVER owned that I won't have dip in. No secret hiding spot. No dip stain on the seat from wiping my fingers. Awesome.

Played in a tournament last Sunday with a guy smoking cigars  another guy dipping his mind out. He was an obnoxious dipper. The kind that wants the world to know  has that nasty shit dripping out the front of his lip. I had my Jakes and was perfectly ok to be around him, I just made sure not to start any conversations about dip or let him see me pack a Jakes because I just wanted to golf  not get into a big thing about it.

I'm quit today. I'll post roll again tomorrow before I even take a leak or scratch my nuts......

I'm a huge fan of KTC  can't thank the guys in my group  the vets that have reached out enough.

I'm a damn proud ;Ironman:

Keep being a leader man. We quit together as part of the March Iron Men. Glad to see you cherishing the small victories and taking a second to remember just how far you have come already.

Your quit makes my quit that much stronger.

[SirDerek]

I've been trying to add little snippets along the way so I can look back  remember everything that I've gone through in my quit.

This is day 60.  Craves have been really bad lately.  Like little fucking voices in my head.  This morning, I had a sausage mcmuffin  diet coke for breakfast on the way to work  was sitting at my desk about 1/2 hour later  a voice screamed at me "YOU JUST HAD A MCMUFFIN, WHERES THE COPENHAGEN, YOU NEED IT".

I was surprised  after packing in some Jakes the voices calmed down.  It also helped that I was working on the roll spreadsheet from yesterday  that always helps me focus on the quit. 

No more dip dreams in quite a while, though I will say my dreams, when I've had any, have been very vivid.  Not sure if that's a sign, symptom, what the fuck ever, just a thought that popped into my head.

Bought a new (used) 2012 Ford Fusion last Saturday  I take some pride knowing that this will be the very first car that I've EVER owned that I won't have dip in.  No secret hiding spot.  No dip stain on the seat from wiping my fingers.  Awesome.

Played in a tournament last Sunday with a guy smoking cigars  another guy dipping his mind out.  He was an obnoxious dipper.  The kind that wants the world to know  has that nasty shit dripping out the front of his lip.  I had my Jakes and was perfectly ok to be around him, I just made sure not to start any conversations about dip or let him see me pack a Jakes because I just wanted to golf  not get into a big thing about it. 

I'm quit today.  I'll post roll again tomorrow before I even take a leak or scratch my nuts......

I'm a huge fan of KTC  can't thank the guys in my group  the vets that have reached out enough.

I'm a damn proud  ;Ironman:

Well done brother!

Those are the kind of victories that will keep you quit. Keep that attitude and always keep your guard up.

I may been off the fake stuff for a few weeks now but I always have it near me just in case. I don't ever want to become a statistic and I never ever want to let my brothers and sisters here down.

Damn, man you make me want to go buy a new truck now, to fully leave my old dipping self behind.

nice job.....well done....

just had to get a new/used car myself and same situation, smelled so nice...and will never know about nicotine being inside it from me.

score 60-0...you are winning, keep piling on the numbers

[Pinched]

I've been trying to add little snippets along the way so I can look back  remember everything that I've gone through in my quit.

This is day 60. Craves have been really bad lately. Like little fucking voices in my head. This morning, I had a sausage mcmuffin  diet coke for breakfast on the way to work  was sitting at my desk about 1/2 hour later  a voice screamed at me "YOU JUST HAD A MCMUFFIN, WHERES THE COPENHAGEN, YOU NEED IT".

I was surprised  after packing in some Jakes the voices calmed down. It also helped that I was working on the roll spreadsheet from yesterday  that always helps me focus on the quit.

No more dip dreams in quite a while, though I will say my dreams, when I've had any, have been very vivid. Not sure if that's a sign, symptom, what the fuck ever, just a thought that popped into my head.

Bought a new (used) 2012 Ford Fusion last Saturday  I take some pride knowing that this will be the very first car that I've EVER owned that I won't have dip in. No secret hiding spot. No dip stain on the seat from wiping my fingers. Awesome.

Played in a tournament last Sunday with a guy smoking cigars  another guy dipping his mind out. He was an obnoxious dipper. The kind that wants the world to know  has that nasty shit dripping out the front of his lip. I had my Jakes and was perfectly ok to be around him, I just made sure not to start any conversations about dip or let him see me pack a Jakes because I just wanted to golf  not get into a big thing about it.

I'm quit today. I'll post roll again tomorrow before I even take a leak or scratch my nuts......

I'm a huge fan of KTC  can't thank the guys in my group  the vets that have reached out enough.

I'm a damn proud ;Ironman:

Well done brother!

Those are the kind of victories that will keep you quit. Keep that attitude and always keep your guard up.

I may been off the fake stuff for a few weeks now but I always have it near me just in case. I don't ever want to become a statistic and I never ever want to let my brothers and sisters here down.

Damn, man you make me want to go buy a new truck now, to fully leave my old dipping self behind.

[golfpro9696]

I've been trying to add little snippets along the way so I can look back  remember everything that I've gone through in my quit.

This is day 60. Craves have been really bad lately. Like little fucking voices in my head. This morning, I had a sausage mcmuffin  diet coke for breakfast on the way to work  was sitting at my desk about 1/2 hour later  a voice screamed at me "YOU JUST HAD A MCMUFFIN, WHERES THE COPENHAGEN, YOU NEED IT".

I was surprised  after packing in some Jakes the voices calmed down. It also helped that I was working on the roll spreadsheet from yesterday  that always helps me focus on the quit.

No more dip dreams in quite a while, though I will say my dreams, when I've had any, have been very vivid. Not sure if that's a sign, symptom, what the fuck ever, just a thought that popped into my head.

Bought a new (used) 2012 Ford Fusion last Saturday  I take some pride knowing that this will be the very first car that I've EVER owned that I won't have dip in. No secret hiding spot. No dip stain on the seat from wiping my fingers. Awesome.

Played in a tournament last Sunday with a guy smoking cigars  another guy dipping his mind out. He was an obnoxious dipper. The kind that wants the world to know  has that nasty shit dripping out the front of his lip. I had my Jakes and was perfectly ok to be around him, I just made sure not to start any conversations about dip or let him see me pack a Jakes because I just wanted to golf  not get into a big thing about it.

I'm quit today. I'll post roll again tomorrow before I even take a leak or scratch my nuts......

I'm a huge fan of KTC  can't thank the guys in my group  the vets that have reached out enough.

I'm a damn proud ;Ironman:

[golfpro9696]

My log entry for days 29-31:

Started Monday on Day 29  out of nowhere, got hit with massive cravings  tired beyond belief. I was at my desk  could barely keep my eyes open. Got so bad that I went across the street to the convenience store (where I used to buy all my cope)  bought a can of Monster Energy, some swedish fish  a box of gobstoppers. Went to the clerk on the far side from the shit  never looked at it. Got back to my desk and just about made myself sick with the candy  energy drink, but it cured that crave. It also cured any thoughts of dinner that night too.

Got up Tuesday morning  was more than happy to call in sick to stay home with my son who wasn't feeling good. We both went back to bed  slept til noon. Of course, there is no nicotine in the house so as long as I didn't leave the house I was safe. I cleaned the house in the afternoon and dipped a can of Jakes Mint to keep me sane.

Today, day 31 has been better. Watching the weight increase even though I've tried to be more active  watch my diet (with exceptions on Monday) but fuck it, I needed that.

I've read countless intro's, HOF's  blogs, but I wasn't expecting the SUCK to pop up out of the blue like that. I'm prepared to do another Monster/swedish fish buffet if it comes on again that strong  am getting ready to order another stash from Jakes. Straight Mint  Cinnamon have been my favorite, though I'm man enough to admit that I liked the Cranberry  Cherry too....

I've now got 3 rounds of golf under my belt nicotine free  surprise, surprise, Dip DID NOT make me shoot lower scores, hit it farther, or putt better. Fucking shocker...

It's Day 31  I'll stay quit today with my March quit brothers.

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

Day 10  something's different. I woke up this morning in a better mood....a much better mood. I don't hate everything today.

and this morning's poop was......magical. TMI, I'm sure, but it was outstanding  I felt compelled to share.

Plenty of danger around today, annual employee party, always a trigger to sneak out  pack a lipper so I didn't have to socialize... but I will get through today nicotine free.

Did I mention I feel great  took the dump of the century this morning?

Not much beats a good shit! Keep quitting ODAAT.

[EFNKodiak]

What can be better than feeling great and having the added bonus of taking a magnificent dump? Well being quit for 10 days ranks up there in my opinion.

Great job!

[golfpro9696]

Day 10  something's different. I woke up this morning in a better mood....a much better mood. I don't hate everything today.

and this morning's poop was......magical. TMI, I'm sure, but it was outstanding  I felt compelled to share.

Plenty of danger around today, annual employee party, always a trigger to sneak out  pack a lipper so I didn't have to socialize... but I will get through today nicotine free.

Did I mention I feel great  took the dump of the century this morning?

[golfpro9696]

Here's the really stupid part of addiction. I'm 8 days quit today  have been suckling on Smokey Mountain fake dip like nobody's business. Walmart is out of wintergreen, only classic  straight..... Both of which taste, to my less than refined palate, like complete unwashed ass.

So, I've got 2 cans of Smokey Mountain in the truck, neither of which I enjoy. But somewhere inside my crackpot fucked up brain, it tells me that I need to have something in my lip.... I told myself, all I have is fake dip that's terrible but I went down to my truck anyway  popped in a straight  the craving went away. Like my mind didn't recognize that this was fake dip.

I sat in my truck, reading the forums here and had the occasional full body shiver but I'm still quit.

I also went back to my desk after  ordered some Jakes mint chew....

I'm guessing that embracing the suck includes sucking on mint leaves that have been mangled up and made to taste like a rotten fart.....?

[Bulldog0311]

Went to Walmart for some Smokey Mountain. Had been debating whether to use the fake dip to curb the crave or try to ignore it but I figure anything is better than letting the bitch even mess with my head.

So, I go to Walmart  inquire in the pharmacy where they keep it, surely it's not at the tobacco counter.....but of course it is. Test #500,000 in the past 4 days.

Get to the counter at the same time as a couple with 2 kids  2 FULL carts. I have nothing. She immediately starts emptying the cart on the counter, basically cutting me off..... Now I have NOTHING in my hands  am obviously at this counter for a reason.... 'bang head' 'bang head' 'bang head'

Anyway, I stand patiently as they ring up $225 worth of items, then she realizes that they food stamp card she has is old  can the clerk hold this counter for "just 5 minutes" so she can run home  get the new card.....

All this while, every tobacco product in God's green earth is staring at me  I stared right fucking back. No way nic, you bitch, you're not using this rude woman as a personification of a fail  cave. No way. Not today, I posted roll.

I smiled  told the clerk I didn't mind waiting if it was easier on him. He ended up suspending the transaction  then was blown away that I was waiting on Smokey Mountain. I bought a can of straight  a can of Wintergreen  he was asking me questions. I told him I was on day 4 of my quit  needed just a little help for the cravings. He was the first person to congratulate me on my quit outside of this site.

I literally looked nic in the eyes today  gave her the finger. It's a long road but I know I'll be ok the rest of today.

That right there is awesome. Nice kick in the teeth for that bitch.

[golfpro9696]

Thanks everybody. The Winter Green is pretty good. It helps with the cravings for sure.

One of my favorite books is 11/22/63 by Stephen King. If you haven't read it, it's about a guy that finds a wormhole to the past  decides to go back in time  save Kennedy. The short version is that the past doesn't want to be changed  keeps throwing obstacles in his way; they get bigger and more dangerous as he gets closer to Oswald.

That's what that Walmart trip reminded me of. Nic doesn't want to let go. The Bitch is always going to throw obstacles up in the way of our quits. Tempting me to walk away from that counter and hit a 7/11 for the real stuff instead.

Nope, ain't going to happen today either, because I already posted roll.

[Pinched]

Went to Walmart for some Smokey Mountain.  Had been debating whether to use the fake dip to curb the crave or try to ignore it but I figure anything is better than letting the bitch even mess with my head.

So, I go to Walmart  inquire in the pharmacy where they keep it, surely it's not at the tobacco counter.....but of course it is.  Test #500,000 in the past 4 days.

Get to the counter at the same time as a couple with 2 kids  2 FULL carts.  I have nothing.  She immediately starts emptying the cart on the counter, basically cutting me off..... Now I have NOTHING in my hands  am obviously at this counter for a reason....  'bang head'  'bang head'  'bang head'

Anyway, I stand patiently as they ring up $225 worth of items, then she realizes that they food stamp card she has is old  can the clerk hold this counter for "just 5 minutes" so she can run home  get the new card.....

All this while, every tobacco product in God's green earth is staring at me  I stared right fucking back.  No way nic, you bitch, you're not using this rude woman as a personification of a fail  cave.  No way.  Not today, I posted roll.

I smiled  told the clerk I didn't mind waiting if it was easier on him.  He ended up suspending the transaction  then was blown away that I was waiting on Smokey Mountain.  I bought a can of straight  a can of Wintergreen  he was asking me questions.  I told him I was on day 4 of my quit  needed just a little help for the cravings.  He was the first person to congratulate me on my quit outside of this site.

I literally looked nic in the eyes today  gave her the finger.  It's a long road but I know I'll be ok the rest of today.

Nice win...luckily you weren't at day 26 and your temper had kicked in at full force or that food stamp card would have been up that lady's ass!

On my first night out for drinks after my quit, I was already nervous and was trying to make sure no triggers would be present. I'll be damned if the only parking spot I could find at the bar was across the street at a Tobacco Shop...

Outstanding PRO! To win that bump on day 4 is outstanding. Remember the suck and keep pushing forward, it does get easier.

Just got the tingles reading this,

WAY TO GO MAN. congrats on a huge victory.

Out-fucking-standing! Great win, and great narrative of the trip. You are more patient than I am without a quit making my fuse even shorter.

[Mogul]

a "Golf Quitter". and a damn tough one at that. For all of you that don't know what GOLF stands for it is Gentleman Only, Ladies Forbidden

[SirDerek]

Went to Walmart for some Smokey Mountain.  Had been debating whether to use the fake dip to curb the crave or try to ignore it but I figure anything is better than letting the bitch even mess with my head.

So, I go to Walmart  inquire in the pharmacy where they keep it, surely it's not at the tobacco counter.....but of course it is.  Test #500,000 in the past 4 days.

Get to the counter at the same time as a couple with 2 kids  2 FULL carts.  I have nothing.  She immediately starts emptying the cart on the counter, basically cutting me off..... Now I have NOTHING in my hands  am obviously at this counter for a reason....  'bang head'  'bang head'  'bang head'

Anyway, I stand patiently as they ring up $225 worth of items, then she realizes that they food stamp card she has is old  can the clerk hold this counter for "just 5 minutes" so she can run home  get the new card.....

All this while, every tobacco product in God's green earth is staring at me  I stared right fucking back.  No way nic, you bitch, you're not using this rude woman as a personification of a fail  cave.  No way.  Not today, I posted roll.

I smiled  told the clerk I didn't mind waiting if it was easier on him.  He ended up suspending the transaction  then was blown away that I was waiting on Smokey Mountain.  I bought a can of straight  a can of Wintergreen  he was asking me questions.  I told him I was on day 4 of my quit  needed just a little help for the cravings.  He was the first person to congratulate me on my quit outside of this site.

I literally looked nic in the eyes today  gave her the finger.  It's a long road but I know I'll be ok the rest of today.

Nice win...luckily you weren't at day 26 and your temper had kicked in at full force or that food stamp card would have been up that lady's ass!

On my first night out for drinks after my quit, I was already nervous and was trying to make sure no triggers would be present. I'll be damned if the only parking spot I could find at the bar was across the street at a Tobacco Shop...

Outstanding PRO! To win that bump on day 4 is outstanding. Remember the suck and keep pushing forward, it does get easier.

Just got the tingles reading this,

WAY TO GO MAN. congrats on a huge victory.

[Wt57]

Went to Walmart for some Smokey Mountain.  Had been debating whether to use the fake dip to curb the crave or try to ignore it but I figure anything is better than letting the bitch even mess with my head.

So, I go to Walmart  inquire in the pharmacy where they keep it, surely it's not at the tobacco counter.....but of course it is.  Test #500,000 in the past 4 days.

Get to the counter at the same time as a couple with 2 kids  2 FULL carts.  I have nothing.  She immediately starts emptying the cart on the counter, basically cutting me off..... Now I have NOTHING in my hands  am obviously at this counter for a reason....  'bang head'  'bang head'  'bang head'

Anyway, I stand patiently as they ring up $225 worth of items, then she realizes that they food stamp card she has is old  can the clerk hold this counter for "just 5 minutes" so she can run home  get the new card.....

All this while, every tobacco product in God's green earth is staring at me  I stared right fucking back.  No way nic, you bitch, you're not using this rude woman as a personification of a fail  cave.  No way.  Not today, I posted roll.

I smiled  told the clerk I didn't mind waiting if it was easier on him.  He ended up suspending the transaction  then was blown away that I was waiting on Smokey Mountain.  I bought a can of straight  a can of Wintergreen  he was asking me questions.  I told him I was on day 4 of my quit  needed just a little help for the cravings.  He was the first person to congratulate me on my quit outside of this site.

I literally looked nic in the eyes today  gave her the finger.  It's a long road but I know I'll be ok the rest of today.

Nice win...luckily you weren't at day 26 and your temper had kicked in at full force or that food stamp card would have been up that lady's ass!

On my first night out for drinks after my quit, I was already nervous and was trying to make sure no triggers would be present. I'll be damned if the only parking spot I could find at the bar was across the street at a Tobacco Shop...

Outstanding PRO! To win that bump on day 4 is outstanding. Remember the suck and keep pushing forward, it does get easier.