Well, I had the best four days of the quit a couple of days ago, minimal cravings, and mentally quiet in my head during those days. I was off-set (a little, not much) and seems like I am now going in miniature circles with the quit, making gains, then get attacked, I keep pushing, the cravings push back, and although it has been months, and it is clear that chance of caving is minimal, that it (the addiction) keeps trying to re-enlist me to the chewing ranks again; especially, when there is a change of routine in my life.
For everyone quitting right now great job, and keep it up! I know many of you would suggest me joining a quit group, and doing roll, however, my way seems to be working, (why fix what's not broken), and the most important thing is that I am resolute about not getting dipping again. My symptoms don't tempt me to go run out and drive to the Loaf n Jug, however my observation is that nicotine had much more control over my body physically and physiologically, then I could of ever known.
I have not used tobacco or nicotine since September, I used fake dip for a month, and use nothing today. I notice that quitting dip= mental WAR, my days are sharp during daylight hours, and a "band" of tension wraps around my head. my cheeks, and my neck at night.
However, the good news is that having those symptoms is well worth it, because I am making more ground quitting, then any mental withdrawals coming my way. It gets better month to month, and I am excited to see how I feel after 6 months, and even 1 year! I am a better person without tobacco, and again I thank everyone for your contributions on this site that's helped me stay quit; roll or not!