I'm here expanding a bit on my intro because I know just writing some things down here will help me since I'm really struggling on Day 8 of my quit. I've made it through the day and now even making it through the most difficult part of the day. Everyone asleep in the house, I'm down at my desk in front of my computer, usually the time when I would fill my bottom lip as much as I possibly could and just settle in for an hour or so. I read alot of posts over the past week, some posts talk about dipping a can a day, the last year or so I was up to three cans a day. I'm embarrassed even saying that. Crazy I know but I work a lot out of my house and am sitting at my desk all day, house is empty and I would dip all day every day. Major alarm bells rang for me when I caught my son one night going through my desk looking for my dip. He's only 16 and I realized that I had introduced him to this filthy, disgusting habit and had helped turn him into an addict and something that can take his life some day way too early. They talk about hitting rock bottom well that was it for me. When I was alone I hung my head and wept. As I struggle with my quit I think about all the reasons I'm doing it, knowing that one of them is that I need to show him it can be done. I've influenced him negatively, now I need to be a positive influence for him. I told him I quit and doing that is probably the biggest motivator for me to stay quit other than I want to live! I will show him that I am strong, I will not cave and give any reason the satisfaction of undermining my resolve and then I will help him quit.
I've made it through Day 8 and I will post roll in the morning. Thank you all for quitting with me.