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Offline Move Forward

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Re: The "Last Can" Syndrome
« Reply #9 on: March 12, 2009, 10:22:00 PM »
Day 4 today

Not too bad of a day today. Had a couple of craves today, but they fizzled out without much of a fuss. I did have the fog quite a bit today. Matter of fact, as I'm composing this, I'm a little foggy. Most of the day I was spent cooped up inside a room...my mind wondered all over the place. I am not sure what they call those things they put on horses during a race, (those side shield things) but it felt like I had those on all day today. Felt like I had a major case of tunnel vision for the majority of the day.

Had a couple of small craves after lunch and dinner, but for the most part, they weren't as strong as previous days cravings. I get on this site as much as I can when I feel an urge to chew, and for me, that helps to control my urge.

When the nic bitch calls, she's getting busy signals....she's nothing more than a telemarketer to me now...just a huge pain in the ass and I'm not giving in to what she's selling.

I'm digging the chew rings in my jeans...they're a reminder of the toughest thing I've overcome and I wear it proudly, just waiting for someone to ask me for a dip...and when they do I hope they're prepared for what I'm about to unleash on em'.

God help the chewer, for they know not what they do.

STAY QUIT!

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Re: The "Last Can" Syndrome
« Reply #8 on: March 12, 2009, 12:29:00 AM »
lol i read that and couldnt help but laugh. I was at mcdonalds around day 3 zoned out in line dreaming of chew. The cashier suddenly asked me what i wanted to eat, for a very long second i had absolutly no idea where i was. I looked around and was so fogged, dizy and disoriented i just wanted to climb in a hole and cry. So i naturally panicked screamed out #2 (having no idea what i ordered just thankful it wasnt the filet o fish) and threw my money on the table. When i received my meal i ran out as quickly as i could and came straight to this website and im sure if it werent for KTC i would have gone straight to the gas station and filled my mouth with chew but not this time
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Re: The "Last Can" Syndrome
« Reply #7 on: March 11, 2009, 11:08:00 AM »
Well, it's day 3 for me today! I thought I'd add to this every day, sort of my own personal journal, to keep myself accountable and to record any experiences I'm having. I'm thankful to everyone whose helped me up to this point.

Yesterday was hell, the nic bitch called on me all day yesterday, she came close to sweet talking me into caving but I bitch slapped her ass back to reality. Then for a good part of the day I was in a fog, seemed like 1/2 the time I was in La La land.

Went to Lowes yesterday to price some fencing...seemed like a simple enough thing to do. As I was pricing the various types, this strange feeling came over me. I just felt weird, as if I was hypnotized by some strange force or something. It felt as if I were there staring at this one particular fence for what seemed like hours. I remember an older gentleman walking past me a few times. I didn't look at him because I was entranced by this fence...for whatever reason, but I did see him non the less. I can just imagine what was going through his mind as he watched me stare down this fence...he probably thought I was just released from the loony farm or something.

Anyway, that happened a few other times yesterday as well, just kind of off in my own little world for periods of time. That is some weird shit, how I can just daze away like that....that nic really is a bitch, ain't she? Can hardly wait to see what's in store for the days that follow. Whoopee!

Screw that chew!

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Re: The "Last Can" Syndrome
« Reply #6 on: March 10, 2009, 08:51:00 AM »
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The cravings hit me hard last night after dinner but I didn't cave. It was like I had 2 voices in my head or something, my irrational voice and my rational voice. I really was craving that dip bad, but held firm.

Now this morning, I wake up at 3:30 in the morning to got to the restroom and Mr. Craving really hits hard again. Oh it's driving me crazy the way this craving is messing with my head. Trying to catch me off guard and get me to break. The chew monster will always be there tempting me to come back, but I won this battle.

Screw the chew!

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Good job holding steady. It will get better I promise you. 1st few days are by far the worst. Take it day by day and soon enough those days will add up to a week and you'll be loving life. Chew gum, eat sunflower seeds, drink green tea, whatever it takes brother. You can do this!
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Re: The "Last Can" Syndrome
« Reply #5 on: March 10, 2009, 07:41:00 AM »
hey man you guys every time i see this thred i think some one is tryin to get my attenshun. but any way keep fitin the good fite. dont give in to the nic bitch!
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Re: The "Last Can" Syndrome
« Reply #4 on: March 10, 2009, 06:37:00 AM »
The cravings hit me hard last night after dinner but I didn't cave. It was like I had 2 voices in my head or something, my irrational voice and my rational voice. I really was craving that dip bad, but held firm.

Now this morning, I wake up at 3:30 in the morning to got to the restroom and Mr. Craving really hits hard again. Oh it's driving me crazy the way this craving is messing with my head. Trying to catch me off guard and get me to break. The chew monster will always be there tempting me to come back, but I won this battle.

Screw the chew!

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Re: The "Last Can" Syndrome
« Reply #3 on: March 09, 2009, 01:53:00 PM »
Quote from: Move
Found this site today and immediately joined. 

I have been dipping for 25 years and there comes a time when enough is enough.  Sure, I've quit before and told myself that "this is my last can."  I'd need a calculator to add up all the "last cans" I've accumulated throughout the years. Then, within a day or so, I'd forget all about that supposed "last can" and continue dipping. 

To be honest, I need help.  This is one thing in my life that seems like I can't control.  I thought I could but this shit ain't easy to overcome.  It's addicting as hell and has grabbed me by the throat and won't let go. 

That's why I joined here, to man up and to finally grab this beast by the horns, kick it in the backside and get on with a normal life.  I'm tired of this addiction having such control over me, I'm taking control now but will need assistance in doing so.

I could babble on and on about my story but it could get rather lengthy so I'll refrain for now.

I've been a SKOAL brother long enough!

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You've made a wise choice my friend. There is a ton of support and education available through this site - utilize both. You've got some "rough" days ahead of you with the withdrawl, there's no denying it. It gets better, trust me. Much, much better. Get through the first few days and you'll see what I mean. I hate to even talk in terms of "getting through the first few days." Truthfully, you need to focus on each day one at a time. Get up in the morning, post roll and make that commitment to your quit brothers that you'll have no nicotine for that day. Worry about tomorrow when it gets here. There are a boatload of folks here who will bend over backwards to support you through this. We got your back. You can do this!
Gooch

Get after it move forward. Every morning look in the mirror and tell yourself...out loud if you have to...I will NOT use nicotine today. Then everytime you crave...everytime it hurts...everytime you drive by your favorite "convenience store" say to your self...or out loud...NO, that decision has been made today. Worry about tomorrow when it gets here. Worry about this afternoon at 3:00 when it gets here. Just know that for right now there is no reason to discuss it because that decision has been made! That has gotten me through 21 days...after 33 years of slavery to the crap. Use us...that's what we are here for!

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Re: The "Last Can" Syndrome
« Reply #2 on: March 09, 2009, 10:31:00 AM »
Quote from: Move
Found this site today and immediately joined.

I have been dipping for 25 years and there comes a time when enough is enough. Sure, I've quit before and told myself that "this is my last can." I'd need a calculator to add up all the "last cans" I've accumulated throughout the years. Then, within a day or so, I'd forget all about that supposed "last can" and continue dipping.

To be honest, I need help. This is one thing in my life that seems like I can't control. I thought I could but this shit ain't easy to overcome. It's addicting as hell and has grabbed me by the throat and won't let go.

That's why I joined here, to man up and to finally grab this beast by the horns, kick it in the backside and get on with a normal life. I'm tired of this addiction having such control over me, I'm taking control now but will need assistance in doing so.

I could babble on and on about my story but it could get rather lengthy so I'll refrain for now.

I've been a SKOAL brother long enough!

Move Forward
You've made a wise choice my friend. There is a ton of support and education available through this site - utilize both. You've got some "rough" days ahead of you with the withdrawl, there's no denying it. It gets better, trust me. Much, much better. Get through the first few days and you'll see what I mean. I hate to even talk in terms of "getting through the first few days." Truthfully, you need to focus on each day one at a time. Get up in the morning, post roll and make that commitment to your quit brothers that you'll have no nicotine for that day. Worry about tomorrow when it gets here. There are a boatload of folks here who will bend over backwards to support you through this. We got your back. You can do this!
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The "Last Can" Syndrome
« on: March 09, 2009, 10:20:00 AM »
Found this site today and immediately joined.

I have been dipping for 25 years and there comes a time when enough is enough. Sure, I've quit before and told myself that "this is my last can." I'd need a calculator to add up all the "last cans" I've accumulated throughout the years. Then, within a day or so, I'd forget all about that supposed "last can" and continue dipping.

To be honest, I need help. This is one thing in my life that seems like I can't control. I thought I could but this shit ain't easy to overcome. It's addicting as hell and has grabbed me by the throat and won't let go.

That's why I joined here, to man up and to finally grab this beast by the horns, kick it in the backside and get on with a normal life. I'm tired of this addiction having such control over me, I'm taking control now but will need assistance in doing so.

I could babble on and on about my story but it could get rather lengthy so I'll refrain for now.

I've been a SKOAL brother long enough!

Move Forward
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