The "Last Can" Syndrome

[Bhfive]

Day 69

Been a while since last post but quit is going a lot better than I expected. Have had one serious crave that was back in my mid 50 quit days but overcame that. I know that other craves are lurking in the shadows but having this site and the chat really help me stay quit and true to self.

Was out of town all of last week, had Kid post roll for me...Kid, if you read this, Thanks for posting for me.

Was around a lot of people that dipped last week and am so fortunate I'm quit, those guys looked fucking ignorant with those big fatties in their lips and breath that smelled like old gym socks. I had a spit cup but it was full of sunflower seeds from the big David sunflower seeds I was chewing on all week.

Something great about this site that I would like to share is the accountability with each of our quits. As I mentioned, I was away from home all of last week and my only way of posting was for me to text a quit buddy from my cell phone, which I did every day. Here's the neat thing, Bhfive, being the great quitter that he is, became concerned about me and shot me a quick text checking up on me and making sure I was doing alright. Talk about making you feel good, that's some awesome shit right there. Having a fellow quitter thinking enough about you to check in and make sure you're alright is an awesome feeling. Bhfive, thank you bro, you're one hell of a quit brother in my book!

To those of you that are just getting started, find yourself a quit buddy, get their number, post for one another if there's a time you won't be able to post. It may sound a little silly to you right now, but when you utilize it, the feeling and satisfaction you get from it will be well worth it. Staying quit isn't a game and using all the tools from this site will make your quit much more attainable. Having a quit buddy or multiple quit buddies is well worth it and it only takes a few seconds to send a text, invest in one another and you will reap the rewards.

Stay Strong-Stay Quit!

MF

And you returned the favor Saturday while I was watching my baby and could not get to computer as early as usual. I think it makes my quit a lot more fun haveing brothers to keep an eye on.

Great quit MF!

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Day 69

Been a while since last post but quit is going a lot better than I expected. Have had one serious crave that was back in my mid 50 quit days but overcame that. I know that other craves are lurking in the shadows but having this site and the chat really help me stay quit and true to self.

Was out of town all of last week, had Kid post roll for me...Kid, if you read this, Thanks for posting for me.

Was around a lot of people that dipped last week and am so fortunate I'm quit, those guys looked fucking ignorant with those big fatties in their lips and breath that smelled like old gym socks. I had a spit cup but it was full of sunflower seeds from the big David sunflower seeds I was chewing on all week.

Something great about this site that I would like to share is the accountability with each of our quits. As I mentioned, I was away from home all of last week and my only way of posting was for me to text a quit buddy from my cell phone, which I did every day. Here's the neat thing, Bhfive, being the great quitter that he is, became concerned about me and shot me a quick text checking up on me and making sure I was doing alright. Talk about making you feel good, that's some awesome shit right there. Having a fellow quitter thinking enough about you to check in and make sure you're alright is an awesome feeling. Bhfive, thank you bro, you're one hell of a quit brother in my book!

To those of you that are just getting started, find yourself a quit buddy, get their number, post for one another if there's a time you won't be able to post. It may sound a little silly to you right now, but when you utilize it, the feeling and satisfaction you get from it will be well worth it. Staying quit isn't a game and using all the tools from this site will make your quit much more attainable. Having a quit buddy or multiple quit buddies is well worth it and it only takes a few seconds to send a text, invest in one another and you will reap the rewards.

Stay Strong-Stay Quit!

MF

[Move Forward]

Day 53

Haven't posted here in a while and figured I'd post a little something. Quit is going fantastic, chewing the shit out of seeds when at work, that was always a trigger for me - my work, along with about a thousand other triggers!

Still eating like a buffalo with 2 assholes, I'm hoping at some point the appetite will diminish before my midsection explodes. Right now, food is tasting great and my new addiction to the fork is something that is on my next "to do" list.

Been getting a lot of sleep, more than I ever did when I was dipping. The pillow and I are spending a lot more time together and my body is appreciating that, it's catching up on some much needed rest.

Joined the KTC blog and will probably post on occasion over there. Check it out, it's in it's infancy stages but it's worth the read.

Till next time: Stay Strong-Stay Quit!

MF

[O.D.]

I used to complain to my wife how I must never get enough sleep.  I would try everything, gradually bumping up my bedtime, cutting out caffeine, etc.  But I would still wake up feeling like a zomby for fifteen minutes to a half hour, stumbling out of bed, directly to brush my teeth, immediately followed by a dip while I shave and shower.  It was like I was in lala land autopilot.

It wasn't until the quit that I realized that these symptoms aren't due to any sort of sleeping disorder.  It was the fog, withdrawl from going 6 to 8 hours without nicotine.  Now, I wake up refreshed most mornings.  For that, I am thankful.

That's the truth.

I'm wondering what your "time until you think of dip" is these days. Tomorrow is day 50 for me. Yesterday, I think I went 2 full hours before I thought of it ... probably when I posted roll. Today though .... IMMEDIATELY!!.

Can't wait for that to change.

I still think about it nearly first thing in the morning. Even if I am not in the morning fog, which I usually am not, I'm still thinking as I brush my teeth, "Sheesh, 25 days ago I would have thrown a dip in right after I put my toothbrush away." Sometimes the thought does tip off a crave. I usually then put in some Smokey Mountain, though.

One thing that does distract me first thing in the morning, though, is recalling crazy ass dreams I keep having. I haven't had the cave dreams people keep talking about, but I've dreamt of people killing people, people raping babies, crazy shit. Last night I dreamt I was disarming this guy who had a gun, but he also had a knife, and he stabbed me twice in the thigh. I didn't get shot, though...

[ust25yrdonor]

I used to complain to my wife how I must never get enough sleep.  I would try everything, gradually bumping up my bedtime, cutting out caffeine, etc.  But I would still wake up feeling like a zomby for fifteen minutes to a half hour, stumbling out of bed, directly to brush my teeth, immediately followed by a dip while I shave and shower.  It was like I was in lala land autopilot.

It wasn't until the quit that I realized that these symptoms aren't due to any sort of sleeping disorder.  It was the fog, withdrawl from going 6 to 8 hours without nicotine.  Now, I wake up refreshed most mornings.  For that, I am thankful.

That's the truth.

I'm wondering what your "time until you think of dip" is these days. Tomorrow is day 50 for me. Yesterday, I think I went 2 full hours before I thought of it ... probably when I posted roll. Today though .... IMMEDIATELY!!.

Can't wait for that to change.

[O.D.]

I used to complain to my wife how I must never get enough sleep. I would try everything, gradually bumping up my bedtime, cutting out caffeine, etc. But I would still wake up feeling like a zomby for fifteen minutes to a half hour, stumbling out of bed, directly to brush my teeth, immediately followed by a dip while I shave and shower. It was like I was in lala land autopilot.

It wasn't until the quit that I realized that these symptoms aren't due to any sort of sleeping disorder. It was the fog, withdrawl from going 6 to 8 hours without nicotine. Now, I wake up refreshed most mornings. For that, I am thankful.

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Day 37

Today is tax day and typically today would be a very heavy dip day for me. I'd be crunching numbers, sweating bullets and putting one dip in right after another worrying if I was going to be the recipient of some cold hard cash or if I was going to have to fork over some jack. However, today is day 37 for me and I'm nic free, plus I don't have to fret about getting dip juice all over everything, that's a bonus in itself.

Have had a few craves the past few days but easily able to squash em'. Returned to work this week and the triggers there weren't as bad as what I had anticipated, this site being the main reason to prepare me for any situation I may face.

Have had a couple of foggy moments as well, I guess those kind of come and go, they aren't as strong as in the past. Still is a funny feeling at times because you know you're in a fog, yet kind of enjoy it because it's almost surreal. I'll take the fog over a lip turd any day, plus the fog can make for some funny ass stories at times as well.

If you're new, welcome aboard! This site is a tool, use this tool in your quit and put it in your arsenal of weapons that combat the nic bitch. She's a sneaky bitch and can blind side you if you aren't prepared. Stay true to yourself and your group, post roll everyday and hold yourself accountable. The site works if you put in the effort. Put in the effort and make it work for you, the results will come one day at a time.

There is more to life than having a round tin as a best friend. That's one friend I can certainly do without!

Here's to you and your quit! 'Cheers'

Stay Strong-Stay Quit!

MF

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Day 29

Days going by faster  faster it seems, amazing how the days add up. Taking it one day at a time the days just fly by. The craves come and go but they are really not bad at all for me right now. Doesn't matter what I'm doing or going to do, I will always have my guard up.

Put on a few LBS. since I've quit and am ready to start dealing with that. I'd rather put on a few pounds than have to worry about my next nic fix. So glad to have that shit out of my system...

Think I'll go spar with the nic bitch...got 25 years of frustration I'm ready to unleash on her ass! Ding-Ding!

Stay Strong-Stay Quit!

MF

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Day 24

Been feeling pretty good about the quit, damn good actually. Closing in on my first month and feel proud of what I've achieved. My will to stay quit seems to grow stronger every day. I know there will be trying times ahead, not every day will be sunny and roses, but for now, my determination and will are very strong.

For the brothers and sisters in my June 09' quit group, I look forward to posting roll with you every day and crossing that HOF line with ALL OF YOU! It is by no means a finish line but a meaningful line none the less. It is our line, a line that points to our future and reminds us of where we've come from and where we need to get to.

For the brothers and sisters before me and that are leading the way for those of us that will follow in your footsteps: THANK YOU for supporting all of us! It has been by your guiding hands that we've made it this far and have been successful in our daily battles. Without all of you, none of this would be possible.

For the brothers and sisters just joining in this wonderful journey, do not waver, stay true to yourself, stay strong and have faith, it gets better every day. The life you save without a dip may very well be your own! You are worth every bit of daily quit you put into it!

I promise to be a good steward, to pay everything forward and to do it to the best of my abilities. It has been done before me and shall be done after me as well.

The Nic Bitch cometh and WE shall taketh her ass away!

Stay Strong-Stay Quit!

MF

[Gooch]

Day 22

Not posting every day here like I had originally thought I would. Still posting roll every day, still holding myself accountable. Hard to come up with something new every day. Thought I'd start this as sort of a journal, with intentions of posting every day and my emotions each day, etc... For whatever reason, I haven't been able to post as often as I would like.

Every day is a new day, I'm learning more and more each day. I learn something from the older groups and am inspired by the newer groups. I truly enjoy coming to this site each day, reading what ever it is-is on someone's mind, and understanding where they are coming from.

Every person that posts is posting from the heart, they are posting from what they feel at that time. To me, that is truly inspirational, to be able to speak your mind and to help a fellow human being. For whatever reasons, we are here. We all have been brought here to help one another.

Our addiction brought us to this point, our fellowship will help us get past it. I've made a lot of friends here. We all have our friends that have helped us through tough times. Thank that friend today, let them know you care enough to thank them for saving your life.

Stay Strong-Stay Quit!

MF

MF-
You sir are one hell of a quitter. Great job on the continued quit, day by day. Your journal is a great idea and I guess I wouldn't have much to say on a daily basis either so don't feel bad. I know I don't have to tell you this but if you need anything let me know.
I'll try to get in on a "chat" with you fellas one evening soon, been super busy. Day 45 for me today. Damn it feels good don't it?
Gooch

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Day 22

Not posting every day here like I had originally thought I would. Still posting roll every day, still holding myself accountable. Hard to come up with something new every day. Thought I'd start this as sort of a journal, with intentions of posting every day and my emotions each day, etc... For whatever reason, I haven't been able to post as often as I would like.

Every day is a new day, I'm learning more and more each day. I learn something from the older groups and am inspired by the newer groups. I truly enjoy coming to this site each day, reading what ever it is-is on someone's mind, and understanding where they are coming from.

Every person that posts is posting from the heart, they are posting from what they feel at that time. To me, that is truly inspirational, to be able to speak your mind and to help a fellow human being. For whatever reasons, we are here. We all have been brought here to help one another.

Our addiction brought us to this point, our fellowship will help us get past it. I've made a lot of friends here. We all have our friends that have helped us through tough times. Thank that friend today, let them know you care enough to thank them for saving your life.

Stay Strong-Stay Quit!

MF

[MikeCO]

Dear Move Forward,

You are an inspiration to us all. Period. Thanks brother.

Mike

p.s. another fine day of skiing with no dip for me.....I swear I had more energy today (I know I had more energy without dragging the nic-bitch around).

[Move Forward]

Day 20

Entering another weekend of quit. Looking forward to 3 weeks of quit tomorrow.

Craves hit me hard, very hard yesterday. Just when I thought things were smoothly sailing along, WHAM-I get hit with one hell of a crave! This crave reminded me of my craves when I first quit, that's how strong the crave was. I came on here, went into the chat room and got some help. Thank goodness for this site, if it wasn't for me knowing that I had somewhere to turn, I could have very easily caved yesterday.

This site gives more than just support, it gives confidence and belief in ones self. At first, when I first joined, it seemed a little weird. Here's a site that actually keeps you accountable for staying nic free. Very different concept, very good results. Just scroll through the HOF speeches and there's the proof that this site works.

Quitting will test your will, your strength, your desire. It will test every fiber of our being. We will be tested every day for the rest of our lives. I take it one day at a time, never looking too far ahead, remembering where I've been and where I want to go. I will pass this test with all of you and will stand by your side as we take this journey together.

Stay Strong Quitters!

MF

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Day 16

Over half a month gone by now. Time is zipping right by and it's hard to believe I haven't had a chew in 16 days. If you'd have told me I would be dip free for 16 days, I would probably have laughed and said: "yeah, right!" Minute by minute, hour by hour, day by day, pretty soon, those days start adding up and you're well on your way.

It's an awesome feeling to be quit. Being a quitter doesn't take any special skills, it doesn't require a college degree or special knowledge, it just takes belief. Belief in yourself, belief that you can do what you set your mind to and go out and achieve it.

When I first thought about quitting, every can of chew I bought was "My Last Can". I kept telling myself that over and over, but didn't believe I could do it. I failed over and over again because I really didn't take it seriously. Then I found QSX. This site gave me the belief in myself and the support system to go with it. Now I'm a believer, I'm posting roll, staying accountable and trying to do my part in helping others.

The site works folks, use it to your advantage. Knowledge is power and with that knowledge we can change ourselves for the better.

Stay Strong-Stay Quit!

MF

[Gooch]

Day 15

Gone all weekend and didn't get a chance to update my post. Was quit all weekend and only had 1 small crave, which I quickly dismissed and went on about my weekend.

Starting on 2nd week and am beginning to notice that my behavior has changed. I am beginning to get agitated very easily now and with very little provocation. Things that would have never bothered me in the past are now really irritating me. It is the little things, things that don't really matter that are pissing me off. It's frustrating because I know they are petty things, however, they still get under my skin for whatever reason. Hell I'm starting to get a little agitated as I am writing this because I know it shouldn't bother me, yet it is! This is the frustrating part, knowing that I'm agitated but not being able to suppress the emotional side of my feelings. I hate being this way and hope that this phase passes soon.

The fog isn't as bad as it was, however it still hasn't completely faded away. Still get moments where I feel like I'm in another place or something, however it doesn't last as long and as often as it did previously. For the most part, I only get 1 or 2 episodes of fogginess a day now as apposed to 5-10 or more per day previously.

To be honest, going through all of these changes and riding these emotional roller coasters has proven to me how bad chewing this shit really is. I put my system and my health at risk for many years, thinking I could quit at the drop of a dime. What kind of ass lets some round tin control all of their emotions and actions. That ass was me. I thank my lucky stars for this site because I've been quit for 15 glorious days now and without this site, I'm sure that I'd be sportin' a fatty right now. I'm proud of myself and all of my brothers and sisters throughout this site that have stood up to the nic bitch, slapped her across the face and never looked back. Right on Quitters, right on! You are the strongest bunch of MOFOS I've come across and I'm proud to be associated with you.

If you're reading this and you're on the fence about quitting, get some stones. Don't wait till tomorrow what you could do today. You're letting that tin be in charge and having control over you. I challenge you to take control of yourself and your life by tossing that tin, manning up and joining a quit group. It could just be the best thing that's ever happened to you and it may well end up saving your life.

Get off the fence!

Stay Strong-Stay Quit!

MF

MF-
I had an extremely similar experience as you explained. Found myself getting pissed at total strangers over petty shit. I'm day 36 today and looking back, I'd say it's been roughly the last 7 to 10 days that things have improved in that regard.
Let me share these words of wisdom with you. One of my favorite quotes by honest Abe, "Most people are about as happy as they make their minds up to be." Not saying you're choosing to be an asshole or pissy MF, just saying keep things in perspective. You are in the midst of one of the toughest endeavors you'll likely encounter in life. The upside is your winning. Not only are you winning but you're kicking ass and you deserve all the credit for that. Yes, we've supported you along the way. You've returned that support to me and others, but as far as your quit goes nobody can do that for you. Great job, keep up the good work!!
Gooch