Long Overdue

[Rawls]

55 days of freedom...now that I think about it, I didn't do it by myself. I don't know how many of you out there are religious (and I also don't want to offend anyone who is or isn't) but I know I couldn't have done it without God and prayer. Thanks Jeff for the support. Stay quit.

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Hey Eric.
Sounds like you are a busy man...
Religion....? I'm your Huckleberry.
Great start you have going and a great group of men concerned and wanting you to be free.
I'm hoping we can talk more later but let me say this for now.
We were not created to use poison.
It does not make you jump higher, think smarter, releave pain, make life easier. It is an Idol that you need to burn and quit believing it's little whispers.. it lies.
Lie lie lie.... It caught us all... But the truth sets all of us free.
We post roll here daily ODAAT. That is the injection that heals your brain. When you don't post roll you leave your armor open for an arrow.
You miss posting roll, you go backwards. Don't go backwards.
People who miss roll are thinking ahead..... They are thinking about later... Thinking about tomorrow.
You and I are addicts... We should JUST be thinking about today. ODAAT.
Throw your keys under the bed at night. In the morning get on your knees and pray.. Then post roll and make your promise not to use tobacco.
I quit with you today.
Don't miss role again.. For any reason.
Thank you for your service.
Thank you ahead of time for helping others with their quit. They need you.. And you need them.
Rawls

[erick]

What happened to TonyFlynn?? I tried to text him but my phone rejected the number.

Bazooka, I think someone in March tried to reach him yesterday and said his phone number is not working anymore (either he changed it, or disconnected, etc.)

His last post was Sunday (22Feb) afternoon @ 2:08pm.....nothing since.....he had been a early / everyday roll poster up until that day...

If anyone has his digits - send him a note and get status

Also missing:
Jayhawk....missed roll 2 of last 3 days...still nothing today

erick.....missed 2 of last 5 days...still nothing today

Hey!...you need to tighten this the fuck up....this is easy....wake up / post roll / have a great day / go to bed / wake up / repeat

Yea I missed a couple of days and I'm sorry for that...but still quit today. I can sit here and give a thousand excuses if you wanna hear them but I know I still missed roll. Thanks for keeping me on point tho!

Who has your digits, erick? Looking at the SSoA, that number appears to be approximately zero. With a Z.

You won't make excuses and I can respect that, but I have a tough time getting myself on board with someone that isn't actively seeking out accountability.

How many digits can you swap with your fellow March brothers by end of day? How many more can you have by this time tomorrow?

The correct answer is "not enough."

Yes Pre I'll stay on top of it...and Tuco well unfortunately I don't have all day to be on here and swapping numbers...however here is my number if anybody wants it...xxx-xxx-xxxx (EDIT: Don't post your digits on a public forum. Use PM's)...and I know accountability is a big part to staying quit...I do however hold myself accountable and I know I'll stay quit wether or not I'm posting roll...now I understand that me not posting roll keeps u guys on edge on wether or not I'm quit that day...and if this means anything to you all...I'm giving u my word right now that I can account for myself...sorry if I'm too tired to get up and spent two minutes on here posting roll...I literally get up just in time for work as of lately...but I'll make sure not to miss another day from now on...thanks March!

So that's your plan, huh? You're going to hold yourself accountable. Exactly which part of you holds Y-O-U accountable?

I can say with absolute certainty that unless you have made a promise first thing each day and unless you are accountable to others, the chances of this quit lasting over the long haul are exceptionally slim. The odds just aren't in your favor. Argue with me all you want, but addiction = attrition.

All I read from your rebuttal (you should have quit digging yourself deeper, by the way, and spent your precious limited free time on trading digits) was pure addict speak. Addicts convince themselves that "they've got this" all on their own and that they can hold themselves accountable. It's total bullshit, and given how close you are to the 100 day mark, I'm stunned we're even having a conversation at this level.

What happens when the nic bitch starts whispering in your ear one night after a long day? Who are you going to reach out to? Yourself? What will you say back to you? Lots of folks try to quit that way. Most of them are still fingering a can.

Here's one: what will your dip dreams be like? Will you wake up in a cold sweat over the nightmare of caving and having to try and explain yourself to your brothers, or will you think, "hmmmm. that was too real. maybe a can wouldn't hurt. who would know, anyway?"

My comments still stand.  You need to be actively seeking accountability now more than ever. You need to recognize your addict thinking for what it is and get yourself locked into a mindset that doesn't have you taking a hot shit over those that are trying to help you help yourself.

Tuco I understand every word that you are saying to me...but I don't think you are understanding what I said...I'm not saying I can do this by myself...I'm not saying I want to be accountable to myself...I think u simply misunderstood me as my English and grammar is not the best...what I am trying to say is that I hold the days I missed accountable to myself...I hold my addiction accountable to myself...I know I broke my promise and let u guys down...i guss what I meant is I take responsibility...I'm not trying to dig myself in a hole here I was simply trying to take responsibility for my mistakes and apologize to you guys...I know I can't stay quit by myself...shit I would still be dipping if it wasn't for KTC...I know I'm an addict and I'm not trying to do this by myself...I know I can't stay quit by myself...I do also know that I have to be accountable to others...trust me Tuco I don't believe for one second "that I got this all by myself"...and that's what I'm trying to say...is that I'm sorry for missing those two days but I also want u guys to know that I will stay quit even if I missed one or two days

And Tuco its not that I don't want to spend time on here with you all it's truly honestly that I'm super busy...I'm either at work or sleeping...as a matter of fact I had just reply to Bro that I wish I could spend more time on here..

Anyways March and KTC please don't misunderstand my comments as I am not trying to talk shit...I am not trying to say I'm right and u guys are wrong...I know posting roll is the way to stay quit wether at 100 or 10000 days...I hope this makes sense? :)

Posting roll is only part of it. It's a HUGE part - don't get me wrong there. Your day begins and ends with your promise to be quit. If you are truly accountable to yourself, then you will accept nothing less than making sure that you get yourself on roll. Every day. First thing. No excuses. Set your alarm 2 minutes earlier in the morning so you can give yourself enough time to get posted on roll. If you're a responsible man that can get yourself up for work, then you can certainly take care of business with your quit first thing, too.

Now comes the interesting part: Accountability.

Even if you aren't on here shooting the shit, reading posts, and interacting with folks, doesn't mean you are doomed to go it alone. Spend some time swapping digits with guys in March, other vets, and noobs alike. Get a small text group going. Put yourself out there. Get others personally invested in you and your quit. Do the same for them. That's where accountability is truly formed. That's what keeps you going through the funks and the lulls. Shit, those guys will even get you posted on roll on days when you don't have time. Win-win all the way around.

This is your quit and it is up to you to take full ownership of it and make it the best and ONLY quit you will ever know.

I understand Tuco thanks a lot...thanks Pre and beast as well...I needed this little pick me up...I will be ACCOUNTABLE to you all.

I gotta get back to work got a 767 coming in so sorry if I don't reply...I'll try to catch up tonight...thanks again everyone stay quit

[Scowick65]

55 days of freedom...now that I think about it, I didn't do it by myself. I don't know how many of you out there are religious (and I also don't want to offend anyone who is or isn't) but I know I couldn't have done it without God and prayer. Thanks Jeff for the support. Stay quit.

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[pab1964]

55 days of freedom...now that I think about it, I didn't do it by myself. I don't know how many of you out there are religious (and I also don't want to offend anyone who is or isn't) but I know I couldn't have done it without God and prayer. Thanks Jeff for the support. Stay quit.

Awesome brother! Good Lord does help a lot! Stay focused guys here been quit for years and having to get forgiveness to start over! That tells me ole nic biatch always gonna be behind us! Stay quit my brother proud to be quit with you!

[erick]

55 days of freedom...now that I think about it, I didn't do it by myself. I don't know how many of you out there are religious (and I also don't want to offend anyone who is or isn't) but I know I couldn't have done it without God and prayer. Thanks Jeff for the support. Stay quit.

[Jeff W.]

Dude. 54 days of white knuckled quit by yourself. I don't know if that's bad ass, crazy, or pure shithouse luck. Probably a mix of all three. It's fawkin heroic, that's for sure. I'm glad you're here, man, and i quit with you. PM me if you want to trade digits.

Thank you for your service.

[erick]

Thanks Dagranger. I will most definitely try my best to help others quit. And yes, I may be a little ahead, but being here makes everything easier.

[Dagranger]

Erick welcome aboard. Great job posting roll. At 54 days you are obviously beyond the usual advice we give new guys...but here's my thought. Every one who has ever posted here has wanted to quit, but invariably it's only those that understand that they are an addict and want to take back control of their lives, that seem to make it here. It seems you get it, So don't forget you are an addict you should be great. Also feel free to jump in and help others here. We can use your input.

[erick]

Thanks Matt, pab, and hobo for the responses and support. If my intro or words help others quit or stay quit, that makes my day. And if my day is made, I know I can stay quit.

Anyways, yard work today for the first time since my quit, and I didn't even get 1 single craving. It did come to my mind, but before I knew it I was just thinking of coming back inside and logging in to KTC. Stay quit brothers and sisters.

[hobo924]

Thanks for your service to our country. Your intro helped my quit immensely today.

[pab1964]

Thanks for helping us be free! Post roll,listen,and read all you can. Swap numbers with some of the guys were here 24-7!

[B-loMatt]

Thank you for serving this country. Awesome choice to quit, and it sounds like you "get it". You have learned first hand that you will never be cured, and that one more hit of nicotine will send you back to being a slave to the poison. Read everything on KTC and follow the plan. The plan works. Build your accountability and make some contacts/friends, and do not be afraid to reach out if you need help (we all do from time to time). PM me if you need another # or have any questions.

[erick]

It seems like addiction starts from day one of using huh? Well no matter, exactly like you said, love this new feelings I'm having. Loving this free time, loving spending time with family. I'm loving being quit.

[JoeQuit]

The length of time you used doesn't matter! You are an addict so now is the time to promise to stay sober. I am on day 17 and I love how I feel and I don't have to worry about buying a can of shit and making sure I have one or 2 at all times and all of that shit that goes with the addiction. I hated it and I hate it now. PM me or hit me up if you want to talk, exchange digits. I wish I had the balls to quit when I was young like you at 26. You are making a very wise choice, for health reasons and financial reasons. Stay quit my friend.

[erick]

Thank you for your service, erick and welcome to the quit. Quitting on your own admitting you are an addict is wonderful. No matter what the reason is you quit, the fact is you have come to that decision and now are here with many people who are willing to support each other throughout your journey. Stay strong and read as much as you can on here, there are some really inspiring stories here. Quit on my brotha!

Thanks for the support Joe. You're right, no matter the reason, I'm clean now. Always will be from now on. And hopefully I can support other people through their quit. I know I'm only a 6 year user, which doesn't compare to the time of some of the users here, and that my quit time is still very short, but if there is anything I can do for anyone else, newbie or vet, I will.