Ready to Quit Dip!!! Need Some Support

[Adigg]

You two wanna cuddle, get a room.

Serious SD, welcome.  Here's the deal.  You are now quit.  Read as much on here as possible.  Read about posting daily roll.  You are in Oct. 2013 group.  You post every morning in there that you promise not to dip for that day.  Period.  Then you keep your word.

Stick close to your bunkies.  PM and get phone numbers.  Go to live chat.  Just do not go to a gas station and buy dip.  Don't have it, can't use it.

Gator

Yeah I need to cuddle with someone, I'm in the notorious doghouse, "The Couch" Fricken sucks ass!!!!Anyway guys, thanks for all the replies. I already made my entry in the Oct call room. I'll post tomorrow and will be heading to the cessation class on base for a little one on one. I'm wide awaje with shame and guilt but just like all the battles I've been in, I have to build a battle plan...more to follow team. Thanks for all the tips

SD, good news for you is I came here under the same circumstance. Wife caught me for the second time. Told her I would never do it again and wasn't sure if that was the truth or not. I came here after googling symptoms from quitting dip (bc I couldn't shit). Didn't realize at the time that I found the place that will save my life. Reading everything this site has to offer opened my eyes. I learned I need to quit for myself and the I am an addict first and foremost!

We all have our own catalyst that brings us here, but in the end you must quit for yourself. If you drink the koolaid here and get involved odds are you will figure this out and control this addiction. Just remember one day at a time. Post roll everyday and keep your word.

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[Diesel2112]

Well, you better "get sure" you want to quit. Because you cannot get a little bit pregnant and you cant be a little bit quit.

Your wife caught you...welcome to the club.

My wife caught my dumb ass a few times. SWORE up and down to her I would quit.

All I did was hide it better. I was stashing tins all over town, because my wife would do random car checks. Fuck that used to scare the shit out of me.

She'd be out in the driveway going through my car with a fine tooth comb while I sat in the house trying to act all calm. My fucking heart was going a million miles an hour. "Did I leave one in the glove box, did I throw that spitter out that fell between the seat, flakes...fuck when was the last time I vacummed. Fuck fuck fuck..."

I had cans stashed all over town. Hell I used to stash some under a garbage container at a gas station by my house. The looks I would get when I would pull up, tilt over the can, grab two tins of kodiak and speed away.

Hell of a way to live. What a "man" I was. Fucking cowardly slave. Im almost in tears thinking about it again. The only time I ever finally admitted to her I had been dipping was in my hospital bed after I was admitted for having panic attacks. I had developed a big sore on my lip. I was convinced it was cancer and I was a goner. Luckily it wasn't and luckily my wife is so fucking awesome she cried with me and vowed to help me quit.

I think she knew all along I was still doing it, just want able to catch me. I also know she offered to help because she knew this time I was serious. I was going to quit for ME, not just to get her off my back.

Bottom line bro. You need to quit for YOU. And you have to WANT it. If you don't, all the support in the world may not be able to keep you quit.

Just being honest...

[SDumont]

You two wanna cuddle, get a room.

Serious SD, welcome. Here's the deal. You are now quit. Read as much on here as possible. Read about posting daily roll. You are in Oct. 2013 group. You post every morning in there that you promise not to dip for that day. Period. Then you keep your word.

Stick close to your bunkies. PM and get phone numbers. Go to live chat. Just do not go to a gas station and buy dip. Don't have it, can't use it.

Gator

Yeah I need to cuddle with someone, I'm in the notorious doghouse, "The Couch" Fricken sucks ass!!!!Anyway guys, thanks for all the replies. I already made my entry in the Oct call room. I'll post tomorrow and will be heading to the cessation class on base for a little one on one. I'm wide awaje with shame and guilt but just like all the battles I've been in, I have to build a battle plan...more to follow team. Thanks for all the tips

[Instigator]

You two wanna cuddle, get a room.

Serious SD, welcome. Here's the deal. You are now quit. Read as much on here as possible. Read about posting daily roll. You are in Oct. 2013 group. You post every morning in there that you promise not to dip for that day. Period. Then you keep your word.

Stick close to your bunkies. PM and get phone numbers. Go to live chat. Just do not go to a gas station and buy dip. Don't have it, can't use it.

Gator

[Dougie]

I am with you all the way man- I was a lying douche bag too and I feel your pain; it creates so much distrust and just eats away at the foundation of your marriage- I PM'd you- check your inbox-

[SDumont]

Dougie,

Thanks for the reply to my posting. Yeah I hear you, I definitely realize that this is the Steve show and I know that my honestly with my problem is central to saving and amending the wrong I created in my marriage. The strange thing is, while I feel bad about it all, I'm not really owning up to the problem; sound familiar? I know addiction. I was an 8-year Meth addict before I joined the military almost 20 years ago; yes I'm still serving but soon to retire. The whole military culture is addicted to tobacco it seems but in either regard my addiction is my own doing and nobody else. So where does that leave me at the moment? Scared, nervous, worried? Yeah I would say all of that, but if I can beat Meth, I can beat this, I need the help to get there. I would have not come here for sure if I didn't get caught...But it made me realized with how angry my wife was, that this chewing addiction is a real problem. Kind of like looking at a blurry mirror and as it spins, it reveals the truth. No one likes to see themselves in this way, but I see it....

I look forward to this journey, a journey I know won't be easy, so I will surf now and hope to hear from all who are interested...

[Dougie]

Hi Steven,

You have made a great choice coming to KTC- these here are where the baddest ass Quitters reside- The vets will come in and give you post that has the links to the must reads.

I just want you to take ownership of your quit- this is not your wife's quit, it is yours if you are doing it because she wants you to then you will most likely fail. You have to WANT it for YOU. Not kinda sorta either; it will take balls to make it through I am only at day 32 and I still have shitty moments. Get numbers get involved with this site and you will be successful- if you dont then you probably wont be.

I plan to take up permanent residence in these halls to be quit forever one day at a time.

[SDumont]

Hey Everyone,

My name is Steven, I'm 45 years old and have been addicted to chewing tobacco for almost 10 years. I was an 8-year smoker prior to that and gave that habit up for another. I guess you can say I have an addictive personality. Anyway, I have been lying to my wife about this habit and she finally caught me; it didn't go over well and I feel very ashamed about trying to hide it and of course the disappointment that followed. This is an obvious trust issue now that I have to earn back. Most importantly though, I really never gave to much thought because I became an expert with hiding it. What I didn't count on was the odor, bad breath, and lack of affection (because I was dipping) around her, was something you can't hide.

I have always wanted to rid this habit, but it has become a part of me and now I realize how disgusting it really must be and how badly I feel about lying all this time. What does this mean? Well it means either I stop or lose my marriage. I will choose of course, to save my marriage but I certainly need some help and this is the first place I found on the web. I know I can't do this alone and at this very moment, not sure if I'm personally ready to quit, just being honest. I'm ready for change guys

Steven