is this normal?

[maxrebar53]

Am on day 18, still feel bad, emotional, suicidal almost, dont want to talk to anyone, dont want to be with anyone, dont even want to be with my children, I am so out of it, that it scares me.  I havent eaten at all today, because I dont want to have to deal with anyone.

I am a 3 can a day ex-chewer and female.  I have suffered with anxiety/panic attacks for 20 years, I have been chewing for almost that long.  I work from home, so I could get away with it and no one knew how much I was doing, I was that addicted.

I see my doctor weekly, but I am really afraid for myself right now.

The short answer is "yes" this is normal...

To be more clear, it's fair to say that the symptoms that you are describing are not unique to your quit. That being said suicidal thoughts and depression are obviously very serious issues and you should definitely talk about them with your doctor that you are seeing on a regular basis. Explain EVERYTHING to him. How long you chewed, how much, how often, the fact that you're quitting, etc. If nothing else his evaluation will give you some much needed peace of mind.

Personally I took myself to the ER twice during my quit cause I thought I was having a heart attack - turned out to be massive panic and anxiety attacks brought on by my quit.

All I can say is that it does indeed get better. Stick with it because believe it or not at 18 days the worst is behind you. What you DON'T want to do is reintroduce nicotine int your body now because all of the pain and suffering you're going through will be for naught.

chewie

Thanks Chewie, yes, my doctor knows the whole kit and kaboodle, but this depression is horrible, and this is not "me." It is like I just want to feel good again but cannot. I am on medicine for it all, but you know, I just want to be the flip left alone right now and not have to deal with anyone, just left alone and let me deal with ME and let ME get through this without everyone needing everything from me!!!!!

As a mother, good night, it is always mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, the house wont run without "mom" and "mom" just isnt herself right now.

Last night, my palpitations were so bad, that I almost went to the ER, I was having an extra beat every third beat, it was horrible, cause by, I believe, anxiety.

No way will I ever take a dip again, dont want to EVER go through this ever again.

i am long time anxiety/depression sufferer, DO NOT hesitate to go to the ER if you are really down and having the bad thoughts, call 911 if you can't drove yourself there, palpitations can be a sign of panic attacks but i am sure you know this..

hang in there it does get better...

Me too, very long time, it started about 20 years ago, I had a nervous break in Dec 2007, and I am trying so hard NOT to get back to that dark place. It seems more of a fear, a fear of being alone, I know I am too scared to do anything to myself, however, there is this underlying sense of "doom" and then the palpitations start (I have SVT - supraventricular tachycardia, where your heart rate can go from normal to 300 for no reason). Then, with the palpitations comes the anxiety, but the anxiety was already there, because of what I am going through, it is just this horrible VICIOUS cycle I am in right now. It is a feeling of being very "down" and not knowing how to crawl back out.

Cd knows alot about what he speaks. At day 18 I was miserable. I know alot of the fear and anxiety I was feeling was the thought of how was I going to survive and function without my crutch. I almost drove myself batty. But I made it. Fifteen minutes, 1 hour, 1 day -Repeat -. I started feeling better around day 30. The panic subsided and I started to understand that life will be different. In a good way. That I didnt need nic anymore. You will make it through this. we are here for you. And dont be afraid, be joyous at the new healthier life you are creating for yourself.

I quit 10 days ago then I got something in the mail from my attorney concerning the divorce that I am going through. I was so upset that I went out and bought cigarettes then 2 days later I was back to dipping. I really want to quit and I an starting tonight. I am not going to give up. Maxrebar53

[Skoal Monster]

cjs- Just breathe, take a break, go for a walk, take a girly bubble bath ( keep your head above water) . I Pm'd you so check your inbox. Nicotine withdrawls have been documented to create more severe mood swings for female quitters. I can't remember why but a bit of research ought to find some info.

I do know that nicotine screws with your serotonin levels. Get some excercise, it WILL help produce the "feel good" chemicals that your body has forgotten how to produce. After you heal for a longer time your body will start producing serotonin, adrenaline and the rest without being forced to on aa dosing schedule. The current lack of those chemicals will absolutely make you feel the way you do.

READ READ READ READ- the more you know the better tools you have to fight the addiction. Oh, and don't think that dipping / smoking is going to soothe you, thats probably been contributing to your anxiety all along.

sM

[RAZD611]

Am on day 18, still feel bad, emotional, suicidal almost, dont want to talk to anyone, dont want to be with anyone, dont even want to be with my children, I am so out of it, that it scares me.  I havent eaten at all today, because I dont want to have to deal with anyone.

I am a 3 can a day ex-chewer and female.  I have suffered with anxiety/panic attacks for 20 years, I have been chewing for almost that long.  I work from home, so I could get away with it and no one knew how much I was doing, I was that addicted.

I see my doctor weekly, but I am really afraid for myself right now.

The short answer is "yes" this is normal...

To be more clear, it's fair to say that the symptoms that you are describing are not unique to your quit. That being said suicidal thoughts and depression are obviously very serious issues and you should definitely talk about them with your doctor that you are seeing on a regular basis. Explain EVERYTHING to him. How long you chewed, how much, how often, the fact that you're quitting, etc. If nothing else his evaluation will give you some much needed peace of mind.

Personally I took myself to the ER twice during my quit cause I thought I was having a heart attack - turned out to be massive panic and anxiety attacks brought on by my quit.

All I can say is that it does indeed get better. Stick with it because believe it or not at 18 days the worst is behind you. What you DON'T want to do is reintroduce nicotine int your body now because all of the pain and suffering you're going through will be for naught.

chewie

Thanks Chewie, yes, my doctor knows the whole kit and kaboodle, but this depression is horrible, and this is not "me." It is like I just want to feel good again but cannot. I am on medicine for it all, but you know, I just want to be the flip left alone right now and not have to deal with anyone, just left alone and let me deal with ME and let ME get through this without everyone needing everything from me!!!!!

As a mother, good night, it is always mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, the house wont run without "mom" and "mom" just isnt herself right now.

Last night, my palpitations were so bad, that I almost went to the ER, I was having an extra beat every third beat, it was horrible, cause by, I believe, anxiety.

No way will I ever take a dip again, dont want to EVER go through this ever again.

i am long time anxiety/depression sufferer, DO NOT hesitate to go to the ER if you are really down and having the bad thoughts, call 911 if you can't drove yourself there, palpitations can be a sign of panic attacks but i am sure you know this..

hang in there it does get better...

Me too, very long time, it started about 20 years ago, I had a nervous break in Dec 2007, and I am trying so hard NOT to get back to that dark place. It seems more of a fear, a fear of being alone, I know I am too scared to do anything to myself, however, there is this underlying sense of "doom" and then the palpitations start (I have SVT - supraventricular tachycardia, where your heart rate can go from normal to 300 for no reason). Then, with the palpitations comes the anxiety, but the anxiety was already there, because of what I am going through, it is just this horrible VICIOUS cycle I am in right now. It is a feeling of being very "down" and not knowing how to crawl back out.

Cd knows alot about what he speaks. At day 18 I was miserable. I know alot of the fear and anxiety I was feeling was the thought of how was I going to survive and function without my crutch. I almost drove myself batty. But I made it. Fifteen minutes, 1 hour, 1 day -Repeat -. I started feeling better around day 30. The panic subsided and I started to understand that life will be different. In a good way. That I didnt need nic anymore. You will make it through this. we are here for you. And dont be afraid, be joyous at the new healthier life you are creating for yourself.

[cjs2006]

Am on day 18, still feel bad, emotional, suicidal almost, dont want to talk to anyone, dont want to be with anyone, dont even want to be with my children, I am so out of it, that it scares me.  I havent eaten at all today, because I dont want to have to deal with anyone.

I am a 3 can a day ex-chewer and female.  I have suffered with anxiety/panic attacks for 20 years, I have been chewing for almost that long.  I work from home, so I could get away with it and no one knew how much I was doing, I was that addicted.

I see my doctor weekly, but I am really afraid for myself right now.

The short answer is "yes" this is normal...

To be more clear, it's fair to say that the symptoms that you are describing are not unique to your quit. That being said suicidal thoughts and depression are obviously very serious issues and you should definitely talk about them with your doctor that you are seeing on a regular basis. Explain EVERYTHING to him. How long you chewed, how much, how often, the fact that you're quitting, etc. If nothing else his evaluation will give you some much needed peace of mind.

Personally I took myself to the ER twice during my quit cause I thought I was having a heart attack - turned out to be massive panic and anxiety attacks brought on by my quit.

All I can say is that it does indeed get better. Stick with it because believe it or not at 18 days the worst is behind you. What you DON'T want to do is reintroduce nicotine int your body now because all of the pain and suffering you're going through will be for naught.

chewie

Thanks Chewie, yes, my doctor knows the whole kit and kaboodle, but this depression is horrible, and this is not "me." It is like I just want to feel good again but cannot. I am on medicine for it all, but you know, I just want to be the flip left alone right now and not have to deal with anyone, just left alone and let me deal with ME and let ME get through this without everyone needing everything from me!!!!!

As a mother, good night, it is always mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, the house wont run without "mom" and "mom" just isnt herself right now.

Last night, my palpitations were so bad, that I almost went to the ER, I was having an extra beat every third beat, it was horrible, cause by, I believe, anxiety.

No way will I ever take a dip again, dont want to EVER go through this ever again.

i am long time anxiety/depression sufferer, DO NOT hesitate to go to the ER if you are really down and having the bad thoughts, call 911 if you can't drove yourself there, palpitations can be a sign of panic attacks but i am sure you know this..

hang in there it does get better...

Me too, very long time, it started about 20 years ago, I had a nervous break in Dec 2007, and I am trying so hard NOT to get back to that dark place. It seems more of a fear, a fear of being alone, I know I am too scared to do anything to myself, however, there is this underlying sense of "doom" and then the palpitations start (I have SVT - supraventricular tachycardia, where your heart rate can go from normal to 300 for no reason). Then, with the palpitations comes the anxiety, but the anxiety was already there, because of what I am going through, it is just this horrible VICIOUS cycle I am in right now. It is a feeling of being very "down" and not knowing how to crawl back out.

[cdforecheck]

Am on day 18, still feel bad, emotional, suicidal almost, dont want to talk to anyone, dont want to be with anyone, dont even want to be with my children, I am so out of it, that it scares me.  I havent eaten at all today, because I dont want to have to deal with anyone.

I am a 3 can a day ex-chewer and female.  I have suffered with anxiety/panic attacks for 20 years, I have been chewing for almost that long.  I work from home, so I could get away with it and no one knew how much I was doing, I was that addicted.

I see my doctor weekly, but I am really afraid for myself right now.

The short answer is "yes" this is normal...

To be more clear, it's fair to say that the symptoms that you are describing are not unique to your quit. That being said suicidal thoughts and depression are obviously very serious issues and you should definitely talk about them with your doctor that you are seeing on a regular basis. Explain EVERYTHING to him. How long you chewed, how much, how often, the fact that you're quitting, etc. If nothing else his evaluation will give you some much needed peace of mind.

Personally I took myself to the ER twice during my quit cause I thought I was having a heart attack - turned out to be massive panic and anxiety attacks brought on by my quit.

All I can say is that it does indeed get better. Stick with it because believe it or not at 18 days the worst is behind you. What you DON'T want to do is reintroduce nicotine int your body now because all of the pain and suffering you're going through will be for naught.

chewie

Thanks Chewie, yes, my doctor knows the whole kit and kaboodle, but this depression is horrible, and this is not "me." It is like I just want to feel good again but cannot. I am on medicine for it all, but you know, I just want to be the flip left alone right now and not have to deal with anyone, just left alone and let me deal with ME and let ME get through this without everyone needing everything from me!!!!!

As a mother, good night, it is always mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, the house wont run without "mom" and "mom" just isnt herself right now.

Last night, my palpitations were so bad, that I almost went to the ER, I was having an extra beat every third beat, it was horrible, cause by, I believe, anxiety.

No way will I ever take a dip again, dont want to EVER go through this ever again.

i am long time anxiety/depression sufferer, DO NOT hesitate to go to the ER if you are really down and having the bad thoughts, call 911 if you can't drove yourself there, palpitations can be a sign of panic attacks but i am sure you know this..

hang in there it does get better...

[vh5150]

About that time is when my depression really got bad. It's not easy, but I fought it. Some folks may need help from their doctor with the depression. It does get easier. Just keep up the good fight.

[cjs2006]

Am on day 18, still feel bad, emotional, suicidal almost, dont want to talk to anyone, dont want to be with anyone, dont even want to be with my children, I am so out of it, that it scares me.  I havent eaten at all today, because I dont want to have to deal with anyone.

I am a 3 can a day ex-chewer and female.  I have suffered with anxiety/panic attacks for 20 years, I have been chewing for almost that long.  I work from home, so I could get away with it and no one knew how much I was doing, I was that addicted.

I see my doctor weekly, but I am really afraid for myself right now.

The short answer is "yes" this is normal...

To be more clear, it's fair to say that the symptoms that you are describing are not unique to your quit. That being said suicidal thoughts and depression are obviously very serious issues and you should definitely talk about them with your doctor that you are seeing on a regular basis. Explain EVERYTHING to him. How long you chewed, how much, how often, the fact that you're quitting, etc. If nothing else his evaluation will give you some much needed peace of mind.

Personally I took myself to the ER twice during my quit cause I thought I was having a heart attack - turned out to be massive panic and anxiety attacks brought on by my quit.

All I can say is that it does indeed get better. Stick with it because believe it or not at 18 days the worst is behind you. What you DON'T want to do is reintroduce nicotine int your body now because all of the pain and suffering you're going through will be for naught.

chewie

Thanks Chewie, yes, my doctor knows the whole kit and kaboodle, but this depression is horrible, and this is not "me." It is like I just want to feel good again but cannot. I am on medicine for it all, but you know, I just want to be the flip left alone right now and not have to deal with anyone, just left alone and let me deal with ME and let ME get through this without everyone needing everything from me!!!!!

As a mother, good night, it is always mom, mom, mom, mom, mom, the house wont run without "mom" and "mom" just isnt herself right now.

Last night, my palpitations were so bad, that I almost went to the ER, I was having an extra beat every third beat, it was horrible, cause by, I believe, anxiety.

No way will I ever take a dip again, dont want to EVER go through this ever again.

[chewie]

Am on day 18, still feel bad, emotional, suicidal almost, dont want to talk to anyone, dont want to be with anyone, dont even want to be with my children, I am so out of it, that it scares me. I havent eaten at all today, because I dont want to have to deal with anyone.

I am a 3 can a day ex-chewer and female. I have suffered with anxiety/panic attacks for 20 years, I have been chewing for almost that long. I work from home, so I could get away with it and no one knew how much I was doing, I was that addicted.

I see my doctor weekly, but I am really afraid for myself right now.

The short answer is "yes" this is normal...

To be more clear, it's fair to say that the symptoms that you are describing are not unique to your quit. That being said suicidal thoughts and depression are obviously very serious issues and you should definitely talk about them with your doctor that you are seeing on a regular basis. Explain EVERYTHING to him. How long you chewed, how much, how often, the fact that you're quitting, etc. If nothing else his evaluation will give you some much needed peace of mind.

Personally I took myself to the ER twice during my quit cause I thought I was having a heart attack - turned out to be massive panic and anxiety attacks brought on by my quit.

All I can say is that it does indeed get better. Stick with it because believe it or not at 18 days the worst is behind you. What you DON'T want to do is reintroduce nicotine int your body now because all of the pain and suffering you're going through will be for naught.

chewie

[cjs2006]

Am on day 18, still feel bad, emotional, suicidal almost, dont want to talk to anyone, dont want to be with anyone, dont even want to be with my children, I am so out of it, that it scares me. I havent eaten at all today, because I dont want to have to deal with anyone.

I am a 3 can a day ex-chewer and female. I have suffered with anxiety/panic attacks for 20 years, I have been chewing for almost that long. I work from home, so I could get away with it and no one knew how much I was doing, I was that addicted.

I see my doctor weekly, but I am really afraid for myself right now.