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[Bean]

Son of a bitch, that is good stuff!!! Exactly what I thought, too. I quit 9/11/10. Watching a TV show about a family of "survivors" of the terror attacks. As I stood there was the struggling widow and her little boy describe life without daddy, I was torn apart. Then I realized I had a fucking cancer wad in my mouth!!! WTF?!!!

I spit it out right then and there after dipping for 20 years for exactly the reasons you wrote. O don't know what will happen to me, but I sure as shit am not taking myself out for nicotine. I found this site 9 days later...desperate for help at 3:00 AM. I met the GUARD, posted roll and the rest is 402 days of nic-free history.

Stay strong, stay quit.

[minuteofangle]

Dear Daddy-

I wish you could have been there today to see me in my Ballet Recital, I felt like a princess. But your addiction was too strong for you to deny.

I wish you were here to hold me and tell me there was no “Boogie man” under my bed. But you put your addiction first.

I wish you were here to teach me to drive a car. But tobacco would not let you.

I wish you could have seen my high school graduation today, I sure missed you. But you chose to continue to use tobacco over your family.

I wish you could have been here tonight and met my prom date, I think I am in love. But your resolve to quit dip was not strong enough.

I wish you were here to help me move into my dorm room at college, I think I will like it here. But you chose to continue to use tobacco.

I wish you could have been around to give me words of encouragement on my wedding day and walk me down the aisle, it would have meant the world to me. But you were not strong enough to put down snuff once and for all.

I wish you were here today to hold your first grandchild, you know he has your eyes. But tobacco was too important to you.

I wish you had never used tobacco daddy, my life would have been much happier.

I love you and miss you,

Your daughter


I am quit today and tomorrow....MOA



I wrote this back some time ago. It really hits home for me and I still "get something in my eye" when I read it!You say that you have 3 beautiful daughters? Take this as a belly punch then and sack up and keep on quittin.

MOA

[Deadication]

Remember how dipping makes you feel. Disgusted, groggy, nasty, filthy and dirty. Remember that feeling because the nic bitch will tempt you by making you remember that first "ah" moment. Remember that you quit because it's nasty and it will kill you. Hold on to the memory of your LAST dip...not your FIRST.

That's some good advice.. I would be lying if I said I didn't have a couple of those "remember how satisfying I once was" whispers in my head. Its definantly good to remember the duress you've felt after dropping a month old spitter onto the carpet.

[wo1miles]

Remember how dipping makes you feel. Disgusted, groggy, nasty, filthy and dirty. Remember that feeling because the nic bitch will tempt you by making you remember that first "ah" moment. Remember that you quit because it's nasty and it will kill you. Hold on to the memory of your LAST dip...not your FIRST.

[Scowick65]

I see you posted roll. This is key. If you will join us everyday and post roll and quit 1 day at a time quitting will be easier. I won't be easy, just easier. You will find all of the support you need to make this one stick. 1 day at a time. PM me if you need help.

[Kdip]

Mike, you can DO this!!! It won't be easy but if you use the tools we have here you will quit and you won't look back!!! Embrace the SUCK and let's get on with it!!! I dipped and/or smoked for over 30 years and I am 3 years quit!!!! Get yourself into the January 2011 group and post your roll and tell us a little about yourself. Read everything on this site and get to know your fellow quit brothers. The support you will get from this group is nothing ahort of amazing. Read everything on this site including HOf speeches, the Kern story, and take the time to read through an old quit group from start to finish to know what to expect. You can DO this one day at a time!!! PM me if you need anything. Quitting is the BEST DECISION will you ever make!

[fight the urge]

Name is Mike. Be around and around with this battle before without success measuring longer than 6 months. Cope addict for somewhere around 26 yrs. Trying on my own alot lately...not really trying just cutting back enough to justify to my wife and my ego "See I can quit"..Anyways I'm really sick of it and without a doubt know this addiction is a MF and it can kill me. This coming from a smoker who quit maybe 5-7 yrs years ago can't even remember now. I also used to have a major drinking problem for 28 yrs that will occasionally sneak up but I've had success beating that too and now live a fairly unaddicted life EXCEPT for snuff. I keep planning the quit, examing the strategies, trying to find a cool screen name etc etc etc etc etc etc etc etc etc etc.

I am sick and I want out. I've been reading about Nuero Linguistic Programminng lately and this morning I had a visualization of me putting a choke hold on my can and squeezing it smaller and smaller until it was the size of a marble then throwing it out the window. All the time with me fighting the urge....walla my new screen name and the determination to make myself known and now be accountable to my quit group...Oh yeah I've been trolling the site for sometime too!

It's on! Thanks for what you guys stand for.

Mike
married 20 yrs with 3 beautiful daughters who all need me