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Re: WHY?
« Reply #16 on: July 14, 2014, 12:01:00 PM »
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Well I'm on day 24 today! I still think about dipping at least 100 times each day. I wonder if this will turn into 50 or 25 the longer I get in my quit, but I have a feeling it won't. It sucks, but I think that nic bitch is something I will be listening too the rest of my life. At least I know, now, how to ignore her one day at a time.
Hey Raz. No you're wrong buddy. There will come a day...you won't be expecting it..when you're going to turn around and realize you haven't thought about chew all day. It's going to be a shock when you realize you just spent a whole day without a thought of tobacco, the way you were meant to spend your days.
Not every day will be that way. Those days will be the guiding light, the compass for you to follow when you have the dark days. Those will be there too. Mostly though the good will begin to outnumber the bad. It gets better. I'm at 225 today. Some buddies of mine here are telling me it gets even better on the third floor.
That's the secret of one day at a time. Just like you said. Just worry about keeping your promise today. The good days will sneak up on you that way and begin to accumulate. The bad ones will get farther apart but your promise will always keep you safe as long as you keep that promise for just one day.
Keep your head up Raz.
Agree with Bulldog. There are definitely days I don't think about dipping. The 100 day mark (more specifically for me the 110 day mark) really signalled a difference in my craves. Be careful the next few weeks. between days 25-50 my quit group lost a lot of guys. I know I got real tired of fighting so hard everyday during that time. Keep grinding Raz!

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Re: WHY?
« Reply #15 on: July 14, 2014, 11:58:00 AM »
Thanks Bulldog, I'm glad to hear that it gets better overtime! Congrats on 225, that's awesome.

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Re: WHY?
« Reply #14 on: July 14, 2014, 11:47:00 AM »
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Well I'm on day 24 today! I still think about dipping at least 100 times each day. I wonder if this will turn into 50 or 25 the longer I get in my quit, but I have a feeling it won't. It sucks, but I think that nic bitch is something I will be listening too the rest of my life. At least I know, now, how to ignore her one day at a time.
Hey Raz. No you're wrong buddy. There will come a day...you won't be expecting it..when you're going to turn around and realize you haven't thought about chew all day. It's going to be a shock when you realize you just spent a whole day without a thought of tobacco, the way you were meant to spend your days.
Not every day will be that way. Those days will be the guiding light, the compass for you to follow when you have the dark days. Those will be there too. Mostly though the good will begin to outnumber the bad. It gets better. I'm at 225 today. Some buddies of mine here are telling me it gets even better on the third floor.
That's the secret of one day at a time. Just like you said. Just worry about keeping your promise today. The good days will sneak up on you that way and begin to accumulate. The bad ones will get farther apart but your promise will always keep you safe as long as you keep that promise for just one day.
Keep your head up Raz.

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Re: WHY?
« Reply #13 on: July 14, 2014, 11:40:00 AM »
I'm just a couple of days ahead of you Raz and know exactly what your saying! Been thinking about it a ton lately too. Proud to be quit with you today!

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Re: WHY?
« Reply #12 on: July 14, 2014, 11:32:00 AM »
Well I'm on day 24 today! I still think about dipping at least 100 times each day. I wonder if this will turn into 50 or 25 the longer I get in my quit, but I have a feeling it won't. It sucks, but I think that nic bitch is something I will be listening too the rest of my life. At least I know, now, how to ignore her one day at a time.

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Re: WHY?
« Reply #11 on: July 09, 2014, 11:00:00 PM »
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You are on the right track taking it ODAAT. Focus on today, it's all we can really control.

Each day gets a little bit easier, so subtle that if you keep at it ODAAT that after a while you won't even notice that a day has gone by and you don't think about nic even once.
Quitting with ya today Raz. The day is almost gone, sleep and do over. We still be here.

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Re: WHY?
« Reply #10 on: July 09, 2014, 10:09:00 PM »
You are on the right track taking it ODAAT. Focus on today, it's all we can really control.

Each day gets a little bit easier, so subtle that if you keep at it ODAAT that after a while you won't even notice that a day has gone by and you don't think about nic even once.

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Re: WHY?
« Reply #9 on: July 09, 2014, 02:42:00 PM »
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Man, that coulda been something I wrote when I first quit.

17 days is huge man. Huge!

What I would say to you right now is... Don't look back. Don't beat yourself up. Don't berate yourself. Let go of that baggage.

You've started down the road to a new you. Make THAT your focus each day. Work on THAT guy. The other guy isn't you anymore.

You need another number, want to be held even more accountable, pm me and my number is yours bro.
I hear yea! Still learning that I'm a different person and slowly letting go of the baggage! Appreciate the support!
Doing good man don't white knuckle it...read read read listen learn take what you need leave the rest. The past is done we quit for today only around here...we promise ourselves first that we will not use then the rest....
need anything PM me.
Keep up the good fight Raz!
Glad you found us. You can do this!
On Day 19 and feeling pretty damn good right now! Still sticking to 1-0 mentality.

Seeds and gum have been very helpful on my bad days and I've been hitting the gym with two a days. Keep up the fight everyone and never put your guard down!

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Re: WHY?
« Reply #8 on: July 08, 2014, 04:59:00 PM »
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Man, that coulda been something I wrote when I first quit.

17 days is huge man. Huge!

What I would say to you right now is... Don't look back. Don't beat yourself up. Don't berate yourself. Let go of that baggage.

You've started down the road to a new you. Make THAT your focus each day. Work on THAT guy. The other guy isn't you anymore.

You need another number, want to be held even more accountable, pm me and my number is yours bro.
I hear yea! Still learning that I'm a different person and slowly letting go of the baggage! Appreciate the support!
Doing good man don't white knuckle it...read read read listen learn take what you need leave the rest. The past is done we quit for today only around here...we promise ourselves first that we will not use then the rest....
need anything PM me.
Keep up the good fight Raz!
Glad you found us. You can do this!

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Re: WHY?
« Reply #7 on: July 08, 2014, 04:21:00 PM »
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Man, that coulda been something I wrote when I first quit.

17 days is huge man. Huge!

What I would say to you right now is... Don't look back. Don't beat yourself up. Don't berate yourself. Let go of that baggage.

You've started down the road to a new you. Make THAT your focus each day. Work on THAT guy. The other guy isn't you anymore.

You need another number, want to be held even more accountable, pm me and my number is yours bro.
I hear yea! Still learning that I'm a different person and slowly letting go of the baggage! Appreciate the support!
Doing good man don't white knuckle it...read read read listen learn take what you need leave the rest. The past is done we quit for today only around here...we promise ourselves first that we will not use then the rest....
need anything PM me.
Keep up the good fight Raz!
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Re: WHY?
« Reply #6 on: July 08, 2014, 11:12:00 AM »
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Man, that coulda been something I wrote when I first quit.

17 days is huge man. Huge!

What I would say to you right now is... Don't look back. Don't beat yourself up. Don't berate yourself. Let go of that baggage.

You've started down the road to a new you. Make THAT your focus each day. Work on THAT guy. The other guy isn't you anymore.

You need another number, want to be held even more accountable, pm me and my number is yours bro.
I hear yea! Still learning that I'm a different person and slowly letting go of the baggage! Appreciate the support!
Doing good man don't white knuckle it...read read read listen learn take what you need leave the rest. The past is done we quit for today only around here...we promise ourselves first that we will not use then the rest....
need anything PM me.
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Re: WHY?
« Reply #5 on: July 07, 2014, 05:18:00 PM »
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Man, that coulda been something I wrote when I first quit.

17 days is huge man. Huge!

What I would say to you right now is... Don't look back. Don't beat yourself up. Don't berate yourself. Let go of that baggage.

You've started down the road to a new you. Make THAT your focus each day. Work on THAT guy. The other guy isn't you anymore.

You need another number, want to be held even more accountable, pm me and my number is yours bro.
I hear yea! Still learning that I'm a different person and slowly letting go of the baggage! Appreciate the support!

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Re: WHY?
« Reply #4 on: July 07, 2014, 05:18:00 PM »
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I keep asking myself WHY.

Why did I start dipping 4 years ago. Was it due to lack of confidence in myself? Was it stress at work? Was it stress at home with two kids? Was it just fun and I didn't give a fuck? I can't remember!

I used to ninja dip at work for the last 4 years. There was nothing better than having a cup of coffee in the morning followed by some Skoal, Cope, or Grizz (I didn't care, just wanted some nic). It was my routine. I'm a money manager and dip for me was a way to relax and keep calm as markets moved up and down. Like a baseball player, it brought me focus or I thought it did. The funny thing was, I never craved it at home, but at work that was always different. People talk about triggers, my trigger was work! Dip in at 6:30am to 4:00pm, except for lunch. When I first started I told myself that I would just do it for a little while. How many lies do we need to tell ourselves to keep our little nic bitch around! Justification, lies, more lies.

I've wasted so many nights thinking about quitting, beating myself over it, and the guilt of hiding it from my family. Can you imagine my wife having no idea of my addiction and one day telling her that I'm going to die from cancer. Sorry I was so selfish, sorry I left you with the kids, sorry kids your dad will not see you grow up, sorry that the guy you counted on checked out early. Sorry, Sorry, Sorry, and I don't even know WHY I dipped in the first place!

This site has help me realize that it doesn't matter WHY I started, but rather that I am an ADDICT!

Day 17 and going strong on my quit! Thank you brothers for your thoughts, struggles, and inspiration. Its been great to hear the many similar stories. Looking forward to the next day of my quit and enjoying life one day and a time.

Raz79
Don't beat yourself up over the last 4 years. Focus on the rest of your life. You can't change what you did but you can change what you will do and that's quitting and staying quit. Stay quit while you were only abusing nicotine at work because eventually that won't be enough. I use to only dip at work and I did that for around 7 years but eventually that wasn't enough. So I started dipping on the way home or at home when no one else was home, then I started finding reason why I needed to go somewhere so I could lock a dip in and then it snowballed that I didn't care who was around when I dipped- so I dipped all the time. Now I have some white patchy shit on my tongue. Scary shit. Stay strong and stay quit. If you ever go back even once you'll dip more than you did before.

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Re: WHY?
« Reply #3 on: July 07, 2014, 04:45:00 PM »
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I keep asking myself WHY.

Why did I start dipping 4 years ago. Was it due to lack of confidence in myself? Was it stress at work? Was it stress at home with two kids? Was it just fun and I didn't give a fuck? I can't remember!

I used to ninja dip at work for the last 4 years. There was nothing better than having a cup of coffee in the morning followed by some Skoal, Cope, or Grizz (I didn't care, just wanted some nic). It was my routine. I'm a money manager and dip for me was a way to relax and keep calm as markets moved up and down. Like a baseball player, it brought me focus or I thought it did. The funny thing was, I never craved it at home, but at work that was always different. People talk about triggers, my trigger was work! Dip in at 6:30am to 4:00pm, except for lunch. When I first started I told myself that I would just do it for a little while. How many lies do we need to tell ourselves to keep our little nic bitch around! Justification, lies, more lies.

I've wasted so many nights thinking about quitting, beating myself over it, and the guilt of hiding it from my family. Can you imagine my wife having no idea of my addiction and one day telling her that I'm going to die from cancer. Sorry I was so selfish, sorry I left you with the kids, sorry kids your dad will not see you grow up, sorry that the guy you counted on checked out early. Sorry, Sorry, Sorry, and I don't even know WHY I dipped in the first place!

This site has help me realize that it doesn't matter WHY I started, but rather that I am an ADDICT!

Day 17 and going strong on my quit! Thank you brothers for your thoughts, struggles, and inspiration. Its been great to hear the many similar stories. Looking forward to the next day of my quit and enjoying life one day and a time.

Raz79
Brother, we all wish we never put that first dip in. We cannot change the past, so do what you can today to make your future better. Damn proud to be quit with you today!
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Re: WHY?
« Reply #2 on: July 07, 2014, 04:36:00 PM »
Man, that coulda been something I wrote when I first quit.

17 days is huge man. Huge!

What I would say to you right now is... Don't look back. Don't beat yourself up. Don't berate yourself. Let go of that baggage.

You've started down the road to a new you. Make THAT your focus each day. Work on THAT guy. The other guy isn't you anymore.

You need another number, want to be held even more accountable, pm me and my number is yours bro.
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