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Re: WHY?
« Reply #31 on: July 17, 2014, 08:08:00 PM »
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Day 27 - Got rid of those shitty Spitz seeds and went back to the David's BBQ! Still feel the need to have a big fucking wad of seeds in my lower left gums at least 3-4 times a day at work. I thought of trying the smokey mountain, but I have a feeling that might be too big of a crutch to get rid of later on. I guess I'll stick to my pimp cane, SEEDS, in the mean-time! I still get hit with craves ever day at work and I still think of dipping constantly. A couple of friends at work who dip are helping me with my quit and have been very supportive. Although they are not ready themselves, they want to see me succeed.

Once I get home with the family the nic bitch leaves me alone and its smooth sailing. Probably because I was a ninja dipper and hardly every dipped at home. One of these days I need to come clean about my Ninja Dipping, but I wanted to post up some stats before having this conversation. I know many will tell me I should do it now and that I could use the support of my wife, but I feel confident in my quit and the support at KTC. I have told my close friends and co-workers, so that is a step in the right direction. When the time is right I will come clean and let her know of my addiction.

I will say that I feel more in-tuned lately and I have a greater appreciation of each day! Still exercising a lot and taking my nic rage out at the gym and the treadmill. Using my hatred to do something positive for my health. I can't wait until I work one day and I don't think about packing a terd in my lip!
Great job saying fuck you to the wall of death. I love Bigs brand seeds. I'm particularly partial to the dill pickle flavor ones. I still pick up a bag every now and then on a weekend. But they were a real life saver during my first 80-100 days.

In any case, early in your quit it's perfectly acceptable to shout obscenities in convenience stores and gas stations. Though it's better if you can avoid them if at all possible. The grocery store or walmart will offer less temptation and lower prices on your nic alternative items (ie: seeds, gum, jerky, candy, etc).

As for the wife. Let her know right away. It's best to be completely honest with your soul mate. I see no rational reason for you not to let her know of your addiction..other than leaving yourself an "out" to return to your affair with the nic bitch. That's the only rational reason for not telling your soul mate of your secret addiction. Burn your boats brother. Kick this quit into high gear.

Regardless, great job so far. Keep the focus. Keep the quit.
It is normal to have craves and think about being quit a day long right now. You're doing great. Keep battling.
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Re: WHY?
« Reply #30 on: July 17, 2014, 04:06:00 PM »
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Day 27 - Got rid of those shitty Spitz seeds and went back to the David's BBQ! Still feel the need to have a big fucking wad of seeds in my lower left gums at least 3-4 times a day at work. I thought of trying the smokey mountain, but I have a feeling that might be too big of a crutch to get rid of later on. I guess I'll stick to my pimp cane, SEEDS, in the mean-time! I still get hit with craves ever day at work and I still think of dipping constantly. A couple of friends at work who dip are helping me with my quit and have been very supportive. Although they are not ready themselves, they want to see me succeed.

Once I get home with the family the nic bitch leaves me alone and its smooth sailing. Probably because I was a ninja dipper and hardly every dipped at home. One of these days I need to come clean about my Ninja Dipping, but I wanted to post up some stats before having this conversation. I know many will tell me I should do it now and that I could use the support of my wife, but I feel confident in my quit and the support at KTC. I have told my close friends and co-workers, so that is a step in the right direction. When the time is right I will come clean and let her know of my addiction.

I will say that I feel more in-tuned lately and I have a greater appreciation of each day! Still exercising a lot and taking my nic rage out at the gym and the treadmill. Using my hatred to do something positive for my health. I can't wait until I work one day and I don't think about packing a terd in my lip!
Great job saying fuck you to the wall of death. I love Bigs brand seeds. I'm particularly partial to the dill pickle flavor ones. I still pick up a bag every now and then on a weekend. But they were a real life saver during my first 80-100 days.

In any case, early in your quit it's perfectly acceptable to shout obscenities in convenience stores and gas stations. Though it's better if you can avoid them if at all possible. The grocery store or walmart will offer less temptation and lower prices on your nic alternative items (ie: seeds, gum, jerky, candy, etc).

As for the wife. Let her know right away. It's best to be completely honest with your soul mate. I see no rational reason for you not to let her know of your addiction..other than leaving yourself an "out" to return to your affair with the nic bitch. That's the only rational reason for not telling your soul mate of your secret addiction. Burn your boats brother. Kick this quit into high gear.

Regardless, great job so far. Keep the focus. Keep the quit.
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Re: WHY?
« Reply #29 on: July 17, 2014, 02:07:00 PM »
Day 27 - Got rid of those shitty Spitz seeds and went back to the David's BBQ! Still feel the need to have a big fucking wad of seeds in my lower left gums at least 3-4 times a day at work. I thought of trying the smokey mountain, but I have a feeling that might be too big of a crutch to get rid of later on. I guess I'll stick to my pimp cane, SEEDS, in the mean-time! I still get hit with craves ever day at work and I still think of dipping constantly. A couple of friends at work who dip are helping me with my quit and have been very supportive. Although they are not ready themselves, they want to see me succeed.

Once I get home with the family the nic bitch leaves me alone and its smooth sailing. Probably because I was a ninja dipper and hardly every dipped at home. One of these days I need to come clean about my Ninja Dipping, but I wanted to post up some stats before having this conversation. I know many will tell me I should do it now and that I could use the support of my wife, but I feel confident in my quit and the support at KTC. I have told my close friends and co-workers, so that is a step in the right direction. When the time is right I will come clean and let her know of my addiction.

I will say that I feel more in-tuned lately and I have a greater appreciation of each day! Still exercising a lot and taking my nic rage out at the gym and the treadmill. Using my hatred to do something positive for my health. I can't wait until I work one day and I don't think about packing a terd in my lip!

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Re: WHY?
« Reply #28 on: July 16, 2014, 03:54:00 PM »
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It's day 26 of my quit. I went to my local 7 eleven which is 1/2 a block from my office in downtown Seattle. This is where I've bought my dip for years. Lately I've been buying gum and seeds at this store, but always with my head down, trying to avoid looking at the wall of chew. I thought, maybe if I looked at it, I might be tempted by the she-bitch!

Today, I finally walked in and stared down the wall of chew. It was one of those Western Movie stares right before a duel. The lady there probably thought I was fucking tard, but fuck it, it was something I had to do. She asked me if there was anything else, I didn't blink, didn't move, didn't stop staring, just said, "NO!"

I bought my gum and seeds and held strong to my quit today. Also, a note to newbies, when buying sunflower seeds stick with David's versus Spitz. My favorite has always been the David's BBQ, I bought the Spitz BBQ today and it was fucking terrible.
I tally agree on the Spitz brand being crap, David or Biggs (also make Jim Beam) are the best.

I too took time before visiting the regular stop. When I did it they all knew me by name and when I grabbed my drink and seeds I got to the counter and saw my typical order (2-tins Skoal Straight and 3-tins of Cope Longcut) witting there. I smiled and said nope you can void that sale because I am done with that shit. I stared at the tins with pure hatred as she removed them and explained that she was "so sorry".

That is a huge win, risky yet a win none the less. Kudos!
Yeah been there done that. Freaking other people in the store out by giving a steely faced stare as I approach the register...Staring down the rack of dip....looking like a boxer or an MMA fighter trying to psych out my opponent pre fight. I always felt after walking out of the store I was adding another feather to my cap...Another battle won. Congrats Raz +1 for you -1 for UST, and 7-11

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Re: WHY?
« Reply #27 on: July 16, 2014, 03:52:00 PM »
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It's day 26 of my quit. I went to my local 7 eleven which is 1/2 a block from my office in downtown Seattle. This is where I've bought my dip for years. Lately I've been buying gum and seeds at this store, but always with my head down, trying to avoid looking at the wall of chew. I thought, maybe if I looked at it, I might be tempted by the she-bitch!

Today, I finally walked in and stared down the wall of chew. It was one of those Western Movie stares right before a duel. The lady there probably thought I was fucking tard, but fuck it, it was something I had to do. She asked me if there was anything else, I didn't blink, didn't move, didn't stop staring, just said, "NO!"

I bought my gum and seeds and held strong to my quit today. Also, a note to newbies, when buying sunflower seeds stick with David's versus Spitz. My favorite has always been the David's BBQ, I bought the Spitz BBQ today and it was fucking terrible.
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Re: WHY?
« Reply #26 on: July 16, 2014, 03:49:00 PM »
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It's day 26 of my quit. I went to my local 7 eleven which is 1/2 a block from my office in downtown Seattle. This is where I've bought my dip for years. Lately I've been buying gum and seeds at this store, but always with my head down, trying to avoid looking at the wall of chew. I thought, maybe if I looked at it, I might be tempted by the she-bitch!

Today, I finally walked in and stared down the wall of chew. It was one of those Western Movie stares right before a duel. The lady there probably thought I was fucking tard, but fuck it, it was something I had to do. She asked me if there was anything else, I didn't blink, didn't move, didn't stop staring, just said, "NO!"

I bought my gum and seeds and held strong to my quit today. Also, a note to newbies, when buying sunflower seeds stick with David's versus Spitz. My favorite has always been the David's BBQ, I bought the Spitz BBQ today and it was fucking terrible.
I tally agree on the Spitz brand being crap, David or Biggs (also make Jim Beam) are the best.

I too took time before visiting the regular stop. When I did it they all knew me by name and when I grabbed my drink and seeds I got to the counter and saw my typical order (2-tins Skoal Straight and 3-tins of Cope Longcut) witting there. I smiled and said nope you can void that sale because I am done with that shit. I stared at the tins with pure hatred as she removed them and explained that she was "so sorry".

That is a huge win, risky yet a win none the less. Kudos!
Thanks Pinched, I'll have to try the Biggs or the Jim Beam next time!

That is a huge win!
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Re: WHY?
« Reply #25 on: July 16, 2014, 03:48:00 PM »
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It's day 26 of my quit. I went to my local 7 eleven which is 1/2 a block from my office in downtown Seattle. This is where I've bought my dip for years. Lately I've been buying gum and seeds at this store, but always with my head down, trying to avoid looking at the wall of chew. I thought, maybe if I looked at it, I might be tempted by the she-bitch!

Today, I finally walked in and stared down the wall of chew. It was one of those Western Movie stares right before a duel. The lady there probably thought I was fucking tard, but fuck it, it was something I had to do. She asked me if there was anything else, I didn't blink, didn't move, didn't stop staring, just said, "NO!"

I bought my gum and seeds and held strong to my quit today. Also, a note to newbies, when buying sunflower seeds stick with David's versus Spitz. My favorite has always been the David's BBQ, I bought the Spitz BBQ today and it was fucking terrible.
I tally agree on the Spitz brand being crap, David or Biggs (also make Jim Beam) are the best.

I too took time before visiting the regular stop. When I did it they all knew me by name and when I grabbed my drink and seeds I got to the counter and saw my typical order (2-tins Skoal Straight and 3-tins of Cope Longcut) witting there. I smiled and said nope you can void that sale because I am done with that shit. I stared at the tins with pure hatred as she removed them and explained that she was "so sorry".

That is a huge win, risky yet a win none the less. Kudos!
Thanks Pinched, I'll have to try the Biggs or the Jim Beam next time!

That is a huge win!

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Re: WHY?
« Reply #24 on: July 16, 2014, 03:31:00 PM »
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It's day 26 of my quit. I went to my local 7 eleven which is 1/2 a block from my office in downtown Seattle. This is where I've bought my dip for years. Lately I've been buying gum and seeds at this store, but always with my head down, trying to avoid looking at the wall of chew. I thought, maybe if I looked at it, I might be tempted by the she-bitch!

Today, I finally walked in and stared down the wall of chew. It was one of those Western Movie stares right before a duel. The lady there probably thought I was fucking tard, but fuck it, it was something I had to do. She asked me if there was anything else, I didn't blink, didn't move, didn't stop staring, just said, "NO!"

I bought my gum and seeds and held strong to my quit today. Also, a note to newbies, when buying sunflower seeds stick with David's versus Spitz. My favorite has always been the David's BBQ, I bought the Spitz BBQ today and it was fucking terrible.
I tally agree on the Spitz brand being crap, David or Biggs (also make Jim Beam) are the best.

I too took time before visiting the regular stop. When I did it they all knew me by name and when I grabbed my drink and seeds I got to the counter and saw my typical order (2-tins Skoal Straight and 3-tins of Cope Longcut) witting there. I smiled and said nope you can void that sale because I am done with that shit. I stared at the tins with pure hatred as she removed them and explained that she was "so sorry".

That is a huge win, risky yet a win none the less. Kudos!
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Re: WHY?
« Reply #23 on: July 16, 2014, 03:28:00 PM »
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It's day 26 of my quit. I went to my local 7 eleven which is 1/2 a block from my office in downtown Seattle. This is where I've bought my dip for years. Lately I've been buying gum and seeds at this store, but always with my head down, trying to avoid looking at the wall of chew. I thought, maybe if I looked at it, I might be tempted by the she-bitch!

Today, I finally walked in and stared down the wall of chew. It was one of those Western Movie stares right before a duel. The lady there probably thought I was fucking tard, but fuck it, it was something I had to do. She asked me if there was anything else, I didn't blink, didn't move, didn't stop staring, just said, "NO!"

I bought my gum and seeds and held strong to my quit today. Also, a note to newbies, when buying sunflower seeds stick with David's versus Spitz. My favorite has always been the David's BBQ, I bought the Spitz BBQ today and it was fucking terrible.
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Re: WHY?
« Reply #22 on: July 16, 2014, 03:25:00 PM »
It's day 26 of my quit. I went to my local 7 eleven which is 1/2 a block from my office in downtown Seattle. This is where I've bought my dip for years. Lately I've been buying gum and seeds at this store, but always with my head down, trying to avoid looking at the wall of chew. I thought, maybe if I looked at it, I might be tempted by the she-bitch!

Today, I finally walked in and stared down the wall of chew. It was one of those Western Movie stares right before a duel. The lady there probably thought I was fucking tard, but fuck it, it was something I had to do. She asked me if there was anything else, I didn't blink, didn't move, didn't stop staring, just said, "NO!"

I bought my gum and seeds and held strong to my quit today. Also, a note to newbies, when buying sunflower seeds stick with David's versus Spitz. My favorite has always been the David's BBQ, I bought the Spitz BBQ today and it was fucking terrible.

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Re: WHY?
« Reply #21 on: July 15, 2014, 06:19:00 PM »
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Currently on Day 25 of my quit. Still packing my lip full of seeds and chewing gum constantly!

She is constantly trying to tell me that I'm a success and that I can quit whenever, "whats one more time!" That's when I back-hand that nic bitch with my 1-0 quit for today mentality!

Fuck off I'm enjoying life for the first time in a long-time!
Nice quit going here bud! She'll whisper at you forever, always trying new shit to mess with your quit. Don't let your guard down, have a plan when the craves or funk or fog hits. Life is better without her (nic)! I quit with you today, I'm thinking I'll do the same tomorrow. Quit on!
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Re: WHY?
« Reply #20 on: July 15, 2014, 12:29:00 PM »
Currently on Day 25 of my quit. Still packing my lip full of seeds and chewing gum constantly!

She is constantly trying to tell me that I'm a success and that I can quit whenever, "whats one more time!" That's when I back-hand that nic bitch with my 1-0 quit for today mentality!

Fuck off I'm enjoying life for the first time in a long-time!

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Re: WHY?
« Reply #19 on: July 14, 2014, 12:41:00 PM »
When we first quit we all tend to drive the life bus with our necks turned looking our the back window.

Eventually we slowly straighten our shit out and rotate our heads to the big windshield and learn to look forward again, with ocassional peaks in the rear view mirror.

Spend too much tome looking out that back window, the higher probability of a crash.

Keep looking forward.

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Re: WHY?
« Reply #18 on: July 14, 2014, 12:27:00 PM »
I'm gonna say what really evolves during this time for you is not THAT you think of it but HOW you think of it. I don't know when, because it's different for everybody, but soon thinking about it won't really bother you. And why should it? You're winning. Even at 24 days you're kicking your addiction in the ass. You've proven to yourself that you have what it takes to overcome. Let the thoughts come... Beat them down every time just like you have been. Like any muscle... The more you exercise Quit the stronger it grows. You really will reach a point when this will not be such a fight. You'll just live your life. At 454 days it rarely drops in on me. And when the thoughts do come... I brush them off and move along. It doesn't own me... I own me.

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Re: WHY?
« Reply #17 on: July 14, 2014, 12:09:00 PM »
Day 102 here, I'd say I think about dip a few times a day, but definately much less than in the 20's. You got the right attitude in this quit, stay close to here and quit ODAAT, and you'll be amazed on how much less the bitch crosses your mind,
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