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Re: WHY?
« Reply #46 on: August 01, 2014, 06:57:00 PM »
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Day 42 - First off I appreciate those that are concerned about my quit and also my no posts on the weekends and vacation times. You are all probably right about this infrequency and how it has caused many to cave in the future. That being said, I think accountability is a big part of everyone's quit, but what is BIGGER is your internal change. I would imagine that the most successful quitters at KTC are not the one's that post a promise every day to quit for others to see, but those who have changed who they are in and out. If you don't know WHY you dipped to begin with then you can't address your true addiction and overcome your fears. Maybe some of you will post for the rest of your life, maybe a few after two years. There have been many who posted everyday and still failed. If all you had to do was post everyday and that equaled no nic, then fucking sign me up brother! My point is that the posts and accountability alone are not what allow you to stay quit from the nic bitch.

For me the changes over the last 42 days has been massive. My quit isn't based off of my fear of death, my family, or anyone for that matter. When I first started my quit it was based on my family and my fear of death, but my views are much different now. Dipping was just a quick fix that allowed me to ignore the bigger issues in my life. My quit is for ME!

Again my goal is not to piss people off or to prove that I am right. My goal is not to say that I'm better than everyone, look I don't have to post everyday. We are all different in how we tackle our addiction. KTC has helped me greatly and for that I'm thankful.

If the infrequent posts are that much of a distraction to my Group, I'm perfectly okay with doing this on my own. For those who are worried, STOP, I have no doubt in my quit! If allowed, you will see me infrequently keep posting larger and larger numbers!
No No No Sir! You are trying to make yourself sound like a vet right now, and you clearly aren't! The price of admission here is to post roll! That is all man. The method works. I understand the internal change you mean. I had one myself and I knew I would never dip again. But it doesn't mean I don't need help! 318 days in today(100% poster) and I still get up, post roll in multiple groups, and get on with my day. I go back into the site not because I have to but because it always helps me. Yeah I still need to be reminded. Everyone who is still here does!

IT WILL PROVE A GRAVE MISTAKE FOR YOU NOT TO DO THE SAME THINGS AND CONTINUE FOR A LONG TIME COMING!!!!
A man who gives his word daily and honors it, simply does not and will not cave. This is irrefutable and absolute.
42 days and you have it all figured out, eh?

What a crock of shit. What you wrote is nothing more than a long winded excuse for not posting role.

Why are you even here? For a tad of accountability, when it doesn't inconvenience you?

I know why I dipped, and I know why I quit, I know I've changed as a person, but I also know that posting role makes me accountable to others who are fighting the same battle. I'm the total package bro. You're an excuse making bitch who is trying to talk your way out of being accountable.

Guys are taking time to check up on you yet you can't take a minute a day to post role? Not ony that you come back to them with a "I'm smarter than you" retort, like your king quit???

If I was one of the guys who took time to check up on your bitch ass, I be typing "fuck you" right about now, because you basically spit in my face.

But that's just me...
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Re: WHY?
« Reply #45 on: August 01, 2014, 04:18:00 PM »
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Day 42 - First off I appreciate those that are concerned about my quit and also my no posts on the weekends and vacation times. You are all probably right about this infrequency and how it has caused many to cave in the future. That being said, I think accountability is a big part of everyone's quit, but what is BIGGER is your internal change. I would imagine that the most successful quitters at KTC are not the one's that post a promise every day to quit for others to see, but those who have changed who they are in and out. If you don't know WHY you dipped to begin with then you can't address your true addiction and overcome your fears. Maybe some of you will post for the rest of your life, maybe a few after two years. There have been many who posted everyday and still failed. If all you had to do was post everyday and that equaled no nic, then fucking sign me up brother! My point is that the posts and accountability alone are not what allow you to stay quit from the nic bitch.

For me the changes over the last 42 days has been massive. My quit isn't based off of my fear of death, my family, or anyone for that matter. When I first started my quit it was based on my family and my fear of death, but my views are much different now. Dipping was just a quick fix that allowed me to ignore the bigger issues in my life. My quit is for ME!

Again my goal is not to piss people off or to prove that I am right. My goal is not to say that I'm better than everyone, look I don't have to post everyday. We are all different in how we tackle our addiction. KTC has helped me greatly and for that I'm thankful.

If the infrequent posts are that much of a distraction to my Group, I'm perfectly okay with doing this on my own. For those who are worried, STOP, I have no doubt in my quit! If allowed, you will see me infrequently keep posting larger and larger numbers!
No No No Sir! You are trying to make yourself sound like a vet right now, and you clearly aren't! The price of admission here is to post roll! That is all man. The method works. I understand the internal change you mean. I had one myself and I knew I would never dip again. But it doesn't mean I don't need help! 318 days in today(100% poster) and I still get up, post roll in multiple groups, and get on with my day. I go back into the site not because I have to but because it always helps me. Yeah I still need to be reminded. Everyone who is still here does!

IT WILL PROVE A GRAVE MISTAKE FOR YOU NOT TO DO THE SAME THINGS AND CONTINUE FOR A LONG TIME COMING!!!!
A man who gives his word daily and honors it, simply does not and will not cave. This is irrefutable and absolute.
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Re: WHY?
« Reply #44 on: August 01, 2014, 02:23:00 PM »
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Day 42 - First off I appreciate those that are concerned about my quit and also my no posts on the weekends and vacation times. You are all probably right about this infrequency and how it has caused many to cave in the future. That being said, I think accountability is a big part of everyone's quit, but what is BIGGER is your internal change. I would imagine that the most successful quitters at KTC are not the one's that post a promise every day to quit for others to see, but those who have changed who they are in and out. If you don't know WHY you dipped to begin with then you can't address your true addiction and overcome your fears. Maybe some of you will post for the rest of your life, maybe a few after two years. There have been many who posted everyday and still failed. If all you had to do was post everyday and that equaled no nic, then fucking sign me up brother! My point is that the posts and accountability alone are not what allow you to stay quit from the nic bitch.

For me the changes over the last 42 days has been massive. My quit isn't based off of my fear of death, my family, or anyone for that matter. When I first started my quit it was based on my family and my fear of death, but my views are much different now. Dipping was just a quick fix that allowed me to ignore the bigger issues in my life. My quit is for ME!

Again my goal is not to piss people off or to prove that I am right. My goal is not to say that I'm better than everyone, look I don't have to post everyday. We are all different in how we tackle our addiction. KTC has helped me greatly and for that I'm thankful.

If the infrequent posts are that much of a distraction to my Group, I'm perfectly okay with doing this on my own. For those who are worried, STOP, I have no doubt in my quit! If allowed, you will see me infrequently keep posting larger and larger numbers!
No No No Sir! You are trying to make yourself sound like a vet right now, and you clearly aren't! The price of admission here is to post roll! That is all man. The method works. I understand the internal change you mean. I had one myself and I knew I would never dip again. But it doesn't mean I don't need help! 318 days in today(100% poster) and I still get up, post roll in multiple groups, and get on with my day. I go back into the site not because I have to but because it always helps me. Yeah I still need to be reminded. Everyone who is still here does!

IT WILL PROVE A GRAVE MISTAKE FOR YOU NOT TO DO THE SAME THINGS AND CONTINUE FOR A LONG TIME COMING!!!!
NO MO SKOAL!!! I MEAN NEVER AGAIN!!!
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Re: WHY?
« Reply #43 on: August 01, 2014, 02:03:00 PM »
Day 42 - First off I appreciate those that are concerned about my quit and also my no posts on the weekends and vacation times. You are all probably right about this infrequency and how it has caused many to cave in the future. That being said, I think accountability is a big part of everyone's quit, but what is BIGGER is your internal change. I would imagine that the most successful quitters at KTC are not the one's that post a promise every day to quit for others to see, but those who have changed who they are in and out. If you don't know WHY you dipped to begin with then you can't address your true addiction and overcome your fears. Maybe some of you will post for the rest of your life, maybe a few after two years. There have been many who posted everyday and still failed. If all you had to do was post everyday and that equaled no nic, then fucking sign me up brother! My point is that the posts and accountability alone are not what allow you to stay quit from the nic bitch.

For me the changes over the last 42 days has been massive. My quit isn't based off of my fear of death, my family, or anyone for that matter. When I first started my quit it was based on my family and my fear of death, but my views are much different now. Dipping was just a quick fix that allowed me to ignore the bigger issues in my life. My quit is for ME!

Again my goal is not to piss people off or to prove that I am right. My goal is not to say that I'm better than everyone, look I don't have to post everyday. We are all different in how we tackle our addiction. KTC has helped me greatly and for that I'm thankful.

If the infrequent posts are that much of a distraction to my Group, I'm perfectly okay with doing this on my own. For those who are worried, STOP, I have no doubt in my quit! If allowed, you will see me infrequently keep posting larger and larger numbers!

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Re: WHY?
« Reply #42 on: July 29, 2014, 11:09:00 PM »
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RAz....

Dude, where the hell are you? Haven't heard from you in like two days. Not exactly how a Sultan rolls. If you've got some issue precluding you from posting, text a brother....
On day 39 - Just got back from vacation with the family at Cannon Beach. Had a great time and hardly thought about dipping. For me its easy not to think about dip when I'm with the family. I've never dipped in front of them and I never dipped on the weekends, just at work.

It used to be on Monday's after a weekend with the family I couldn't wait to get to work fill my lip full of poison. I came back from vacation this time and had no urge. It's great to feel in control again.
Is cannon beach on a different planet? One from which you cant post roll? And if so, have you been going there every weekend as you do not post roll on weekends...ever?
Brother. I hope you have also taken the next step in your quit by giving your number to your quit brothers and asking for their numbers in return. Each and every one of them. You are your brothers keeper and they are your keeper. I cannot even stress about how important roll call s. Make sure if you are going out of the loop (vacation) to let someone know you are quit. You brothers need to hear your promise everyday because they care about you. I for one am extremely worried about you now.. Exchange numbers, text your brother your promise. Keep your promise.

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Re: WHY?
« Reply #41 on: July 29, 2014, 11:41:00 AM »
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RAz....

Dude, where the hell are you? Haven't heard from you in like two days. Not exactly how a Sultan rolls. If you've got some issue precluding you from posting, text a brother....
On day 39 - Just got back from vacation with the family at Cannon Beach. Had a great time and hardly thought about dipping. For me its easy not to think about dip when I'm with the family. I've never dipped in front of them and I never dipped on the weekends, just at work.

It used to be on Monday's after a weekend with the family I couldn't wait to get to work fill my lip full of poison. I came back from vacation this time and had no urge. It's great to feel in control again.
Is cannon beach on a different planet? One from which you cant post roll? And if so, have you been going there every weekend as you do not post roll on weekends...ever?

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Re: WHY?
« Reply #40 on: July 29, 2014, 11:18:00 AM »
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RAz....

Dude, where the hell are you? Haven't heard from you in like two days. Not exactly how a Sultan rolls. If you've got some issue precluding you from posting, text a brother....
On day 39 - Just got back from vacation with the family at Cannon Beach. Had a great time and hardly thought about dipping. For me its easy not to think about dip when I'm with the family. I've never dipped in front of them and I never dipped on the weekends, just at work.

It used to be on Monday's after a weekend with the family I couldn't wait to get to work fill my lip full of poison. I came back from vacation this time and had no urge. It's great to feel in control again.

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Re: WHY?
« Reply #39 on: July 20, 2014, 05:36:00 PM »
RAz....

Dude, where the hell are you? Haven't heard from you in like two days. Not exactly how a Sultan rolls. If you've got some issue precluding you from posting, text a brother....

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Re: WHY?
« Reply #38 on: July 18, 2014, 03:02:00 PM »
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Day 28 and feel great! Probably my best day yet in my quit.

It's great not having to feel the guilt before bed each night, knowing that I still wasn't quit and that I was slowly killing myself, but couldn't stop.

Now days I sleep with no guilt! ;)
Yep, finally being free is amazing! Congrats!

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Re: WHY?
« Reply #37 on: July 18, 2014, 02:58:00 PM »
Day 28 and feel great! Probably my best day yet in my quit.

It's great not having to feel the guilt before bed each night, knowing that I still wasn't quit and that I was slowly killing myself, but couldn't stop.

Now days I sleep with no guilt! ;)

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Re: WHY?
« Reply #36 on: July 18, 2014, 01:46:00 PM »
Thank you to everyone for your insight. Glad to hear that it gets better, what a fucking battle this is! I know the battle will never completely end, but it sounds like they will occur less frequently and for a shorter duration.

Appreciate the feedback it helps fuel my quit!

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Re: WHY?
« Reply #35 on: July 18, 2014, 09:41:00 AM »
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Well I'm on day today! I still think about dipping at least 100 times each day. I wonder if this will turn into 50 or 25 the longer I get in my quit, but I have a feeling it won't. It sucks, but I think that nic bitch is something I will be listening too the rest of my life. At least I know, now, how to ignore her one day at a time.
Your still on the worst ride ever and your in the thick of it right now. It's mental my friend. Your coming around the corner. At 28 days it's clear your hearts all in. You just have to wait on the brain to catch up.

It's going to be a while before you go through a day with no craves, but you will begin thinking of the poison differently. I started feeling a lot better around day 40. Your doing all the right things so hold tight. One day at a time and you can have back a lot of what the poison has stolen. Never again for any reason and you can keep it. Need some more digits let me know.
Not sure when I started having crave free days, but I would have to look through my intro to tell you when I last had a crave at all...

That should be encouraging for you.

The important thing is that you know how to deal with the craves, and every time you do not give in to your craves they loose power.
srans is right: you are in the thick of it now, and you have proven that you can win today. Keep fighting like you have been and you will be free!
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When I was where you are it was the worst time in my quit. I had survived the storm of the first few weeks and knew I was quit...but the craves kept coming and coming and coming. It's not as hard to fight them off, but you get sick of fighting. What was the solution? Just keep grinding unfortunately. My day 20-40 were bad but they got better after that. This is the bed you made for yourself Raz when you first stuck the weed in your mouth. Embrace the suck!
When you're going through the shit...keep moving forward.
you're doing the right thing. Lots of victories = winning daily.
You got this.
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Re: WHY?
« Reply #34 on: July 18, 2014, 09:21:00 AM »
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Well I'm on day today! I still think about dipping at least 100 times each day. I wonder if this will turn into 50 or 25 the longer I get in my quit, but I have a feeling it won't. It sucks, but I think that nic bitch is something I will be listening too the rest of my life. At least I know, now, how to ignore her one day at a time.
Your still on the worst ride ever and your in the thick of it right now. It's mental my friend. Your coming around the corner. At 28 days it's clear your hearts all in. You just have to wait on the brain to catch up.

It's going to be a while before you go through a day with no craves, but you will begin thinking of the poison differently. I started feeling a lot better around day 40. Your doing all the right things so hold tight. One day at a time and you can have back a lot of what the poison has stolen. Never again for any reason and you can keep it. Need some more digits let me know.
Not sure when I started having crave free days, but I would have to look through my intro to tell you when I last had a crave at all...

That should be encouraging for you.

The important thing is that you know how to deal with the craves, and every time you do not give in to your craves they loose power.
srans is right: you are in the thick of it now, and you have proven that you can win today. Keep fighting like you have been and you will be free!
PM me if you need
When I was where you are it was the worst time in my quit. I had survived the storm of the first few weeks and knew I was quit...but the craves kept coming and coming and coming. It's not as hard to fight them off, but you get sick of fighting. What was the solution? Just keep grinding unfortunately. My day 20-40 were bad but they got better after that. This is the bed you made for yourself Raz when you first stuck the weed in your mouth. Embrace the suck!

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Re: WHY?
« Reply #33 on: July 18, 2014, 09:00:00 AM »
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Well I'm on day today! I still think about dipping at least 100 times each day. I wonder if this will turn into 50 or 25 the longer I get in my quit, but I have a feeling it won't. It sucks, but I think that nic bitch is something I will be listening too the rest of my life. At least I know, now, how to ignore her one day at a time.
Your still on the worst ride ever and your in the thick of it right now. It's mental my friend. Your coming around the corner. At 28 days it's clear your hearts all in. You just have to wait on the brain to catch up.

It's going to be a while before you go through a day with no craves, but you will begin thinking of the poison differently. I started feeling a lot better around day 40. Your doing all the right things so hold tight. One day at a time and you can have back a lot of what the poison has stolen. Never again for any reason and you can keep it. Need some more digits let me know.
Not sure when I started having crave free days, but I would have to look through my intro to tell you when I last had a crave at all...

That should be encouraging for you.

The important thing is that you know how to deal with the craves, and every time you do not give in to your craves they loose power.
srans is right: you are in the thick of it now, and you have proven that you can win today. Keep fighting like you have been and you will be free!
PM me if you need

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Re: WHY?
« Reply #32 on: July 18, 2014, 08:44:00 AM »
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Well I'm on day today! I still think about dipping at least 100 times each day. I wonder if this will turn into 50 or 25 the longer I get in my quit, but I have a feeling it won't. It sucks, but I think that nic bitch is something I will be listening too the rest of my life. At least I know, now, how to ignore her one day at a time.
Your still on the worst ride ever and your in the thick of it right now. It's mental my friend. Your coming around the corner. At 28 days it's clear your hearts all in. You just have to wait on the brain to catch up.

It's going to be a while before you go through a day with no craves, but you will begin thinking of the poison differently. I started feeling a lot better around day 40. Your doing all the right things so hold tight. One day at a time and you can have back a lot of what the poison has stolen. Never again for any reason and you can keep it. Need some more digits let me know.
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The poison sucks. I hate it. I hated it this morning, I hated it at noon, I hated it at supper and I hate it tonight. I enjoy hating it so much I'm going to wake up tomorrow and start over hating it. I quit with anyone that wants to hate it with me.