Sapper,
Ok I just read thru your entire intro, I see your fight, know it well, and understand where you are!
As far as the hour by our, awesome,,,, but do listen to the other quitters and forget about tomorrow or hours in the future,,,, worry about this our and this day! It's easier on your addict brain to think short term rather than long term, hell I was minute by minute many times during my quit early on.
As for your selfishness, yes that's selfishness as hell! Allow me to let you in on a secret, I am so selfish with my quit that no one will ever be allowed to f it up! Piss on even my best friend should he come between me and my quit. This is the only area of my life if am selfish with. I would like to think of myself as a giving and caring person, but someone just the other day, that I am very close to thanked me for quitting, I quickly informed them that my quit wasn't for them so a thanks wasn't necessary but I would gladly accept a congrats. This is about you, your freedom, so protect it at all cost and never feel guilty for being selfish in your quit!
Saddle up this going to suck suck suck suck, try hard to remember it in detail. I did and now I never want to goth rough that shit again, thus I post my promise to these bad asses every damn day!
Erussell day 287.