Good afternoon,
My name is Mike and I am a 25 year old Naval Aviator from California. As of today, I haven't put dip in my mouth for 2 days, and I feel horrible. This is my 4th time "quitting", and I know I can do it this time. But I am in desperate need of help.
I began experimenting with skoal after high school lacrosse games. I was hooked on copenhagen by sophomore year of college. I switched to snus (which was a bad idea because it has MUCH higher nicotine content than dip) around senior year, and I have been snussing about a roll a week since then. The biggest trigger in my life is my career...a lot of naval aviators dip.
I am quitting first and foremost for myself. I have wanted to quit for such a long time. At this point, I think the addiction is much more mental than physical.
I always think I'm going to get cancer, and I am to strong of a person to let a substance control my life. Plus, I can already see my gums starting to recede. Gross.
A secondary reason I am quitting is my habit is a complete secret from my wife. Unfortunately, I am really good at hiding it. You see, her father is a smoker, and she hates tobacco. When we met, she knew I dipped. A few weeks into the relationship, I was in the middle of one of my "quits" (not for her), and I never got around to telling her I was back off the wagon. It's not like she would divorce me or anything over it, but I pride myself on being honorable, and I am in effect lying to my wife everyday by hiding this huge part of my life.
One thing I have realized during my quits, is that I can get pretty irritable. Any tips on how to deal with this?
Thanks in advance for the support.
Mike