Welcome Chowdie,
No doubt your deep in the suck and its gonna suck for awhile. Just know that it gets better if you stick with it, give your quit roots and let it grow. Hang around here as much as you can and read, read, read. Keep your mouth full of seeds, gum whatever it takes. Keep posting roll, every damn day with no exceptions, get some numbers and use them. Build your net of accountability that will help you stay quit and maybe even more important, the quitters that came before you that will give you that faith that it will indeed get better. We can't promise when, but it will and the freedom is tremendous.
I used Kodiak for 23 years so I know right where your at, keep your head up and check your Inbox (1) above. That's a PM with my number, use it i'm here to support you.
I quit with you today!