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Re: My first real attempt to quit
« Reply #26 on: March 26, 2012, 01:02:00 PM »
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Re: My first real attempt to quit
« Reply #25 on: February 02, 2012, 12:55:00 PM »
Well Fucking Done, Sir!!! You're on your way. 24 is a great start, but as you know, that is all it is...a start. We get to live with this fight forever. But that's the good news...we GET to LIVE with this fight.

Posting roll is now part of your daily habit. The craves and urges will now sneak up on you...dip dreams, friends that don't know you're quit, etc. Keep your guard up.

Never take this freedom for granted. You earn it one day at a time. Congrats, bro!!!

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Re: My first real attempt to quit
« Reply #24 on: February 02, 2012, 09:43:00 AM »
Wow....who would have thought i would be here 24 days later with no dip! I also hit 100 posts and figured I would give an update as my 101st post. Maybe this can be some motivation for the newbies.

33 years old....19 of those dipping. I quit cold turkey. I was going to get herbal chew but shied away and decided against it. I figured I was going to do it pure without any help. The first 3 days were hell. I was so foggy I could barely work. At day 4, the fog pretty much lifted and I have been coasting every since. By coasting, I don't mean taking it for granted. I focus on my quit at all hours of the day. I have just been lucky enough to not have any real cravings. There's no looking back for me. Those people that say "It gets better". They are right. It does get better. Each day is a small victory against the nic bitch. With each won battle, never forget about the never ending war.

I was the epitome of cool, at least I thought so. I was the high school and college jock, the guy everyone looked up to. The fighter that would take no crap from anyone(fought professionally for a couple years). If I set my mind to something I could always win out. I would never quit until I had won or accomplished my goal. 24 days ago, my goal was to QUIT. Something I knew nothing about. Well, here I am.....and here a THANK YOU to all of those I have relied on thus far. I have raged a few times, brought on some laughs I hope, but most of all...made some friends while staying QUIT.

I actually look forward to cruising 1 day at a time towards the HOF. I know that when the day comes, there will be a short pause to beat the pork sword in celebration

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Re: My first real attempt to quit
« Reply #23 on: January 13, 2012, 11:10:00 AM »
61 hours without chew. Feeling great too! As dumb as it may sounds, I view the 72 hours as the FIRST step on my ladder to success. In 11 hours, I will have my first main success of quitting. Granted, each minute is a minor success, but I am really looking forward to 11 hours from now!

No cravings yet today to speak up. Maybe a few minor thoughts, but not really a full on craving. While driving to work today I didn't reach for my can. I also slept like a BABY last night. For some reason is was unexpectedly really calm and nice last night.

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Re: My first real attempt to quit
« Reply #22 on: January 13, 2012, 06:18:00 AM »

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Re: My first real attempt to quit
« Reply #21 on: January 13, 2012, 01:49:00 AM »
Ok so yes ive tried in the past and caved and tried and caved. But I dont want my kids growing up watching me dip and I would like to have money to go on vacation with etc. This quitting shit sucks and I feel like im taking it out on everyone around me. Its easy to not dip at work. How ironic that I work in a hospital. Its when im home and the wife is at work, I mean Im here alone at night and its been real tough not to cave. Im trying to keep busy by going back to the gym etc. Its also tough when im driving and after I eat. Sleep hasent been an issue but stress has been. I feel like im starting to over eat and thats not good but hey i guess its better than dipping right?? I just want this nightmare to be over so any positive input would be great. Thank you guys i know yall been in my shoes so give it to me straight. Im done with this nasty habit, finished.

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Re: My first real attempt to quit
« Reply #20 on: January 12, 2012, 11:57:00 PM »
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If this were a site about anything other than quitting, as a Georgia Bulldawg alum and supporter I'd be laughing at your ass. But since I'm also an addict and I'm here to support others, including Tiger fans, you can PM me, call me on my cell phone, or text me and I'm there whenever. Fortunately, however, you're not a Gator fan.

I'm 25 days in. First, your attitude will go a long way in determining how your quit goes. Keep up a good attitude. Laugh at the nicotine bitch as much as possible. Keep a good attitude and you'll be miles ahead of the game.

Second, you, like me, will have lots of the same symptoms, reactions, and other issues that many on this site have had. Some people have some symptoms and not others. I had mad insomnia and sleeplessness issues the first 14 to 17 days. And I'm talking about 4 or 5 hours of sleep that wasn't even that good. Night after night. THAT sucked. I had a dull headache about the first 10 days. That mildly sucked but it was better when I drank lots of water and if it was distracting enough to affect my work I took ibuprofen. But I didn't have awful craves, dreams about huge fat fox turds in my lip, or some of the other shit people on here have to deal with. You just gotta deal with whatever you get out of the bitch's bag of tricks. Again, try to keep a positive attitude. If it gets bad reach out to some quit brothers. Have a plan on how you are going to stay quit and how you are going to PROTECT your quit.

Third, you gotta be careful about your attitude with others. I know it is tough. My wife has had at least two come-to-Jesus meetings with me about my shortness with her or the kids in the last three weeks. I'm not depressed. But she made a point about one of her friends that is really depressed. One of the characteristics of depression is making everything in life revolve around you. Similarly, recovering addicts exhibit the same sorts of behavior. Just remember that you're quitting your addiction to nicotine. Your wife and family are not. Don't punish them for the shit you are going through. That is tough, but try to keep it in mind. And just as an aside, keeping that in mind means that you are focusing outward and not inward, which will ultimately help your quit.
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Re: My first real attempt to quit
« Reply #19 on: January 12, 2012, 10:38:00 PM »
If this were a site about anything other than quitting, as a Georgia Bulldawg alum and supporter I'd be laughing at your ass. But since I'm also an addict and I'm here to support others, including Tiger fans, you can PM me, call me on my cell phone, or text me and I'm there whenever. Fortunately, however, you're not a Gator fan.

I'm 25 days in. First, your attitude will go a long way in determining how your quit goes. Keep up a good attitude. Laugh at the nicotine bitch as much as possible. Keep a good attitude and you'll be miles ahead of the game.

Second, you, like me, will have lots of the same symptoms, reactions, and other issues that many on this site have had. Some people have some symptoms and not others. I had mad insomnia and sleeplessness issues the first 14 to 17 days. And I'm talking about 4 or 5 hours of sleep that wasn't even that good. Night after night. THAT sucked. I had a dull headache about the first 10 days. That mildly sucked but it was better when I drank lots of water and if it was distracting enough to affect my work I took ibuprofen. But I didn't have awful craves, dreams about huge fat fox turds in my lip, or some of the other shit people on here have to deal with. You just gotta deal with whatever you get out of the bitch's bag of tricks. Again, try to keep a positive attitude. If it gets bad reach out to some quit brothers. Have a plan on how you are going to stay quit and how you are going to PROTECT your quit.

Third, you gotta be careful about your attitude with others. I know it is tough. My wife has had at least two come-to-Jesus meetings with me about my shortness with her or the kids in the last three weeks. I'm not depressed. But she made a point about one of her friends that is really depressed. One of the characteristics of depression is making everything in life revolve around you. Similarly, recovering addicts exhibit the same sorts of behavior. Just remember that you're quitting your addiction to nicotine. Your wife and family are not. Don't punish them for the shit you are going through. That is tough, but try to keep it in mind. And just as an aside, keeping that in mind means that you are focusing outward and not inward, which will ultimately help your quit.
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Re: My first real attempt to quit
« Reply #18 on: January 12, 2012, 10:26:00 PM »
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I haven't found the live chat. I will dig around and see what I can find though.
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You will have to create another user name and password for it, make at least the user name the same as on here. It is an invaluable link for a lot of the newer folks!

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Re: My first real attempt to quit
« Reply #17 on: January 12, 2012, 10:22:00 PM »
I haven't found the live chat. I will dig around and see what I can find though.

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Re: My first real attempt to quit
« Reply #16 on: January 12, 2012, 10:17:00 PM »
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Luckily there were people here that knew what was going to be happening and they helped me through.
That's why I am asking you the questions.

I have tried rationalizing things a bit today, but I am so adamant about not doing it that the feelings quickly passed. My wife and kids are being very supportive, which is nice. I haven't been exactly nice the last 2 days either. I am more irritable due to not dipping. I think I am more pissed at myself for wanting to dip when I know I shouldn't and won't. Having the cravings are humbling and piss me off.
My advice, don't dwell on it when you are trying to rationalize. Getting upset is all part of this process, but getting upset at yourself for something you really are not in control of will only make it worse.

There is only one thing you have complete control of... whether or not you stay quit. Your brain is making you irrational and have dumb thoughts like plugging your lip. Make it your goal to focus on saying no, instead of focusing on those rationalizations.

It is almost a helpless feeling when you have the anxiety attacks about whether you can live your life without dip. I still remember those feelings well. Anxiety, fear, and stress do NOT have to get the better of you because all the strength you need is to say "no".

This site helps a lot. Stick around, read, chat, or whatever you need. Speaking of chat, did you find the live chat yet?

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Re: My first real attempt to quit
« Reply #15 on: January 12, 2012, 09:56:00 PM »
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Luckily there were people here that knew what was going to be happening and they helped me through.
That's why I am asking you the questions.

I have tried rationalizing things a bit today, but I am so adamant about not doing it that the feelings quickly passed. My wife and kids are being very supportive, which is nice. I haven't been exactly nice the last 2 days either. I am more irritable due to not dipping. I think I am more pissed at myself for wanting to dip when I know I shouldn't and won't. Having the cravings are humbling and piss me off.

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Re: My first real attempt to quit
« Reply #14 on: January 12, 2012, 09:38:00 PM »
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When you mention the mind games, can you give me a sense of what you mean? Is it completely different than any feeling I am currently feeling? Is it like your mind trying to trick you?
Right now you are so deep in the physical withdrawal that your brains main focus is just getting its fix. That is the foggy feeling you have.

The way it worked for me and many others is that after this physical withdrawal from nicotine you will start to try rationalizing why you should start dipping again. In my case I was trying to convince myself that I couldn't possibly go to a movie without a dip, I couldn't possibly work on my car, fix something around the house, etc. without a dip.... but really I could do all those things.

Your brain will still be wired to complete the ritualistic parts of the addiction. And for some crazy reason the cravings during the mind games can often be worse for people than even those first 3 days.

For me the key was understanding what was coming. Luckily there were people here that knew what was going to be happening and they helped me through. Many of us had different experiences during this phase but it all comes down to determination and making one simple decision every day... Don't put it in your lip.

For the record. It gets a hell of a lot better than you can even imagine at this point. I don't even recall when my last craving was and I am not even to 1 year quit yet. But that is why I stick around here every day, to remind myself of what that experience was like. So thank you for helping me stay quit!

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Re: My first real attempt to quit
« Reply #13 on: January 12, 2012, 09:27:00 PM »
When you mention the mind games, can you give me a sense of what you mean? Is it completely different than any feeling I am currently feeling? Is it like your mind trying to trick you?

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Re: My first real attempt to quit
« Reply #12 on: January 12, 2012, 08:35:00 PM »
Yup, you absolutely can do it without a substitute.

At the end of tomorrow, or maybe even the start of Saturday you will really start to notice a difference in how you feel. You will be starting the mind games though.