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[quit_to_win]

I am back and my doctor checked me out and just shook his head.  He told me that everything was in my head and that ninety-five percent of the world would love to have my health. He felt up and down my neck and pressed my stomach and showed me all my blood work from march.  According to him I'm fit as a fiddle. 

I told  him that I could feel the discomfort as he spoke that something was in my throat.  He gave me a anti depressent and told me to come back in a month.  He looked in my ears and nose, and down my throat.  I still felt unsure when I left.  Sorta like "that dumb son of a bi#$@ had to have missed it."

Well boys, I'm here, and I'm in it to win it.  I swear to you I thought I was dying of cancer this morning.  And it didn't start until I quit. LOL.  Going to the gym tonight and hitting the treadmill and weights.  Then to bed early.  I should probably explain my job.....you guys would understand...  I'm a cop who worked a very high crime area in the city of Detroit(Highland Park) for 6 years.  While I was there I was sued five times and was in two shootings.  To help deal with all that I chewed.  It was my vice.  Deal with everyone's problems and have a chew....especially after that dinner...A big fatty.....

Now I'm back behind a desk babysitting inmates and there is nothing to do but sit there and look at the cancer survivors.  After ten minutes I'm sweating and pacing. 

But.............I've never quit for longer than a day.  sorry for rambling

Ironic how we chew for years and the worries, if we have them, are fleeting at best. Then, we lay the can down, and all the sudden we are worried like hell we're dying.

Here's what I think. It takes a lot of committment and sacrifice to quit this habit. Somehow, we worry that it is "too late", that we should have done it years ago, and because we didn't, we are surely fucked. And since we are fucked, we might as well not quit. That is the irrational nicotine mind fuck.

Nicotine (the nic bitch) tells us while we are using that everything is gonna be okay..."Don't worry about that sore throat or patch in your mouth."

Now we have turned our back on her and she is saying, "its too late, you are fucked, you should just come on back to me."

I have gone through much of the same shit, worrying more now than when I dipped. I did as you did and got the opinion of an oral surgeon. He said things looked good and to just get started quittin. I did, and it gets better.

Just my couple of pennies. Good luck!

[capone121212]

I am back and my doctor checked me out and just shook his head. He told me that everything was in my head and that ninety-five percent of the world would love to have my health. He felt up and down my neck and pressed my stomach and showed me all my blood work from march. According to him I'm fit as a fiddle.

I told him that I could feel the discomfort as he spoke that something was in my throat. He gave me a anti depressent and told me to come back in a month. He looked in my ears and nose, and down my throat. I still felt unsure when I left. Sorta like "that dumb son of a bi#$@ had to have missed it."

Well boys, I'm here, and I'm in it to win it. I swear to you I thought I was dying of cancer this morning. And it didn't start until I quit. LOL. Going to the gym tonight and hitting the treadmill and weights. Then to bed early. I should probably explain my job.....you guys would understand... I'm a cop who worked a very high crime area in the city of Detroit(Highland Park) for 6 years. While I was there I was sued five times and was in two shootings. To help deal with all that I chewed. It was my vice. Deal with everyone's problems and have a chew....especially after that dinner...A big fatty.....

Now I'm back behind a desk babysitting inmates and there is nothing to do but sit there and look at the cancer survivors. After ten minutes I'm sweating and pacing.

But.............I've never quit for longer than a day. sorry for rambling

[chewie]

Hi, I've been dipping since my senior year in high school. I'm thirty six now, married with three kids, and my ten year old asked me to stop. He stated to me that it wasn't healthy and that he didn't want me to die from cancer. Agreeing with him, I threw my chew out 7 days ago and haven't had a chew since. I have great resolve and confidence that I can do this and wont have a chew.

However, here lies the problem. The withdrawals are kicking my butt. Not so much the urges, but the anxiety of dying. The day I quit, my glands were tingling and the bottom of my chin began to hurt. Now I have the feeling of "great, I quit, and now I'm gonna die." This game I'm playing with the withdrawals is kicking my butt bad, to the point where I'm scared and want to leave work.

I need people to talk to. I need comfort. I know that I'm going through some of the withdrawal symptoms. Hell, I have even given my self check ups, looking for signs of oral cancer. I just cant figure out why this all started to happen when I quit. If it was something serious, wouldn't it have hurt before.

I need a Group bad.

ahh... welcome to my world my friend. i'm sorry to say that you're experiencing the same feelings of dread that i did (and still do now and again). i'm not a doctor so i'll just be talking from personal experience here - keep in mind that your mileage may vary.

since i've quit, i've diagnosed myself with lung, throat, brain, stomach, mouth and ovarian cancer. i've also had 2 heart attacks (which i took myself to the ER for both times), had extreme anxiety, had acid reflux, gerd  insomnia.

i've even had rare forms of diseases that no one has ever fucking heard of but i developed because i quit dipping after 16 years. oh yeah, almost forgot an inner ear imbalnce cause i was so fucking dizzy during my 3 months of fog.

needless to say, i'm still here, alive and kicking. i don't have any of those things (with the exception of acid reflux which i had LONG before i quit dipping).

i still to this day worry when i get a sore throat or a sore in my mouth. i always tell people that a good rule of thumb is if something sticks around for more than 2 weeks then you should go get it checked out. jerry (from december 06) is a dentist and he told me the same thing (during one freak out episode a while back where i was sure that this was the end). i've found that going to the doc/dentist does wonders for peace of mind, but in the end of the day does nothing for you except get you another co-pay.

here's the way i look at things these days - i chewed for over 16 years... and during ALL of that time, i NEVER had anything wrong with me... no sores in my mouth, no cancer, no heart attacks, etc... would it be HIGHLY ironic and coincidental if ALL of this shit happened NOW... AFTER I QUIT?

like i said, there's nothing wrong with getting checked, but chances are you're out thinking yourself.

remember this - you've done the best thing that you can do for your future health... you've quit. we can't go back and undo all of that damage that we've done so i don't bother thinking about it at this point.

move forward day by day... it's worked so far for me ;)

sorry for the rambling - let me know if there's anything else i can do for you.

chewie

[blp5172]

Hi, I've been dipping since my senior year in high school.  I'm thirty six now, married with three kids, and my ten year old asked me to stop.  He stated to me that it wasn't healthy and that he didn't want me to die from cancer.  Agreeing with him, I threw my chew out 7 days ago and haven't had a chew since.  I have great resolve and confidence that I can do this and wont have a chew. 

However, here lies the problem.  The withdrawals are kicking my butt.  Not so much the urges, but the anxiety of dying.  The day I quit, my glands were tingling and the bottom of my chin began to hurt.  Now I have the feeling of "great, I quit, and now I'm gonna die."  This game I'm playing with the withdrawals is kicking my butt bad, to the point where I'm scared and want to leave work. 

I need people to talk to.  I need comfort.  I know that I'm going through some of the withdrawal symptoms.  Hell, I have even given my self check ups, looking for signs of oral cancer.  I just cant figure out why this all started to happen when I quit.  If it was something serious, wouldn't it have hurt before. 

I need a Group bad.

Welcome to the party! You need to get a check up for sure but i had similar pains and weird feelings my first week or so too. Remember that your mouth tissues are going through some serious changes right now - the acid levels are changing big time. You will be fine but it was smart to get that check up.

It will get much better soon.

[Kdip]

Hi, I've been dipping since my senior year in high school. I'm thirty six now, married with three kids, and my ten year old asked me to stop. He stated to me that it wasn't healthy and that he didn't want me to die from cancer. Agreeing with him, I threw my chew out 7 days ago and haven't had a chew since. I have great resolve and confidence that I can do this and wont have a chew.

However, here lies the problem. The withdrawals are kicking my butt. Not so much the urges, but the anxiety of dying. The day I quit, my glands were tingling and the bottom of my chin began to hurt. Now I have the feeling of "great, I quit, and now I'm gonna die." This game I'm playing with the withdrawals is kicking my butt bad, to the point where I'm scared and want to leave work.

I need people to talk to. I need comfort. I know that I'm going through some of the withdrawal symptoms. Hell, I have even given my self check ups, looking for signs of oral cancer. I just cant figure out why this all started to happen when I quit. If it was something serious, wouldn't it have hurt before.

I need a Group bad.

Welcome, you have found the right place. I was in your shoes quitting 71 days ago. Find the February group and post an introduction and you will get all of the support you need. The symptoms you are now experiencing are probably from all of the toxins you have been putting in your body for years that are now being flushed out. You have made it through the worst part of the physical withdrawls, now it is all a mind game. There is a guide of how to post roll call in the quit cafe. This site is a great tool has been my life line. Without it I most likely would have caved a long time ago. PM me if you need a phone# to prevent a cave or would just like to talk. There is also a live chat option. Just about anyone else on this site will do the same for the asking. Take the quit one day at a time and post regularly. The fog will lift and withdrawls will lessen over the next couple of weeks. If I can do this so can you. Also children can be a great support if you let them. Good Luck and glad you are here.
Kdip

[visamoht]

Good luck.
Then come back here and read everything, ask questions, chat, PM, post, etc.

[capone121212]

Thanks......I left work and am at home getting ready for a doctor's appointment. So lets see what going on. Wish me luck.

[willpharmd]

Hey man. I'm sure it's the anxiety playing with your head. You should go see your doctor, just to get a checkup if it's worrying you that bad. He could also give you something for the anxiety. If you've quit 7 days ago, the nicotine is out of your system so your brain is trying to get rewired. Good luck with your quit. I'm on day 7 as well and it is tough, but i'm tired of being a slave to nicotine.

[capone121212]

Hi, I've been dipping since my senior year in high school. I'm thirty six now, married with three kids, and my ten year old asked me to stop. He stated to me that it wasn't healthy and that he didn't want me to die from cancer. Agreeing with him, I threw my chew out 7 days ago and haven't had a chew since. I have great resolve and confidence that I can do this and wont have a chew.

However, here lies the problem. The withdrawals are kicking my butt. Not so much the urges, but the anxiety of dying. The day I quit, my glands were tingling and the bottom of my chin began to hurt. Now I have the feeling of "great, I quit, and now I'm gonna die." This game I'm playing with the withdrawals is kicking my butt bad, to the point where I'm scared and want to leave work.

I need people to talk to. I need comfort. I know that I'm going through some of the withdrawal symptoms. Hell, I have even given my self check ups, looking for signs of oral cancer. I just cant figure out why this all started to happen when I quit. If it was something serious, wouldn't it have hurt before.

I need a Group bad.