So, it begins...

[GlennFtheKodiak]

I ate a sandwich earlier, only to fight to not puke it back up when I decided to check the swelling in the cheek... There's a nice little lump there...
I pray, I hope... I need to talk to a doctor... It's not fear of death that gets to me, because if it comes down to it, I won't lose the fight. It's the fight that scares me.
I could lose everything I hold dear, and I'd rather not suffer that much.

Furthermore, I don't have insurance... So... Yeah... You don't want to know what's going through my mind. I'm actually starting to weird myself out a little bit.

You might be thinking "Why worry, just wait until you get to a doctor and know something" Well, my brain kind of thinks lightyears ahead of the present moment... I sit and have random things pop into my head that are a year down the road, that I won't need to worry about for a year, but I have them figured out already just because.

That can be a huge blessing. At the moment though, my head is spinning and I kind of wish I could go back to sleep.

I don't care about your sandwich. I promise, I don't. What I do care about is that you post up your day 2 in November and stay quit for today. You can talk about your random stories that have no explanation, you can talk about your worried spots in your mouth, and share those worries with a bunch of other worried quitters too. Good on ya for at least posting up SOMETHING in november 09. That is your family. We will be tough on you. Don't try to reinvent the wheel. Post roll, stay quit, it works. Ask anybody on this site and they'll agree.

Heres how to post roll:

WD's HOW TO POST ROLL CALL
FOR Newbies!!!
Prestep 1 - Go to your quit group, November 2009
Step 1 - Find the last Roll Call
Step 2 - Hit the "Quote" button in the upper right hand corner.
Step 3 - Click your mouse ANYWHERE in The bottom Box
Step 4 - Hit Ctrl and "A" at the Same time so it looks like THIS
Step 5 - Hit Ctrl and "X" at the same time so there is NOTHING in Either Box
Step 6 - Click your mouse in the TOP BOX
Step 7 - Hit Ctrl and "V" at the same time to Past the info into the top box AND ADD YOUR info to the bottom of the list
Step 8 - Hit ADD REPLY below the bottom box
Step 9 - Go back to the 1st unread post, pat yourself on the back, and have a beer cause you will not be dipping today.

For a graphical representation of these instructions, please visit http://www.killthecan.org/roll/

I mean honestly dude, yeah, post up roll for a few days. Show everybody ur really committed and then you can go about with all your stories. Cause right now they are just stories.

Life is full or ironies...

As I'm reading through this thread I happen to be listening to my iPod on shuffle... the song that's playing in my ears right now???

Big Talk by Warrant

Back street fight is looking for trouble
If you open your mouth You're bound to rumble
Johnny looks tough He's froze in the eyes
He keeps his mouth shut He don't tell no lies

Johhny went out last night Got in a barroom fight
Embarrassed a jealous man in front of his cheatin' wife
The man said "Tonight you won But I tell you son
This one's far from over" Johnny said...

CHORUS:
Big talk is just cheap talk unless Unless you're backin' it up
Big talk is cheap talk Only words
Unless you're backin' it up Backin' it up

I don't know why some men lay down and die
Don't they believe in what they are sayin'
You should get on your fee Believe you can't be beat
Remember talk is only playin'

CHORUS:

I remember what my old man used to say WE'RE BACKIN' IT UP
Never give up and run WE'RE BACKIN' IT UP
Don't let the talkin' breeze blow you away
Always remember Stick to your guns

Talk time's over my friend... time to get r done.

Fuck yeah, Chewie! My little Cherry Pie.

[Remshot]

sniff, sniff


'horsecrap' 'horsecrap' 'horsecrap' 'horsecrap' 'horsecrap'

[chewie]

I ate a sandwich earlier, only to fight to not puke it back up when I decided to check the swelling in the cheek... There's a nice little lump there...
I pray, I hope... I need to talk to a doctor... It's not fear of death that gets to me, because if it comes down to it, I won't lose the fight. It's the fight that scares me.
I could lose everything I hold dear, and I'd rather not suffer that much.

Furthermore, I don't have insurance... So... Yeah... You don't want to know what's going through my mind. I'm actually starting to weird myself out a little bit.

You might be thinking "Why worry, just wait until you get to a doctor and know something" Well, my brain kind of thinks lightyears ahead of the present moment... I sit and have random things pop into my head that are a year down the road, that I won't need to worry about for a year, but I have them figured out already just because.

That can be a huge blessing. At the moment though, my head is spinning and I kind of wish I could go back to sleep.

I don't care about your sandwich. I promise, I don't. What I do care about is that you post up your day 2 in November and stay quit for today. You can talk about your random stories that have no explanation, you can talk about your worried spots in your mouth, and share those worries with a bunch of other worried quitters too. Good on ya for at least posting up SOMETHING in november 09. That is your family. We will be tough on you. Don't try to reinvent the wheel. Post roll, stay quit, it works. Ask anybody on this site and they'll agree.

Heres how to post roll:

WD's HOW TO POST ROLL CALL
FOR Newbies!!!
Prestep 1 - Go to your quit group, November 2009
Step 1 - Find the last Roll Call
Step 2 - Hit the "Quote" button in the upper right hand corner.
Step 3 - Click your mouse ANYWHERE in The bottom Box
Step 4 - Hit Ctrl and "A" at the Same time so it looks like THIS
Step 5 - Hit Ctrl and "X" at the same time so there is NOTHING in Either Box
Step 6 - Click your mouse in the TOP BOX
Step 7 - Hit Ctrl and "V" at the same time to Past the info into the top box AND ADD YOUR info to the bottom of the list
Step 8 - Hit ADD REPLY below the bottom box
Step 9 - Go back to the 1st unread post, pat yourself on the back, and have a beer cause you will not be dipping today.

For a graphical representation of these instructions, please visit http://www.killthecan.org/roll/

I mean honestly dude, yeah, post up roll for a few days. Show everybody ur really committed and then you can go about with all your stories. Cause right now they are just stories.

Life is full or ironies...

As I'm reading through this thread I happen to be listening to my iPod on shuffle... the song that's playing in my ears right now???

Big Talk by Warrant

Back street fight is looking for trouble
If you open your mouth You're bound to rumble
Johnny looks tough He's froze in the eyes
He keeps his mouth shut He don't tell no lies

Johhny went out last night Got in a barroom fight
Embarrassed a jealous man in front of his cheatin' wife
The man said "Tonight you won But I tell you son
This one's far from over" Johnny said...

CHORUS:
Big talk is just cheap talk unless Unless you're backin' it up
Big talk is cheap talk Only words
Unless you're backin' it up Backin' it up

I don't know why some men lay down and die
Don't they believe in what they are sayin'
You should get on your fee Believe you can't be beat
Remember talk is only playin'

CHORUS:

I remember what my old man used to say WE'RE BACKIN' IT UP
Never give up and run WE'RE BACKIN' IT UP
Don't let the talkin' breeze blow you away
Always remember Stick to your guns

Talk time's over my friend... time to get r done.

[GlennFtheKodiak]

I ate a sandwich earlier, only to fight to not puke it back up when I decided to check the swelling in the cheek... There's a nice little lump there...
I pray, I hope... I need to talk to a doctor... It's not fear of death that gets to me, because if it comes down to it, I won't lose the fight. It's the fight that scares me.
I could lose everything I hold dear, and I'd rather not suffer that much.

Furthermore, I don't have insurance... So... Yeah... You don't want to know what's going through my mind. I'm actually starting to weird myself out a little bit.

You might be thinking "Why worry, just wait until you get to a doctor and know something" Well, my brain kind of thinks lightyears ahead of the present moment... I sit and have random things pop into my head that are a year down the road, that I won't need to worry about for a year, but I have them figured out already just because.

That can be a huge blessing. At the moment though, my head is spinning and I kind of wish I could go back to sleep.

I don't care about your sandwich. I promise, I don't. What I do care about is that you post up your day 2 in November and stay quit for today. You can talk about your random stories that have no explanation, you can talk about your worried spots in your mouth, and share those worries with a bunch of other worried quitters too. Good on ya for at least posting up SOMETHING in november 09. That is your family. We will be tough on you. Don't try to reinvent the wheel. Post roll, stay quit, it works. Ask anybody on this site and they'll agree.

Heres how to post roll:

WD's HOW TO POST ROLL CALL
FOR Newbies!!!
Prestep 1 - Go to your quit group, November 2009
Step 1 - Find the last Roll Call
Step 2 - Hit the "Quote" button in the upper right hand corner.
Step 3 - Click your mouse ANYWHERE in The bottom Box
Step 4 - Hit Ctrl and "A" at the Same time so it looks like THIS
Step 5 - Hit Ctrl and "X" at the same time so there is NOTHING in Either Box
Step 6 - Click your mouse in the TOP BOX
Step 7 - Hit Ctrl and "V" at the same time to Past the info into the top box AND ADD YOUR info to the bottom of the list
Step 8 - Hit ADD REPLY below the bottom box
Step 9 - Go back to the 1st unread post, pat yourself on the back, and have a beer cause you will not be dipping today.

For a graphical representation of these instructions, please visit http://www.killthecan.org/roll/

I mean honestly dude, yeah, post up roll for a few days. Show everybody ur really committed and then you can go about with all your stories. Cause right now they are just stories.

[ScubaSteve]

I ate a sandwich earlier, only to fight to not puke it back up when I decided to check the swelling in the cheek... There's a nice little lump there...
I pray, I hope... I need to talk to a doctor... It's not fear of death that gets to me, because if it comes down to it, I won't lose the fight. It's the fight that scares me.
I could lose everything I hold dear, and I'd rather not suffer that much.

Furthermore, I don't have insurance... So... Yeah... You don't want to know what's going through my mind. I'm actually starting to weird myself out a little bit.

You might be thinking "Why worry, just wait until you get to a doctor and know something" Well, my brain kind of thinks lightyears ahead of the present moment... I sit and have random things pop into my head that are a year down the road, that I won't need to worry about for a year, but I have them figured out already just because.

That can be a huge blessing. At the moment though, my head is spinning and I kind of wish I could go back to sleep.

I don't care about your sandwich. I promise, I don't. What I do care about is that you post up your day 2 in November and stay quit for today. You can talk about your random stories that have no explanation, you can talk about your worried spots in your mouth, and share those worries with a bunch of other worried quitters too. Good on ya for at least posting up SOMETHING in november 09. That is your family. We will be tough on you. Don't try to reinvent the wheel. Post roll, stay quit, it works. Ask anybody on this site and they'll agree.

Heres how to post roll:

WD's HOW TO POST ROLL CALL
FOR Newbies!!!
Prestep 1 - Go to your quit group, November 2009
Step 1 - Find the last Roll Call
Step 2 - Hit the "Quote" button in the upper right hand corner.
Step 3 - Click your mouse ANYWHERE in The bottom Box
Step 4 - Hit Ctrl and "A" at the Same time so it looks like THIS
Step 5 - Hit Ctrl and "X" at the same time so there is NOTHING in Either Box
Step 6 - Click your mouse in the TOP BOX
Step 7 - Hit Ctrl and "V" at the same time to Past the info into the top box AND ADD YOUR info to the bottom of the list
Step 8 - Hit ADD REPLY below the bottom box
Step 9 - Go back to the 1st unread post, pat yourself on the back, and have a beer cause you will not be dipping today.

For a graphical representation of these instructions, please visit http://www.killthecan.org/roll/

[comingbackdown]

I ate a sandwich earlier, only to fight to not puke it back up when I decided to check the swelling in the cheek... There's a nice little lump there...
I pray, I hope... I need to talk to a doctor... It's not fear of death that gets to me, because if it comes down to it, I won't lose the fight. It's the fight that scares me.
I could lose everything I hold dear, and I'd rather not suffer that much.

Furthermore, I don't have insurance... So... Yeah... You don't want to know what's going through my mind. I'm actually starting to weird myself out a little bit.

You might be thinking "Why worry, just wait until you get to a doctor and know something" Well, my brain kind of thinks lightyears ahead of the present moment... I sit and have random things pop into my head that are a year down the road, that I won't need to worry about for a year, but I have them figured out already just because.

That can be a huge blessing. At the moment though, my head is spinning and I kind of wish I could go back to sleep.

[Stretch]

Well, sorry Dean, I wasn't dropped on my head, I simply don't read stuff from guys with wads of shit still in their mouth.

You know me well enough to know that reading me literally is the wrong approach, Glenn. ;) I'm just breaking balls.

But yeah...we can see a Reds game.

Now if there is a Reds game in order, count me in......

[Stretch]

What is your name?

Also: Just ignore everyone in this thread who is criticizing you. They were all dropped on their heads as infants.

I'm going to support you every day. Just don't let me down. If you do, I am going to come to Ohio and choke you with my dick until you faint.

Caving is not an option if you want to stay alive.

Threats from Dean end up becoming very real. He has already threatened to come to OH and try to take me out should I fall off the wagon.

Here's the deal Aaron.......

You got a lot of shit going on in your life right now. I get that. We all do. Whether it is the trials and tribulations of the daily grind, or the inability to get a good job in a depressed county in the state of OH (my guess is Clermont County); we are all working through our own personal hell(s).

There is one thing that brings all of us together....our addiction. We have all taken different paths to get us to this site. We are here. We are commited. You need to be commited too. Don't take it personally that you get some shit. We all get it when we get weepy about how hard it is to quit. That is what actually makes this site worth the time and effort. If I didn't have these assholes constantly barking at me when I start to stray, I would have been gone long ago. Fact of the matter is, you need these guys to give you shit, to call you out and utterly embarrass your candy-ass excuses as to why you should throw that wad of shit in your lip.

There is a lot of time invested in supporting you and your efforts. Nothing will strip away the respect you gain faster than a cave. Respect needs to be earned here. It is not given. You did not gain my respect when you said that your were typing your introduction with a lipper in....talk about a slap in the face. You want me to support you and your quit but as you ask for my support you are still using the very thing that you want me to help you eliminate from your life? Not worth my time kid. Moving on to someone that can actually use my help!

Now that you have come back and told me you are through day 1 and headed into day 2, now you got my attention. Now you get a chance to earn my respect. Now you get to earn the respect from others. Don't fuck it up!

Post up in November. Do it daily. Be as commited to your quit as you are to your soon-to-be wife.

Now that is somebody I can support.

And don't worry about Dean. From what I have heard from his wife, he has a small dick!

[DeanTheCoot]

Well, sorry Dean, I wasn't dropped on my head, I simply don't read stuff from guys with wads of shit still in their mouth.

You know me well enough to know that reading me literally is the wrong approach, Glenn. ;) I'm just breaking balls.

But yeah...we can see a Reds game.

[GlennFtheKodiak]

What is your name?

Also: Just ignore everyone in this thread who is criticizing you. They were all dropped on their heads as infants.

I'm going to support you every day. Just don't let me down. If you do, I am going to come to Ohio and choke you with my dick until you faint.

Caving is not an option if you want to stay alive.

Well, sorry Dean, I wasn't dropped on my head, I simply don't read stuff from guys with wads of shit still in their mouth.

I will, however, come to Ohio with you if we can catch a Reds game.

[DeanTheCoot]

What is your name?

Also: Just ignore everyone in this thread who is criticizing you. They were all dropped on their heads as infants.

I'm going to support you every day. Just don't let me down. If you do, I am going to come to Ohio and choke you with my dick until you faint.

Caving is not an option if you want to stay alive.

[DeanTheCoot]

Syndrome has met his match.

HA! Funnnny.

But honestly...I can follow this dude easier that I can follow Syndrome.

[comingbackdown]

Ok so I have been laying low for the past couple of months. this looks like a great fuckin place to reserect my support of the need to quit. In fact I am so into this intro I am coming back tomorrow to see what has happened. Dude, quitting is the best thing you could ever do. no matter how fucked up your life is. I am really impressed you picked a hard day to quit. It makes more since the longer you are quit. It really begins to mean something and then your like really happy that your still quit and wow look what I can do damnit. OK, Stay the fuck quit, post daily and PM anyone for a phone number. If you want mine, pm me. I will give it to you. You are a fun place to visit.

Many thanks, brother.

By the way, guys... I begin roll tomorrow. I made it through day one with no problem, stress and all. Speak of which, y'know what really rocks?
Cinnamon Raisin Bagels, yogurt, Cheddar  Sour Cream chips, a glass of milk, and a pop tart. Yeah, it's an odd mix, but my metabolism is so high I eat like a horse and gain no weight. I need to exercise and eat less so I can lose more, but... yeah... This odd bunch of food will always be remembered as the meal with which I celebrated my first day quit...

Now, as much as my fiancee dislikes drinking, I'll see if she'll grant me one exception and let me knock back a beer with a friend of mine when I hit 100 days... Yeah, that's thinking way ahead, but it never hurts to dream, and that'd be a helluva celebration, considering the fact that I haven't sat down and sipped a beer since September of last year... Find my old huge beer mug... I think it was like a 24 oz. mug... Pop a couple longnecks of craft beer into it, sit back, enjoy...

Tomorrow is day two. What will it bring? I really don't know, but lets find out.

On a side note: My right cheek is swelling. I'm nervous... I'm not freaking out, as there's a strong possibility I have an infection going now... Last time I dipped really heavy and then quit, I had a NASTY throat infection that crept its way all the way up into my mouth, made it half way through my cheeks before the antibiotic finally started hitting it... Nasty, nasty, nasty stuff, that. The nic bitch is a cruel mistress, ain't she? I wonder how many have decided to quit, quit, had their mouths go haywire, freaked, and started again. Sad, ain't it?

All day, off and on, I've had the "Shit... One dip won't kill me. Why not enjoy one more day before I really quit?" bullshit flashing through the back of my mind... I've found that if I blast my mental voice out with a nice giant "FUCK YOU!" it kind of disappears... Honestly, the nic bitch is a real low-down wench to deal with, but... For some reason, she doesn't seem as powerful as she used to. I'm about to go play Half-Life 2... I think every headcrab I bust a cap in, I'll mentally replace its head with a can of Skoal... Release of agression can be a wonderful thing. aaaaaand video games have already helped me beat cravings today.
Granted, people kind of look at you weird when you're staring at the Gameboy Color going "JUMP MARIO, YOU STUPID FUCK! JUMP OVER THE DAMN HOLE!"

This ends day one...

[Ricko]

Ok so I have been laying low for the past couple of months. this looks like a great fuckin place to reserect my support of the need to quit. In fact I am so into this intro I am coming back tomorrow to see what has happened. Dude, quitting is the best thing you could ever do. no matter how fucked up your life is. I am really impressed you picked a hard day to quit. It makes more since the longer you are quit. It really begins to mean something and then your like really happy that your still quit and wow look what I can do damnit. OK, Stay the fuck quit, post daily and PM anyone for a phone number. If you want mine, pm me. I will give it to you. You are a fun place to visit.

[comingbackdown]

1. Us riding your ass is support, believe it or not. No one on this board is going to sugar coat anything. This shit is tough, and you better get serious or you WILL fail. There is never a "good" time to quit, so glad your mother is okay, but its time to focus on making this work.

2. If you were up for 18 hours with 2 hours of sleep I hope it was because you were looking for a job. I understand things are bad, and Im guessing by your 10% plus unemployment rate you are from Michigan, but you can find some sort of ditch digging job somewhere, just have to look hard enough.

3.

I'm so pissed right now, if not for the whole being charged with multiple felonies part, I'd go down to the store, rip off every can of my former chosen brand, cover it in charcoal lighter and torch it in the middle of the street... Badass enough for you?

This in no way, shape, or form makes you a badass. This makes you an idiot. Who brags about felonies? Do you realize 9/10ths of the world thinks you are a dirtbag?

5.

I can't yell, I can't scream, but I want to so badly... If I do, my dad will rip me a new ass for yelling when mom needs to wind down... So, I"ll just go with this.


Time to crank the bass and listen to some Slayer...

I would suggest exercising instead. Cranking some Slayer probably wont help your mother sleep.

That, my friend, is why headphones are a gift from God.

Actually, I'm from Ohio, and the unemployment rate in my county is higher than the state average. No, I wasn't searching for a job that whole time. I've hit about everything that I can hit online that's in my area, and I can't afford to relocate either. I never sleep well before one of two things:
A. Medical procedures
B. Job interviews.

Yup, I can be on sleep medication, and still not sleep the night before a job interview.

Sadly, I can't go out for a run or anything since mom needs me nearby, and if I do anything more than pushups or something, maybe a few reps with my smaller weights, I'll wind up waking her up anyway, which is a bad, bad thing.