Day 19 - Decided to try giving this journaling thing a shot. I never was much for keeping a journal before so I don't much know what to say. I didn't really experience any new issues or craves or anything like that today, but did notice that my jaw and teeth sensitivity is really starting to improve. It was never all that bad, but I think my body is starting to normalize and function like it should.
It's still early in the evening, but I had a good productive day. Worked until about 3:00 then came home and spread some mulch and cleaned up some debris in the yard. Yard work is rough without a dip still, so I am suffering through some Smokie Mountain. I'm not a fan of the taste or feeding the habit of having something in my lip so I think I'm getting close to throwing that in the trash as well. After spending the last few weeks here, it almost feels like cheating when I throw in the fake stuff. I'll try switching over to gum or something and see how that goes.
One little story and I'll be on my way...I used to always buy my chew from the same gas station and there was a little old lady behind the counter nearly every time I'd go. She'd have a log of Cope Wintergreen waiting for me when I got to the counter. I was clearly a regular. Well, I stopped for gas tonight and went in to grab a Gatorade. There she was when I walked in the door. I grabbed my drink and walked up to the counter to see that canned up sleeve of manure waiting for me. I looked her in the eye and said, "I won't be needing that, I quit!" and she walked out from behind the counter and gave me a big hug. It's the little things that remind me how much I had to lose, and how much there still is to gain.
Much love to anyone who stumbles across this.
