Today is my day #21. Three weeks seemed like quite the milestone at the beginning of my quit. But after being here and being in it I realize it is nothing more than my 21st renewal of a promise I make on a daily basis. That is the secret to it all, take everything in manageable increments.
When you first quit, and the nic bitch is tearing you limb from limb inside your head and you wonder how you're gonna survive the first few days. Then you realize you don't have to survive the first few days, you just have to survive the next few moments and so on and so on. As my quit has progressed those moments have gotten larger, but will never expand beyond the present day.
You see it all the time, when a team gets beat by an inferior team because they got caught looking ahead. I am determined that that won't be me.
Rage is still my secret weapon, but I'm finding I need it less as the cravings are decreasing in severity, and frequency. Its a good feeling to have made it this far, but the truth is, its all for nothing if I fail today. So each day I renew my promise and prepare myself for whats headed my way.
Those are my thoughts, observations, and ramblings from 3 weeks in.