Can somebody help me out.
I'm on day 7 and I feel like I'm back to day 2.
I spent most of the day on the lake putting in brush piles for crappie fishin this winter.
I knew the lake would set off some triggers and it did. Nothin I couldn't handle. (My day 2 was a living hell.)
So tonight I take the boys to the store and get stuff for hotdogs. We start a fire in the back and all the sudden I'm in a shit mood. I mean scary shit mood.
I feel like a fuckin monster. Like I want to destroy something or someone.
I have no regard for anything or anyone.
I handle it by getting away from my boys and drinking some cold water. Of course I threw in a pinch of backoff. But wtf is going on? I thought it was going to get easier or can I expect these moods to come on sometimes.
Thanks guys.
8,760 days of use vs 7 days of quit.
You're doing great but you will have some battles ahead, no doubt about it.
You're body is pissed. It wants its posion. What do little babys do when they don't get what they want? They cry and throw a fit, because they have not learned how to fend for themselves and function without dependency.
Obviously you're not a baby, but you're going through something similar. Your body wants something it used to be dependant on, but when you tell it no, you get PISSED.
Eventually you will learn you don't need your widdle bah bah anymore, but it will take time and be a struggle. Also you will eventually learn not to shit yourself and lose the diaper.