It's Time

[Bulldog0311]

Next itÂ’s off to the home of the infamous squid, John Calipari, and his annual crew of blue chip semi-pro ballers, Lexington, KY. This is the place where we are hog tying and duct taping a mutton loving High School English teacher who goes by the mysterious screenname of Humbledteacher. Did you ever see “The Substitute” with Tom Berenger? Humbledteacher would kick the shit of him. Humbledteacher is married with no children as of yet, though we conductors have the distinct honor of announcing to the KTC universe that he and his wife are expecting their first child in August! Congratulations!! Their first born will either be named Frazzled or Srans. A flip of his 100 Day HOF coin will determine who gets the honor. Anyway, these two KTC vets have helped Humbledteacher in his quit and provided him with valuable drive  inspiration, so he has decided to go ahead and honor these gentlemen by naming not just his first born, but his first two children after them.
Thank goodness he came to his senses and ended the nicotine madness 100 days ago. He started dipping when he was 18 and is now a rock solid quitter and spreadsheet keeper. He is also committed to continuing to the next big milestone of 200 days. Humbledteacher offers the following wisdom, “For me, it started about my quit and my quit alone. But through this site it became more. If I caved, I wasn't just letting myself down, I was letting down my brotherhood, my March group. Therefore, staying quit became more than just about me.” beautiful words man. This ties into his favorite movie quote from the Jimmy Stewart classic, “It’s a Wonderful Life” - “No man is a failure who has friends”.
We like this guy, and he likes the UK Wildcats, the St. Louis Cardinals, the Indianapolis Colts, and Breaking Bad. For his 1 year quit anniversary he will be trading his old hoopty Toyota Camry for a 2004 brownish/goldish colored Pontiac Aztec. HeÂ’s not a Chemistry teacher, heÂ’s an English teacher, so hopefully his criminal activity wonÂ’t go beyond dealing counterfeit first edition copies of Moby Dick  Catcher in the Rye in the back alleys of Lexington. For thhep arty on board he will be bringing Atomic Fireballs, sunflower seeds, and some books. But donÂ’t let this bookworm fool you, he picked up piano playing during his life and travels throughout the midwest. So hopefully weÂ’ll have some ragtime tunes as backdrop to our ongoing drunk poker game along with the vodka and mountain dew shooter sessions. He claims to not enjoy any inappropriate behavior, which is probably a good thing since he is in the teaching profession. His favorite avatar is Jdubthe2ndÂ’s picture of Gandalf. Glad he finally cleared up who the heck Jdub's avatar was, I was stumped.. I have tried to watch Lord of the Rings multiple times, but always fall asleep about 2 hours in. Welcome aboard Humbledteacher! We are very proud to quit with you.

Hell of a job teach. Congratulations. Outstanding.

Bulldog. ;Ironman:

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

Next itÂ’s off to the home of the infamous squid, John Calipari, and his annual crew of blue chip semi-pro ballers, Lexington, KY. This is the place where we are hog tying and duct taping a mutton loving High School English teacher who goes by the mysterious screenname of Humbledteacher. Did you ever see “The Substitute” with Tom Berenger? Humbledteacher would kick the shit of him. Humbledteacher is married with no children as of yet, though we conductors have the distinct honor of announcing to the KTC universe that he and his wife are expecting their first child in August! Congratulations!! Their first born will either be named Frazzled or Srans. A flip of his 100 Day HOF coin will determine who gets the honor. Anyway, these two KTC vets have helped Humbledteacher in his quit and provided him with valuable drive  inspiration, so he has decided to go ahead and honor these gentlemen by naming not just his first born, but his first two children after them.
Thank goodness he came to his senses and ended the nicotine madness 100 days ago. He started dipping when he was 18 and is now a rock solid quitter and spreadsheet keeper. He is also committed to continuing to the next big milestone of 200 days. Humbledteacher offers the following wisdom, “For me, it started about my quit and my quit alone. But through this site it became more. If I caved, I wasn't just letting myself down, I was letting down my brotherhood, my March group. Therefore, staying quit became more than just about me.” beautiful words man. This ties into his favorite movie quote from the Jimmy Stewart classic, “It’s a Wonderful Life” - “No man is a failure who has friends”.
We like this guy, and he likes the UK Wildcats, the St. Louis Cardinals, the Indianapolis Colts, and Breaking Bad. For his 1 year quit anniversary he will be trading his old hoopty Toyota Camry for a 2004 brownish/goldish colored Pontiac Aztec. HeÂ’s not a Chemistry teacher, heÂ’s an English teacher, so hopefully his criminal activity wonÂ’t go beyond dealing counterfeit first edition copies of Moby Dick  Catcher in the Rye in the back alleys of Lexington. For thhep arty on board he will be bringing Atomic Fireballs, sunflower seeds, and some books. But donÂ’t let this bookworm fool you, he picked up piano playing during his life and travels throughout the midwest. So hopefully weÂ’ll have some ragtime tunes as backdrop to our ongoing drunk poker game along with the vodka and mountain dew shooter sessions. He claims to not enjoy any inappropriate behavior, which is probably a good thing since he is in the teaching profession. His favorite avatar is Jdubthe2ndÂ’s picture of Gandalf. Glad he finally cleared up who the heck Jdub's avatar was, I was stumped.. I have tried to watch Lord of the Rings multiple times, but always fall asleep about 2 hours in. Welcome aboard Humbledteacher! We are very proud to quit with you.

[Steakbomb18]

Lead March to the promised land Humbled. Damn proud to quit with you and I'll follow your quit any day.

[Winter Green]

HumbledTeacher ; Another leader. He stays true to the spreadsheet, and true to KTC with 100% posts @ DAY 89. I'd say we know where this quit is headed. Can anyone say HOF?

[humbledteacher]

Hey Teach! 

I saw on your toll post you had a dip dream?  You ok?  Spray strong man!

Yeah Bulldog, it was intense. I hear they don't happen to everyone but prepare yourself for a freaky experience. There was absolutely no relief in my dream cave--only regret, guilt, and disappointment. I think it made my quit stronger.

Congrats on getting past that 3 day mark. Those first 3 days were killer but I think days 4 and 5 may be a littler harder. Stay strong, man. I'm PMing you my digits if you need them.

Mark--Thanks, brother. Will do.

[Marcusaurelius]

You got my digits bro... use them if you need them.

[Bulldog0311]

Hey Teach!

I saw on your toll post you had a dip dream? You ok? Spray strong man!

[humbledteacher]

humbled,

Don't let the rage come out at your family - especially your wife. She didn't choose for you to use nicotine, and she shouldn't have to suffer while you are withdrawing from it. I know I was a total asshole for several weeks, but I got her to understand that I wasn't trying to be this way by getting her on the site like you suggested.

Hell, I had to go through it when she quit smoking the next year.

Find a way to make the crazy go away. Your brain is rewiring itself and in doing so it is bitching at you. You're going to gain weight. You're going to be crabby. You're going to find new ways of doing things. And then you will begin healing.

Start slow. Try not to engage in arguments with your wife. Come into chat and rage all you want. We can take it.

Quit on.

~Frazz

Frazz,

You're right for sure. Since that evening, I've been working out every day and it has helped with the anxious feeling and anger.

hey, anyone of us are up for an irrational fight! Come here and vent. Call me a cunt and see where it takes us. 'crackup'

its like the movie airplane. Everyone will get in line to beat the cyber shit out of someone.

It works to rage here and it is good therapy when we sometimes are irrational in our moods.

Haha. Very true. I've been in the chat room the past couple of nights and have really received some great support--marcusaurelius comes to mind especially.

[Mthomas3824]

humbled,

Don't let the rage come out at your family - especially your wife. She didn't choose for you to use nicotine, and she shouldn't have to suffer while you are withdrawing from it. I know I was a total asshole for several weeks, but I got her to understand that I wasn't trying to be this way by getting her on the site like you suggested.

Hell, I had to go through it when she quit smoking the next year.

Find a way to make the crazy go away. Your brain is rewiring itself and in doing so it is bitching at you. You're going to gain weight. You're going to be crabby. You're going to find new ways of doing things. And then you will begin healing.

Start slow. Try not to engage in arguments with your wife. Come into chat and rage all you want. We can take it.

Quit on.

~Frazz

Frazz,

You're right for sure. Since that evening, I've been working out every day and it has helped with the anxious feeling and anger.

hey, anyone of us are up for an irrational fight! Come here and vent. Call me a cunt and see where it takes us. 'crackup'

its like the movie airplane. Everyone will get in line to beat the cyber shit out of someone.

It works to rage here and it is good therapy when we sometimes are irrational in our moods.

[humbledteacher]

humbled,

Don't let the rage come out at your family - especially your wife. She didn't choose for you to use nicotine, and she shouldn't have to suffer while you are withdrawing from it. I know I was a total asshole for several weeks, but I got her to understand that I wasn't trying to be this way by getting her on the site like you suggested.

Hell, I had to go through it when she quit smoking the next year.

Find a way to make the crazy go away. Your brain is rewiring itself and in doing so it is bitching at you. You're going to gain weight. You're going to be crabby. You're going to find new ways of doing things. And then you will begin healing.

Start slow. Try not to engage in arguments with your wife. Come into chat and rage all you want. We can take it.

Quit on.

~Frazz

Frazz,

You're right for sure. Since that evening, I've been working out every day and it has helped with the anxious feeling and anger.

[Frazzled]

Thanks for the support everyone.  I'm going to try and get her reading more stuff on here.  That might help.  It was also probably just me being a jerk because I wanted desired my relationship with nicotine more than my relationship with her.  Stupid crap like that is why I'm staying quit today.

humbled,

Don't let the rage come out at your family - especially your wife. She didn't choose for you to use nicotine, and she shouldn't have to suffer while you are withdrawing from it. I know I was a total asshole for several weeks, but I got her to understand that I wasn't trying to be this way by getting her on the site like you suggested.

Hell, I had to go through it when she quit smoking the next year.

Find a way to make the crazy go away. Your brain is rewiring itself and in doing so it is bitching at you. You're going to gain weight. You're going to be crabby. You're going to find new ways of doing things. And then you will begin healing.

Start slow. Try not to engage in arguments with your wife. Come into chat and rage all you want. We can take it.

Quit on.

~Frazz

[ParadigmDawg]

I'm staying strong but tonight has been the hardest night yet. I've got my wife yelling at me about spending more money on non tobacco products than I was when I was using. Do you want me to quit? Shes also complaining about how I'm acting different and crap. Maybe it's all just me and my cravings but dang. Tired but hanging in there.

You are right on target. My wife asked me if I was leaving her at one point because I was acting so different.

I became a big dick and took it out on her a lot. I am sure that deep inside, I was wanting her to "make" me start dipping again.

My temper was back under control around the 65 day mark and I was able to make it up to my wife.

I started a similar daily posting to myself on "being nice to my wife"...

[srans]

Thanks for the support everyone. I'm going to try and get her reading more stuff on here. That might help. It was also probably just me being a jerk because I wanted desired my relationship with nicotine more than my relationship with her. Stupid crap like that is why I'm staying quit today.

From what i gathered you had a rough evening. You got my number, use it brother. The emotional roller coaster can and will be difficult at times. I remember one night sitting on my recliner with tears in my eyes. It was the turning point in my quit. I used the site, drive, determination, wife, and chat.

Whether you know it or not,, last night was a win. Think about it. You made it last night so you can darn sure make it tonight. Each win makes the next bad moment easier. Each trigger you face and beat down makes the next time that trigger comes easier. Your winning teacher!

Your going to be so happy you endured all this. Your building a new you and the new you is one bad dude. The new you doesn't need the poison, never did. The new you will handle stress better than ever. The new you will no long think he needs the poison to breathe. The new you will decide when and what he wants to spend his money on. He no longer will spend countless dollars on something as useless as a can of dirt. The new you will go through the day appreciating his family, life and the decisions he has made.


Hang in there,,, I promise, you will like the new you. I"m already liking the new person you are. He is showing, integrity, determination, drive and accomplishment. The new humble teacher is the type of person I like to associate myself with. Hang in there brother. Quit with you.

[humbledteacher]

Thanks for the support everyone. I'm going to try and get her reading more stuff on here. That might help. It was also probably just me being a jerk because I wanted desired my relationship with nicotine more than my relationship with her. Stupid crap like that is why I'm staying quit today.

[SirDerek]

I'm staying strong but tonight has been the hardest night yet.  I've got my wife yelling at me about spending more money on non tobacco products than I was when I was using.  Do you want me to quit?  Shes also complaining about how I'm acting different and crap.  Maybe it's all just me and my cravings but dang.  Tired but hanging in there.

Have her check out the section for spouses. Come on here to vent, try not to be ugly to her. We can take it so give it to us. I sent you my number, expect you'll use it brother.

You are doing great man. This bullshit is all normal. I know exactly how your feeling right now. Just put your head down an plow through this shit. It will get better man. Happy Thanksgiving.

ditto - get her to talk to us as well in the chat room, or over on facebook to ask questions. Never let this get ugly with her as she is one of the biggest supporters to help in your quit.

Hang tight, stay calm, be strong, give her a long slow deep soft wet kiss that lasts 3 days.. (ok may not be the exact wording from Bull Durham, but you get the pic).

Quitting right beside you....