New Quitter

[rdad]

Beautiful Corey! I lost my Dad when I was 24. He was 48. Not a day goes by that I don't think about him. Thanks for this. I feel the same!

[Pinched]

Ode to my Old Man

Today I sit at my desk with tears welling,
As this anniversary of your death passes.
I miss you more and question if telling
You I loved you was done among masses.

The hardest part has been when I need a guide,
Hey pop how should I do this or what would you do?
Now it sucks because I have to take it in stride,
I know no matter what you will help me through.

I guess in a sense losing you has helped some,
As I know I have become a better dad.
Daily teaching and learning always welcome,
Grateful for the seconds I get and never sad.

This year we started building your dream car,
The kids and I are Hot Rodding your old Ford.
They all take pride in following your star,
We know you are working with us and onboard.

The whole family is not the same now,
Things have changed now without the glue.
I will always be there for mom no matter how,
I hope you know we all miss you.

The irony in all this is I know what I'd hear,
When you say "tough guys don't cry."
Well damn it, you caused this tear,
But trust that I am strong and I will always try.

I know you raised me to be strong and tough,
As I am raising your grandkids the same too.
Losing you in my life was surprisingly rough,
I know I didn't say it enough but I do love you.

Thank you for making me the man I am,
I owe you so much I could never repay.
The best I can do in this life is be who I am,
And smile because you helped make me that way.

I wrote this in Odes to Quitters but I wanted to add this to my intro thread as well. Since losing my dad I have learned many great things:
1 - No matter how strong you are as a person, being a man and losing your father unexpectedly is a very humbling experience. I felt so vulnerable and scared yet knew as the successor I had no choice but to step up.
2 - Tell your loved ones that you love them, as often as you can, enjoy your kids, take pride in family (even the crazy ones). Enjoy life and rise above ignorance
3 - Make time to take time, do not wait for a perfect time and never let perfect be the enemy of good
4 - Anything you do in life, think about who is watching, what will they see, what will they think, and care about that a little but mostly consider if your dad would be proud or ashamed of what you are about to do
5 - Be yourself, be proud of what you are and what you have become

My father was by no means a Saint, but he was my father and it is my opinion that his way of bringing me up made me into the man I became and thought I too am not a Saint, I am proud to be what I am and I vow to wear the name he gave me proudly. This is My Last Name, I love you dad and I am eternally grateful to what you have handed me.

P

[rdad]

April 29, 2015 - Day 654

I haven't posted in my own intro in quite some time and in lieu of venting my frustrations today towards any specific individual or specifically my fist against their jaw I have decided to write it all here in an effort to release the demon within my head telling me "just do it...he deserves it".

I am trying to wrap up a construction project in Denver Colorado. This client is far and above the absolute worst and most condescending client I have ever worked for. I managed the Preconstruction process for the job for almost a year (cost, scheduling, logistics planning, etc.), then we hired a project team to manage the work...epic fail; one guy was run off by others, two others quit when they figured out they were in over their head, another guy quit way early and never really tired. I then took over the responsibility when I visited the job and identified that they were 11 weeks off the planned schedule. I then got us back on schedule, made no friends doing so but gained the respect of our trade contractors because someone finally "owned it". I now have three other projects for a much different client that I have projects starting for, they want me there...which is home so I am happy. I found a younger guy that although lacks tact in his delivery he gets it and understands the scope of work. Enter owner's representative who always wants to argue contract language with me; the problem he has is that he references old contract language that this client used in the 80s, so he is seldom correct. Let's just say that this guy absolutely hates being proven wrong, even if I do so as though I had feelings.

So to make a real long story a little bit shorter...this Ass Clown decides last night to contact the President of my company (a close personal friend of mine) and indicate that I said something that I did not. I flew off the handle this morning when I found out and was ready to just tear him a new asshole. Thankfully the company president put it into perspective for me and indicated that he had proof that he was talking out his ass, and that I should let it go. So I have kind of let it go, but my 200# heavy bag is going to get it's ass kicked tonight. Tomorrow is a new day and as a matter of fact I am flying home, get to see my kids, coach some baseball and then on Friday meet with my new client.

The moral of the story is that this world is chocked full of Ass Clowns, some of those you can hit and others you can't. I still have a solid quit and though I was fighting mad today I never once thought a dip would make it better. So I close this with the best thing I can as I say 'Finger' Strong Letter to Follow.

P

I hate mother fuckers at work. I got to deal with one myself today.

Nicotine only helps make others rich. Mostly doctors dentists and hospitals. Nothing more.

Nice update

656 days ago you would not be thinking as clearly or articulating as well as you are now. You may have acted on your impulses and knocked the guy out and we all know where that would have left you!!! Fast forward to now you win and nicotine looses yet again. I don't know why we all thought nicotine gave us the strength to overcome all our problems. Quit on brother!

I am always damn proud you are a part of my quit, and proud to call you a friend but even more so after reading that. You have my number feel free to vent any time, and enjoy the freedom that comes with dealing with idiots and assholes on your terms and not having to bang the cancer can to handle the stupidity that seems to increase every day. Proud to quit with you today.

Cory, I am also a project manager/super/estimator for a heavy construction company. I feel your pain bro. You are leading the way for me. I will never forget the encouragement you gave me in the beginning of my quit. Peace!

[luby]

April 29, 2015 - Day 654

I haven't posted in my own intro in quite some time and in lieu of venting my frustrations today towards any specific individual or specifically my fist against their jaw I have decided to write it all here in an effort to release the demon within my head telling me "just do it...he deserves it".

I am trying to wrap up a construction project in Denver Colorado. This client is far and above the absolute worst and most condescending client I have ever worked for. I managed the Preconstruction process for the job for almost a year (cost, scheduling, logistics planning, etc.), then we hired a project team to manage the work...epic fail; one guy was run off by others, two others quit when they figured out they were in over their head, another guy quit way early and never really tired. I then took over the responsibility when I visited the job and identified that they were 11 weeks off the planned schedule. I then got us back on schedule, made no friends doing so but gained the respect of our trade contractors because someone finally "owned it". I now have three other projects for a much different client that I have projects starting for, they want me there...which is home so I am happy. I found a younger guy that although lacks tact in his delivery he gets it and understands the scope of work. Enter owner's representative who always wants to argue contract language with me; the problem he has is that he references old contract language that this client used in the 80s, so he is seldom correct. Let's just say that this guy absolutely hates being proven wrong, even if I do so as though I had feelings.

So to make a real long story a little bit shorter...this Ass Clown decides last night to contact the President of my company (a close personal friend of mine) and indicate that I said something that I did not. I flew off the handle this morning when I found out and was ready to just tear him a new asshole. Thankfully the company president put it into perspective for me and indicated that he had proof that he was talking out his ass, and that I should let it go. So I have kind of let it go, but my 200# heavy bag is going to get it's ass kicked tonight. Tomorrow is a new day and as a matter of fact I am flying home, get to see my kids, coach some baseball and then on Friday meet with my new client.

The moral of the story is that this world is chocked full of Ass Clowns, some of those you can hit and others you can't. I still have a solid quit and though I was fighting mad today I never once thought a dip would make it better. So I close this with the best thing I can as I say 'Finger' Strong Letter to Follow.

P

I hate mother fuckers at work. I got to deal with one myself today.

Nicotine only helps make others rich. Mostly doctors dentists and hospitals. Nothing more.

Nice update

656 days ago you would not be thinking as clearly or articulating as well as you are now. You may have acted on your impulses and knocked the guy out and we all know where that would have left you!!! Fast forward to now you win and nicotine looses yet again. I don't know why we all thought nicotine gave us the strength to overcome all our problems. Quit on brother!

I am always damn proud you are a part of my quit, and proud to call you a friend but even more so after reading that. You have my number feel free to vent any time, and enjoy the freedom that comes with dealing with idiots and assholes on your terms and not having to bang the cancer can to handle the stupidity that seems to increase every day. Proud to quit with you today.

[Sand_Fleas_Gotta_Eat]

April 29, 2015 - Day 654

I haven't posted in my own intro in quite some time and in lieu of venting my frustrations today towards any specific individual or specifically my fist against their jaw I have decided to write it all here in an effort to release the demon within my head telling me "just do it...he deserves it".

I am trying to wrap up a construction project in Denver Colorado. This client is far and above the absolute worst and most condescending client I have ever worked for. I managed the Preconstruction process for the job for almost a year (cost, scheduling, logistics planning, etc.), then we hired a project team to manage the work...epic fail; one guy was run off by others, two others quit when they figured out they were in over their head, another guy quit way early and never really tired. I then took over the responsibility when I visited the job and identified that they were 11 weeks off the planned schedule. I then got us back on schedule, made no friends doing so but gained the respect of our trade contractors because someone finally "owned it". I now have three other projects for a much different client that I have projects starting for, they want me there...which is home so I am happy. I found a younger guy that although lacks tact in his delivery he gets it and understands the scope of work. Enter owner's representative who always wants to argue contract language with me; the problem he has is that he references old contract language that this client used in the 80s, so he is seldom correct. Let's just say that this guy absolutely hates being proven wrong, even if I do so as though I had feelings.

So to make a real long story a little bit shorter...this Ass Clown decides last night to contact the President of my company (a close personal friend of mine) and indicate that I said something that I did not. I flew off the handle this morning when I found out and was ready to just tear him a new asshole. Thankfully the company president put it into perspective for me and indicated that he had proof that he was talking out his ass, and that I should let it go. So I have kind of let it go, but my 200# heavy bag is going to get it's ass kicked tonight. Tomorrow is a new day and as a matter of fact I am flying home, get to see my kids, coach some baseball and then on Friday meet with my new client.

The moral of the story is that this world is chocked full of Ass Clowns, some of those you can hit and others you can't. I still have a solid quit and though I was fighting mad today I never once thought a dip would make it better. So I close this with the best thing I can as I say 'Finger' Strong Letter to Follow.

P

I hate mother fuckers at work. I got to deal with one myself today.

Nicotine only helps make others rich. Mostly doctors dentists and hospitals. Nothing more.

Nice update

656 days ago you would not be thinking as clearly or articulating as well as you are now. You may have acted on your impulses and knocked the guy out and we all know where that would have left you!!! Fast forward to now you win and nicotine looses yet again. I don't know why we all thought nicotine gave us the strength to overcome all our problems. Quit on brother!

[worktowin]

April 29, 2015 - Day 654

I haven't posted in my own intro in quite some time and in lieu of venting my frustrations today towards any specific individual or specifically my fist against their jaw I have decided to write it all here in an effort to release the demon within my head telling me "just do it...he deserves it".

I am trying to wrap up a construction project in Denver Colorado. This client is far and above the absolute worst and most condescending client I have ever worked for. I managed the Preconstruction process for the job for almost a year (cost, scheduling, logistics planning, etc.), then we hired a project team to manage the work...epic fail; one guy was run off by others, two others quit when they figured out they were in over their head, another guy quit way early and never really tired. I then took over the responsibility when I visited the job and identified that they were 11 weeks off the planned schedule. I then got us back on schedule, made no friends doing so but gained the respect of our trade contractors because someone finally "owned it". I now have three other projects for a much different client that I have projects starting for, they want me there...which is home so I am happy. I found a younger guy that although lacks tact in his delivery he gets it and understands the scope of work. Enter owner's representative who always wants to argue contract language with me; the problem he has is that he references old contract language that this client used in the 80s, so he is seldom correct. Let's just say that this guy absolutely hates being proven wrong, even if I do so as though I had feelings.

So to make a real long story a little bit shorter...this Ass Clown decides last night to contact the President of my company (a close personal friend of mine) and indicate that I said something that I did not. I flew off the handle this morning when I found out and was ready to just tear him a new asshole. Thankfully the company president put it into perspective for me and indicated that he had proof that he was talking out his ass, and that I should let it go. So I have kind of let it go, but my 200# heavy bag is going to get it's ass kicked tonight. Tomorrow is a new day and as a matter of fact I am flying home, get to see my kids, coach some baseball and then on Friday meet with my new client.

The moral of the story is that this world is chocked full of Ass Clowns, some of those you can hit and others you can't. I still have a solid quit and though I was fighting mad today I never once thought a dip would make it better. So I close this with the best thing I can as I say 'Finger' Strong Letter to Follow.

P

I hate mother fuckers at work. I got to deal with one myself today.

Nicotine only helps make others rich. Mostly doctors dentists and hospitals. Nothing more.

Nice update

[Pinched]

April 29, 2015 - Day 654

I haven't posted in my own intro in quite some time and in lieu of venting my frustrations today towards any specific individual or specifically my fist against their jaw I have decided to write it all here in an effort to release the demon within my head telling me "just do it...he deserves it".

I am trying to wrap up a construction project in Denver Colorado. This client is far and above the absolute worst and most condescending client I have ever worked for. I managed the Preconstruction process for the job for almost a year (cost, scheduling, logistics planning, etc.), then we hired a project team to manage the work...epic fail; one guy was run off by others, two others quit when they figured out they were in over their head, another guy quit way early and never really tired. I then took over the responsibility when I visited the job and identified that they were 11 weeks off the planned schedule. I then got us back on schedule, made no friends doing so but gained the respect of our trade contractors because someone finally "owned it". I now have three other projects for a much different client that I have projects starting for, they want me there...which is home so I am happy. I found a younger guy that although lacks tact in his delivery he gets it and understands the scope of work. Enter owner's representative who always wants to argue contract language with me; the problem he has is that he references old contract language that this client used in the 80s, so he is seldom correct. Let's just say that this guy absolutely hates being proven wrong, even if I do so as though I had feelings.

So to make a real long story a little bit shorter...this Ass Clown decides last night to contact the President of my company (a close personal friend of mine) and indicate that I said something that I did not. I flew off the handle this morning when I found out and was ready to just tear him a new asshole. Thankfully the company president put it into perspective for me and indicated that he had proof that he was talking out his ass, and that I should let it go. So I have kind of let it go, but my 200# heavy bag is going to get it's ass kicked tonight. Tomorrow is a new day and as a matter of fact I am flying home, get to see my kids, coach some baseball and then on Friday meet with my new client.

The moral of the story is that this world is chocked full of Ass Clowns, some of those you can hit and others you can't. I still have a solid quit and though I was fighting mad today I never once thought a dip would make it better. So I close this with the best thing I can as I say 'Finger' Strong Letter to Follow.

P

[kkljinc]

Sitting on one full revolution around the sun...reflecting on a quit from hell

The first two weeks were just a blur, nothing but fog. Plus it took 2.5 weeks for a real "normal" vowel movement too. So yes I was absolutely full of shit then. The rest if that month was hell, but like many other weeks from hell they too were worth it. The rest of the 100 days were filled with my being a raging overly defensive asshole. No one was safe, I was ready to fight for any reason whatsoever. However, I still managed to be a dad a good citizen and a hard working guy. I helped build a new company during this time.

The next hundred were filled with many tests as well; followed by even more tests the next 100 days. My diagnosed with breast cancer, fighting with spouse, betrayal, deceit, work problems, fighting over my lat father's possessions, sickness, travel (and loads of it)...I never once felt my quit was in danger. I was an asshole dipper, the in your face kind of packing my whol lower lip full of shit, spit in your store, leave spit cups/cans everywhere. My kids just thought that was daddy...what an asshole. I would have rather been a ninja now that I look back on it. My wife is a saint there is no way around it, why she ever let me kiss her, fell in love with me or married me is a mystery to me (yeah we even have wedding photos of me dipping...asshole).

Yet here I sit, a quitter, I have no doubt that I will not dip again; though I am and always will be an addict I have tools and brothers in quit that have helped me for one year. I could just pack my bags and leave here and probably could remain quit; but I kind of like it here. I would miss the crazy uncle, the brothers, the lovely sisters and all of the others that are always willing to help a brother out when in need. A simple text, call, post it PM can really mean the difference between a cave and success. I see the path, and like the wonderful life it leads too, I will remain here until I am cured of my addiction. I now desire and honest and clean life, so I can enjoy being a father and husband that offers more good examples than bad; plus I want to have a tongue so later in life if I am blessed I can tell my grand kids stories about the silly shut their parents did.

KTC retirees, admins, mods, members and newbies thank you from the bottom of my heart. I may not be here writing this message if not for all of you,

Corey

Well done Marine! Proud to be quit with you all day!

Thank you for giving back. You keep writing and I'll keep reading.

Glad you're here. Rdad said it best: "you've given more than you've taken." Thanks.

Congrats on the single digit.

Congratulation Corey! A year is a great accomplishment, but I can promise you more upside ahead! Thank you for all of your help over the past year. You are one of the cigs in this great machine of quit! Enjoy a great day today!

You have awesome quit and moreover you're an inspiring quitter. I'm glad you're here; congratulations.

Freudian slip on my part. Cogs. Not cigs. Lol.

Great job on a year. Keep it going.

Great job brother. I've enjoyed having been quit with you and watching you quit. You have been an inspiration to so many here! Carry on Marine. Need to see a +1 tomorrow morning, ASAP... Always proud to be quit with you another day!

Great job Corey. No one has represented the Ducks like you have. Proud to be in your quit group. Keep rocking.

A year! And I know it was ODAAT, nicely done sir ...

What do I say to you.... It has been a wild ride this past year and I can't think of anyone better to share it with, craziness with group mates caving right before we hit the HOF, the craziness of conducting the November '13 HOF Train, "paddygate" .... what a year brother.

Congrats!!

'Cheers' congrats Corey! Nicely done!

Nice job.
and thanks for bringing her back.

Another victory for all us quitters to share! Way to be Pinched. That is outstanding Sir! Enjoy your day. You fucking deserve it!

Congrats my friend. That's a hell of an accomplishment. I've always felt stronger for having you in my corner. You've been an inspiration as well as a motivation. See you tomorrow buddy.

One year!

The one year mark was huge for me. Congrats Marine.

Bravo Zulu!

You. Are. Awesome!

Well Done Sir!!!

Congrats. Well done.

Never again, for any reason.

Damn proud of you!

Strength and honor soldier. Congratulations on one year.

Keep killing it Marine! You are a model of how to QLF KTC style! Proud to be quit with you.

I quit with you today and everyday!! I love you describing yourself as an A-hole dipper. Makes me think back to how I would spit on the carpet in a department store and rub it in with my foot, spit between clothes on a clothes rack or behind cans or boxes in a grocery store. Proud we have more respect now.

Kdip - Day 2142

Nice work, you're a rockstar of quit

[Sh4string]

Congrats Corey on your trip to the 6th floor. This is an awesome day. I hope you are on your way back home to celebrate 600 days of being QLF. You have certainly helped my quit and one of the main pillars of wisdom I turn to when I need it. Thanks for all you do to help new peeps and old vets combat this addiction. Semper Fi my brotha!

Way to be Pinched. Pure Badasseryness! Congrats!

Congrats to my milestone bro and friend--- and one of the baddest, most helpful quitters around. You've done a lot for a lot people in my time here, and you're also one of the better writers i've known when you lay out the quit truth. Keep it up, and breathe in the grattitude and congrats that come your way from all of us that you help!

6th floor! Congratulation Corey!

Congrats on 600 Pinched! Very nice.

awesome quit Pinched. Keep on keeping on...

Awesome quit. Congrats on the latest milestone.

Corey sorry for being a day late on this. You've always supported me on my milestones, sorry I didn't do the same. If there are newbies looking for some motivation....read this guys thread, one of the most bad assed quitters to post here.

Congrats on the 6th floor, nice work. Keep it going. Sorry for missing this yesterday.

Nice job Corey!!!!

[Done4Me]

Congrats Corey on your trip to the 6th floor. This is an awesome day. I hope you are on your way back home to celebrate 600 days of being QLF. You have certainly helped my quit and one of the main pillars of wisdom I turn to when I need it. Thanks for all you do to help new peeps and old vets combat this addiction. Semper Fi my brotha!

Way to be Pinched. Pure Badasseryness! Congrats!

Congrats to my milestone bro and friend--- and one of the baddest, most helpful quitters around. You've done a lot for a lot people in my time here, and you're also one of the better writers i've known when you lay out the quit truth. Keep it up, and breathe in the grattitude and congrats that come your way from all of us that you help!

6th floor! Congratulation Corey!

Congrats on 600 Pinched! Very nice.

awesome quit Pinched. Keep on keeping on...

Awesome quit. Congrats on the latest milestone.

Corey sorry for being a day late on this. You've always supported me on my milestones, sorry I didn't do the same. If there are newbies looking for some motivation....read this guys thread, one of the most bad assed quitters to post here.

Congrats on the 6th floor, nice work. Keep it going. Sorry for missing this yesterday.

[Dagranger]

Congrats Corey on your trip to the 6th floor. This is an awesome day. I hope you are on your way back home to celebrate 600 days of being QLF. You have certainly helped my quit and one of the main pillars of wisdom I turn to when I need it. Thanks for all you do to help new peeps and old vets combat this addiction. Semper Fi my brotha!

Way to be Pinched. Pure Badasseryness! Congrats!

Congrats to my milestone bro and friend--- and one of the baddest, most helpful quitters around. You've done a lot for a lot people in my time here, and you're also one of the better writers i've known when you lay out the quit truth. Keep it up, and breathe in the grattitude and congrats that come your way from all of us that you help!

6th floor! Congratulation Corey!

Congrats on 600 Pinched! Very nice.

awesome quit Pinched. Keep on keeping on...

Awesome quit. Congrats on the latest milestone.

Corey sorry for being a day late on this. You've always supported me on my milestones, sorry I didn't do the same. If there are newbies looking for some motivation....read this guys thread, one of the most bad assed quitters to post here.

[Grizzlyhasclaws]

Congrats Corey on your trip to the 6th floor. This is an awesome day. I hope you are on your way back home to celebrate 600 days of being QLF. You have certainly helped my quit and one of the main pillars of wisdom I turn to when I need it. Thanks for all you do to help new peeps and old vets combat this addiction. Semper Fi my brotha!

Way to be Pinched. Pure Badasseryness! Congrats!

Congrats to my milestone bro and friend--- and one of the baddest, most helpful quitters around. You've done a lot for a lot people in my time here, and you're also one of the better writers i've known when you lay out the quit truth. Keep it up, and breathe in the grattitude and congrats that come your way from all of us that you help!

6th floor! Congratulation Corey!

Congrats on 600 Pinched! Very nice.

awesome quit Pinched. Keep on keeping on...

Awesome quit. Congrats on the latest milestone.

[Mogul]

Congrats Corey on your trip to the 6th floor. This is an awesome day. I hope you are on your way back home to celebrate 600 days of being QLF. You have certainly helped my quit and one of the main pillars of wisdom I turn to when I need it. Thanks for all you do to help new peeps and old vets combat this addiction. Semper Fi my brotha!

Way to be Pinched. Pure Badasseryness! Congrats!

Congrats to my milestone bro and friend--- and one of the baddest, most helpful quitters around. You've done a lot for a lot people in my time here, and you're also one of the better writers i've known when you lay out the quit truth. Keep it up, and breathe in the grattitude and congrats that come your way from all of us that you help!

6th floor! Congratulation Corey!

Congrats on 600 Pinched! Very nice.

awesome quit Pinched. Keep on keeping on...

[Derk40]

Congrats Corey on your trip to the 6th floor. This is an awesome day. I hope you are on your way back home to celebrate 600 days of being QLF. You have certainly helped my quit and one of the main pillars of wisdom I turn to when I need it. Thanks for all you do to help new peeps and old vets combat this addiction. Semper Fi my brotha!

Way to be Pinched. Pure Badasseryness! Congrats!

Congrats to my milestone bro and friend--- and one of the baddest, most helpful quitters around. You've done a lot for a lot people in my time here, and you're also one of the better writers i've known when you lay out the quit truth. Keep it up, and breathe in the grattitude and congrats that come your way from all of us that you help!

6th floor! Congratulation Corey!

Congrats on 600 Pinched! Very nice.

[worktowin]

Congrats Corey on your trip to the 6th floor. This is an awesome day. I hope you are on your way back home to celebrate 600 days of being QLF. You have certainly helped my quit and one of the main pillars of wisdom I turn to when I need it. Thanks for all you do to help new peeps and old vets combat this addiction. Semper Fi my brotha!

Way to be Pinched. Pure Badasseryness! Congrats!

Congrats to my milestone bro and friend--- and one of the baddest, most helpful quitters around. You've done a lot for a lot people in my time here, and you're also one of the better writers i've known when you lay out the quit truth. Keep it up, and breathe in the grattitude and congrats that come your way from all of us that you help!

6th floor! Congratulation Corey!