Day 30 - 8/13/13
HOLY SHIT 30 days have come and gone, I am starting my Durty Thurties today! I have been warned that the thirties are bad, the 60-70 days are bad and then after that it is the 101 through life that is hard.
Well I have news for everyone and this may come as a shock to most. I am a stubborn, hard headed, belligerent son of a bitch (no offense momma). I am sincere in the words I say and by god if I promise something it will be done. I promised myself that I would quit. I daily rail on other quitters on here because they didn't post role or they caved.
I have done and will continue to do those things; not because I am an asshole but because I care and accountability means the world to me. I do them because you need tough love; if you want a hug go cry to your momma, wife, husband or best friend, otherwise come see me.
I do it because I want to live; hell I want to watch my kids play with their kids, I want to be able to kiss my wife daily, I want to taste food, I want to smile. Sure I can be an asshole, that is one of my endearing qualities, if you don't like what I have to say then either shut your ears or keep your damned promise.
I owe the KTC folks my life, that I am still getting back one day at a time. I didn't come here to make friends but it turns out that I have. I have not lead an easy or glamorous life but I sure as hell have enjoyed the last 30 days of it.
No longer do I need a place to spit, my fingers are clean, my truck doesn't smell like a rancid thermos of milk, my teeth are white, my breath doesn't wreak and my wallet is fatter and finally my jeans do not have a ring scar. There are not empty water bottles sitting at the "ready" there are no empty cans scatter in my truck bed. Most of all though I am not lying to myself, my family or any of you. GOD DAMN that feels good too. SO FUCK YOU UST, you will not be getting a Christmas bonus courtesy of me!