Guys/gals,
My name's Freddy, 20 years old, been dipping Cope Wintergreen/Skoal Mint for about 5 years now. Started when I was 15 working on ranches...been hooked ever since.
Made the decision seven days ago to finally kick the nic bitch out the door. Cold turkey. I guess I finally got tired about lying to my family/gf about how "I'm not addicted, I just use it to relax/concentrate." Tired of skipping out of class/work/my relationship to throw in a fatty. Don't want to still be dipping when I have a family and have to hide it from kids/wife.
So far it's mostly felt amazing. It wasn't even that tough until about 2 days ago (which is weird...I've tried quitting before but always caved within the first 2-3 days), I guess I was really building up momentum before this try.
That said, tonight I came dangerously close to caving. I told a couple buddies about my decision to quit when I started a week ago, but they're all dip fiends and are not gonna be much help. I was with them tonight, casually hanging out in the dorms (I'm currently in college...makes it harder to quit since dip is literally everywhere here), there were a couple cans of Cope on the table and I could feel the nic bitch whispering in my ear, telling me "you've gone a week. That's good enough. That proves you can quit if you ever need to." It took everything I had to get the fuck out of that room because I knew I'd be right back on the can if I took even a small pinch. I went back to my dorm, got on my computer, and started typing out what you're reading now.
I had seen this site before, but for some reason didn't join up when I first started my quit. I know now how much I need a group like this if I want to be successful. I know I'm not gonna make it if I'm in that room again and I don't have an army of brothers/sisters to help me fight off that goddamn nicoqueen. The high I was on at first has worn off. This fucking sucks, and I know I need help to beat it.
Can't wait till I can honestly say I told the nic bitch to go fuck herself...after 100 days. I know now I need your guys' help to do it.
7 hazy days and counting...
Freddy