Hopefully this post makes sense, I'm on day 2 and i'm guessing i've made my way back into the fog. Here goes nothing.
I began dipping Marlboro Snus in high school, about 5 years ago(yeah I know, that sissy shit). Well, that "sissy shit" led me right into dipping skoal wintergreen pouches...which then led to grizzly wintergreen pouches...all the way up to grizzly wintergreen longcut. I dipped the hell out of that stuff up until two days ago, averaging a can or more a day. My mom begged me to quit,my dad told me I was a fucking Idiot, my sister was heartbroken...And I did'nt care. I had my best friend, the only thing I'd ever need, the only one who could get me through the good and the bad times, that dirty rotten nic bitch. All my friends dip. My crew at the Fire department where I work dips. Dipping was literally my only hobby. The only thing I had an interest in was packing a fatty. When my wife and I started dating, I told her I would quit. I did for a few days, but ended up saying screw it, and dipped behind her back. I evenutually guilted her into letting me dip again, no strings attached. She acted like she was fine with it for awhile, but after a few months she asked me to stop again. This was a revolving door. I would "quit" (as far as she knew) and dip like hell when she wasnt around..Then tell her I needed to start back.REPEAT. Here recently i've been more than looking forward to going to work to get away from her so I could dip all I want, without having to hear any bitching about it. I grew to resent her, to think it was her fault I couldnt be free and do what I wanted, and my demeanor towards her was pretty aggressive at times. My temper was terrible,my fuse was short, and the only thing that could calm me down and bring me back was packing a fatass grizzly wintergreen longcut in my lip. The only thing me and my dip-friends did was dip. We dipped so we could bond(I know that sounds fucking stupid) I happened upon this site a few times a couple months back, never really looked into it or thought anything of it. Then yesterday morning I went out and bought two brand new cans. Withing 25 Minutes, i had already put in and spit out two dips, about to put in my third. I found this website again, and started reading thinking "Hey, I think Im gonna quit, but after these cans are gone" Thats when I read the 100 reasons to quit dipping on the homepage.. I took my unopened can and gave it to my partner..I took the other one,opened the top, and slung that cancer-causing worm dirt bullshit all over the ground. And guess what, I feel super confident in my quit this time. With the support of the people on this site, the great articles, and smokey mountain herbal, I KNOW that I can quit, and remain quit. Because I am stronger than the can. 'Finger'
Thanks guys, Sorry if i rambled, i'm pretty out of it lol.
-NozzleHead
