Hi All,
After a heavy night of drinking Friday night and feeling like crap all day Saturday, it was my first day in my journey to quit chew! I didn't realize it though, I just felt like crap and didn't want any part of it.
So today being Sunday/Father's Day, I still felt like crap from Saturday being hungover all day and not really sleeping that day. So little did I know it was day two. However, being "hungover" for two days didn't make sense to me. Then I realized, I hadn't chewed in two days. The insomnia, the lack of appetite, the anxiety was from not having chewed, not because I was still hungover.
I started last year in March 2014 as a junior in college playing baseball. I still remember the first time, I thought it was awesome. I figured it would be something I could do for the next year and then just when I stopped playing I would be done no problem. I thought I was above it, like every 20 year old you think you're Superman. I've been done playing for two months now and I still found myself pulling into gas stations walking out with a tin though I said I wouldn't. Then I figure, well I spent the money, not going to just throw it out. I've wanted to quit, I found a window in here where I can make it happen, I just don't know how long I can function without being able to sleep or eat. It's been two days and I'm already... just frustrated... tired... hungry... and other adjectives I can't think of at this time.
Happy to be aboard though!
