I am pretty damn good at everything I do. I should have no reason to think I cant get good at this someday, too. But right now, I suck. Whaa, whaa, whaa. I am even tired of hearing myself whine.
I went to a fishing show today and hated every minute of it. I usually love it and spend hours there. Watching all these people walking around with a fat dip in, spitter in hand. I should be pitying them, being almost 2 weeks in. Nope, instead I wanted to be them. Not a care in the world. They actually have booths giving away free Kodiac and Grizzly. I usually stock up on that shit. Nope, had to walk on by, with the chatter in my head, talking to myself like fucking rainman.
Just getting nervous because of all the chatter about "wanting to quit for yourself" is the only thing that is gonna make it happen. Well I wanted to quit 12 days ago, right now I don't. Not at all, nope, I want it back. The only reason I am marching on is for others, mostly my wife and children but also the committment I make every morning. If it were just me, I would have caved days ago.
Gonna give it the 100 days, if I am still feeling the way I feel today I will be reconsidering the decision. Life is too short to be miserable. I sure hope you all are right about how great it is when everything gets better and easier and smoother and worth it, etc.
Hey Ryan... This was a post from you around day 16. It seems really appropriate to bring up today, as you are out on opening day of deer season, and celebrating 1,000 days of winning!
1,000 days ago you were a complete mess. Walking around mumbling to yourself, hurting, fighting with Mrs Got2 because of your addiction...today you are free! Thanks for all of your help and friendship over this past 1,000 days. You da man!
Ryan, you have been leading the way for me since I got here, and you were one of the first BAQs to get me feeling the commitment. So awesome for you to get your comma brother!
'oh yeah'
Great stuff on this thread newbs give it a read and see what quitting KTC style is all about.
Ryan, enjoy the hell out of today, and bag some meat.
Thank you. I cannot lie.... IT FEELS PRETTY DAMN GOOD.
Hell yeah!! Killing the can for 1000 days. I want to thank the founders and keepers of this site. Every man and women that dedicates time and effort to themselves and other people on this site deserve the utmost respect. People helping people. I love it. I would have never been able to do it without them. FogCutters..... what can I say, what a great fucking group of people. Salt of the earth. Crazy as all get out, but damn glad to have them in my corner.
Life is so much better without nicotine. Deep down I knew it would be, I just never had the balls and the tools to get the job done. Along the way I learned that the job is never DONE. It is all about the journey, not the destination.
Damn, I remember this post W2W, and I remember that day. It was a dangerous day in my early quit. Read on. I think I was actually planning a day 100 cave. Some members of the site saw straight through my bullshit and called me out immediately.
That is why I love this site. Addicts need accountability, and often brutal truth.
Keep killing it friends. See you tomorrow.
IG2H