Long time stalker, first time poster

[rdad]

Day 185: Just passed the six month mark! While that feels awesome the nic beast has been nipping at my heels more lately. I think part of the reason it is chasing me has a part to do with my recent alcohol quit. I believe I've been "medicating" my brain with poison since I was 14 (between nicotine and alcohol). Since I removed the alcohol my body is readjusting again. The alcohol quit came about due to my addictive nature and I was compensating for the lost of nicotine. My usage was growing and I caught myself Ninja drinking. It's almost like I needed to have a dirty little secret in order keep going. I'm tired of being that guy.

Thanks again to My KTC supporters and the February 2015 bad ass Fog Fighters for helping me quit!

I'll quit with You Today Kenny!
proud of You! We are re-wiring...with Your persistence, patience...positive stuff happens!
ODAAT and NAFAR

Pretty much the same for me Kenny. I started drinking more when I quit dipping. What the fuck? If its not one thing its another. I believe its just the addict in me. I really have to be careful with the booze. Plus it makes me fat (ter)!

[30isEnuff]

Day 185: Just passed the six month mark! While that feels awesome the nic beast has been nipping at my heels more lately. I think part of the reason it is chasing me has a part to do with my recent alcohol quit. I believe I've been "medicating" my brain with poison since I was 14 (between nicotine and alcohol). Since I removed the alcohol my body is readjusting again. The alcohol quit came about due to my addictive nature and I was compensating for the lost of nicotine. My usage was growing and I caught myself Ninja drinking. It's almost like I needed to have a dirty little secret in order keep going. I'm tired of being that guy.

Thanks again to My KTC supporters and the February 2015 bad ass Fog Fighters for helping me quit!

I'll quit with You Today Kenny!
proud of You! We are re-wiring...with Your persistence, patience...positive stuff happens!
ODAAT and NAFAR

[KennyZ]

Day 185: Just passed the six month mark! While that feels awesome the nic beast has been nipping at my heels more lately. I think part of the reason it is chasing me has a part to do with my recent alcohol quit. I believe I've been "medicating" my brain with poison since I was 14 (between nicotine and alcohol). Since I removed the alcohol my body is readjusting again. The alcohol quit came about due to my addictive nature and I was compensating for the lost of nicotine. My usage was growing and I caught myself Ninja drinking. It's almost like I needed to have a dirty little secret in order keep going. I'm tired of being that guy.

Thanks again to My KTC supporters and the February 2015 bad ass Fog Fighters for helping me quit!

[worktowin]

Day 156.

I'm committed to being more involved in my quit. I have spent too much time posting and ghosting in my lead up to 100.

I've reached out to my extremely awesome quit brothers in February and have built a coccon of accountability. Hopefully my quit brethren see this as a positive and not as an annoyance.

150 short days ago, if anyone offered up thier cell number to me I think I would have rolled my eyes and moved on. Now I see it as the life line. I wonder now that if I had the support back some 10 years ago I might still be clean 16 years instead of 156 days. That would be fucking legendary!

To the brothers that offered up thier support and provided numbers, thank you. I hope that when I offer up my number you accepted it as a promise that you'll look out for me and call me on my shit. When I trade digits I take it seriously. If you normally post at 10am, I'm going to text you at 11am and wonder WTF. I'm not going to send dick pictures or any other bs. I'm here to quit and if you want to stay quit I'll help in anyway I can.

Thank you KTC, February 2015, and all of the great supporters!

KennyZ

You are doing this the right way. Brotherhood is what will move you to the next level.

[KennyZ]

Day 156.

I'm committed to being more involved in my quit. I have spent too much time posting and ghosting in my lead up to 100.

I've reached out to my extremely awesome quit brothers in February and have built a coccon of accountability. Hopefully my quit brethren see this as a positive and not as an annoyance.

150 short days ago, if anyone offered up thier cell number to me I think I would have rolled my eyes and moved on. Now I see it as the life line. I wonder now that if I had the support back some 10 years ago I might still be clean 16 years instead of 156 days. That would be fucking legendary!

To the brothers that offered up thier support and provided numbers, thank you. I hope that when I offer up my number you accepted it as a promise that you'll look out for me and call me on my shit. When I trade digits I take it seriously. If you normally post at 10am, I'm going to text you at 11am and wonder WTF. I'm not going to send dick pictures or any other bs. I'm here to quit and if you want to stay quit I'll help in anyway I can.

Thank you KTC, February 2015, and all of the great supporters!

KennyZ

[KennyZ]

Day 137: Heading out on my first nicotine free vacation! Good god how i would secretly dread this day. "How many tins do I need? How many can I hide? Will the TSA make me take them out of my bag in front of my family? When can I get a dip in?"

No more! With your help I'm free! Thank you!

[rdad]

Day 118: IÂ’m 18 days past HOF and this past week has been a series of stronger than expected craves. I know from past experience that the clouds do not part and angels start singing with you hit 100 days; but damn if I wasnÂ’t at least a little bit disappointed that didnÂ’t happen. For anyone reading my intro at the beginning of your quit, please donÂ’t expect to be cured after 100 days.

While everyone is different, the time after HOF is still an adjustment period. You are still doing things for the first time without nicotine. Triggers occur, but you are on more stable ground to push the cravings away. To me, the cravings are a welcomed reminder that IÂ’m still addicted and I canÂ’t have one.

I am still very thankful for all of the support I receive from the quit family here at KTC. Thank you for helping me quit.

We are never cured Kenny but it sure as he'll gets easier! After 474 days, when I get hit with a crave it just makes me laugh. Our boats are smoldering on the beach bro. I quit with you everyday my brother!

[KennyZ]

Day 118: IÂ’m 18 days past HOF and this past week has been a series of stronger than expected craves. I know from past experience that the clouds do not part and angels start singing with you hit 100 days; but damn if I wasnÂ’t at least a little bit disappointed that didnÂ’t happen. For anyone reading my intro at the beginning of your quit, please donÂ’t expect to be cured after 100 days.

While everyone is different, the time after HOF is still an adjustment period. You are still doing things for the first time without nicotine. Triggers occur, but you are on more stable ground to push the cravings away. To me, the cravings are a welcomed reminder that IÂ’m still addicted and I canÂ’t have one.

I am still very thankful for all of the support I receive from the quit family here at KTC. Thank you for helping me quit.

[KennyZ]

Thanks to all for the nice words. I needed the cathartic release last night and I'm good to go today. I've read through the Feb pages and know he wasn't loved by all, but a quitter is a quitter.

I respect all of you and I'm fortunate to have you help me. Thanks.

[Steakbomb18]

The Feb board is finally quite and I don't want to stir up that space for the group. So I'm sitting down to write out my thoughts with a very stiff drink.

SandPike was an SOB to me when I first posted on the board. I think my first post was a day 76 or 77 (I was posting on the blog side since around day 30 or so). He was after me like white on rice. Didn't know who the fuck I was and how dare I come into Feb that late into the game. Once he checked out my story, he apologized and welcomed me in like I was a day 1 quitter.

He PM'd me his number and helped me post roll. Also, he told me we had a great bunch of quitters in Feb. Now I know I don't have the posting longevity as some and SandPike may have rubbed people the wrong way, but to me he is a friend and he cared about my quit. He's not the only one, but he was in the group.

Now hearing other quitters that are not in our month, and a small few that are, trash him really pisses me off. Could he have dealt it better? Sure. Was he the only one acting out? No. Do we all need to be friends? No; but we should have respect for the struggles that we are dealing with.

I am not 100% sure why SandPike was set off and I'm sad to see him go.

After thinking about what happened and why would I be upset I started to get mad at myself. I've come to terms that if I'd ever ran into the past me, i'd fucking punch myself right into the face! I have used every fucking demeaning stereotype slang you can think of. I thought it was all in good fun and the people that got upset about it were sensitive pussies.

I was totally fucking wrong! Once I got outside my fucking cocoon, I realized that the constant barrage of demeaning shit that we spew actually is harmful. Would you tell your kid they are a fag, pussy, cunt, bitch, whore, dike or homo? How about any of your love ones? What if someone said that to your kid? Would you sit there and laugh right in front of them?

When I joined KTC I chose to ignore the BS locker talk and focus on my quit. As an lying fucking addict, I can easily justify almost any behavior. As my quit grew stronger and I've dealt with my past lies to my love ones; I feel I can't simply stand by and let shit slide anymore. You see, if we don't say shit about the stupid fucking homo, gay, and faggot shit, then we are condoning it. If my kid ever has the chance to read my thread when I'm gone, I hope she is proud of me and not embarrassed that I didn't stand up for what I thought was right. Why don't the rest of you fucking addicts stop and think about your kids reading your posts? It is not as far fetch as one would think.

Now to another drink; drops mic....

Hey little Kenny girl.... Your daddy is a stud, who had a problem with tobacco and quit it so he could spend more time with you and your future family.
He also helped alot of grown men with there problems as well.
I never met your dad... But he helped me quit today! I hope your are as proud of him as I am.
Your dad is an awesome man.

Rawls

Your Dad is a strong man that stood up to not only what
He thought was right but also the most powerful drug on the planet and he beat it one day at a time and helped many others along the way! I never met him myself but he was there helping me along the way for that I'm always in debted! Damn proud to be quit with you my friend!

Agree, Kenny Z is as fine a quitter as I've met on this site. He is, however, the antithesis of SandPike.

SandPike was as much a cancer, in my opinion, to this site as some other legendary drama queens of the past (insert Jake Frawley joke). I've been here for a short while, and he ranks as one of the biggest douchebags I've had the misfortune of seeing disgrace these pages.

Kenny, you and I have been mutual supporters since your Day 1 here. So please take my comment simply for what it is, a difference in opinion, which comes from my completely different viewpoint. Though my opinion differs, I do respect yours.

[pab1964]

The Feb board is finally quite and I don't want to stir up that space for the group. So I'm sitting down to write out my thoughts with a very stiff drink.

SandPike was an SOB to me when I first posted on the board. I think my first post was a day 76 or 77 (I was posting on the blog side since around day 30 or so). He was after me like white on rice. Didn't know who the fuck I was and how dare I come into Feb that late into the game. Once he checked out my story, he apologized and welcomed me in like I was a day 1 quitter.

He PM'd me his number and helped me post roll. Also, he told me we had a great bunch of quitters in Feb. Now I know I don't have the posting longevity as some and SandPike may have rubbed people the wrong way, but to me he is a friend and he cared about my quit. He's not the only one, but he was in the group.

Now hearing other quitters that are not in our month, and a small few that are, trash him really pisses me off. Could he have dealt it better? Sure. Was he the only one acting out? No. Do we all need to be friends? No; but we should have respect for the struggles that we are dealing with.

I am not 100% sure why SandPike was set off and I'm sad to see him go.

After thinking about what happened and why would I be upset I started to get mad at myself. I've come to terms that if I'd ever ran into the past me, i'd fucking punch myself right into the face! I have used every fucking demeaning stereotype slang you can think of. I thought it was all in good fun and the people that got upset about it were sensitive pussies.

I was totally fucking wrong! Once I got outside my fucking cocoon, I realized that the constant barrage of demeaning shit that we spew actually is harmful. Would you tell your kid they are a fag, pussy, cunt, bitch, whore, dike or homo? How about any of your love ones? What if someone said that to your kid? Would you sit there and laugh right in front of them?

When I joined KTC I chose to ignore the BS locker talk and focus on my quit. As an lying fucking addict, I can easily justify almost any behavior. As my quit grew stronger and I've dealt with my past lies to my love ones; I feel I can't simply stand by and let shit slide anymore. You see, if we don't say shit about the stupid fucking homo, gay, and faggot shit, then we are condoning it. If my kid ever has the chance to read my thread when I'm gone, I hope she is proud of me and not embarrassed that I didn't stand up for what I thought was right. Why don't the rest of you fucking addicts stop and think about your kids reading your posts? It is not as far fetch as one would think.

Now to another drink; drops mic....

Hey little Kenny girl.... Your daddy is a stud, who had a problem with tobacco and quit it so he could spend more time with you and your future family.
He also helped alot of grown men with there problems as well.
I never met your dad... But he helped me quit today! I hope your are as proud of him as I am.
Your dad is an awesome man.

Rawls

Your Dad is a strong man that stood up to not only what
He thought was right but also the most powerful drug on the planet and he beat it one day at a time and helped many others along the way! I never met him myself but he was there helping me along the way for that I'm always in debted! Damn proud to be quit with you my friend!

[Rawls]

The Feb board is finally quite and I don't want to stir up that space for the group. So I'm sitting down to write out my thoughts with a very stiff drink.

SandPike was an SOB to me when I first posted on the board. I think my first post was a day 76 or 77 (I was posting on the blog side since around day 30 or so). He was after me like white on rice. Didn't know who the fuck I was and how dare I come into Feb that late into the game. Once he checked out my story, he apologized and welcomed me in like I was a day 1 quitter.

He PM'd me his number and helped me post roll. Also, he told me we had a great bunch of quitters in Feb. Now I know I don't have the posting longevity as some and SandPike may have rubbed people the wrong way, but to me he is a friend and he cared about my quit. He's not the only one, but he was in the group.

Now hearing other quitters that are not in our month, and a small few that are, trash him really pisses me off. Could he have dealt it better? Sure. Was he the only one acting out? No. Do we all need to be friends? No; but we should have respect for the struggles that we are dealing with.

I am not 100% sure why SandPike was set off and I'm sad to see him go.

After thinking about what happened and why would I be upset I started to get mad at myself. I've come to terms that if I'd ever ran into the past me, i'd fucking punch myself right into the face! I have used every fucking demeaning stereotype slang you can think of. I thought it was all in good fun and the people that got upset about it were sensitive pussies.

I was totally fucking wrong! Once I got outside my fucking cocoon, I realized that the constant barrage of demeaning shit that we spew actually is harmful. Would you tell your kid they are a fag, pussy, cunt, bitch, whore, dike or homo? How about any of your love ones? What if someone said that to your kid? Would you sit there and laugh right in front of them?

When I joined KTC I chose to ignore the BS locker talk and focus on my quit. As an lying fucking addict, I can easily justify almost any behavior. As my quit grew stronger and I've dealt with my past lies to my love ones; I feel I can't simply stand by and let shit slide anymore. You see, if we don't say shit about the stupid fucking homo, gay, and faggot shit, then we are condoning it. If my kid ever has the chance to read my thread when I'm gone, I hope she is proud of me and not embarrassed that I didn't stand up for what I thought was right. Why don't the rest of you fucking addicts stop and think about your kids reading your posts? It is not as far fetch as one would think.

Now to another drink; drops mic....

Hey little Kenny girl.... Your daddy is a stud, who had a problem with tobacco and quit it so he could spend more time with you and your future family.
He also helped alot of grown men with there problems as well.
I never met your dad... But he helped me quit today! I hope your are as proud of him as I am.
Your dad is an awesome man.

Rawls

[KennyZ]

The Feb board is finally quite and I don't want to stir up that space for the group. So I'm sitting down to write out my thoughts with a very stiff drink.

SandPike was an SOB to me when I first posted on the board. I think my first post was a day 76 or 77 (I was posting on the blog side since around day 30 or so). He was after me like white on rice. Didn't know who the fuck I was and how dare I come into Feb that late into the game. Once he checked out my story, he apologized and welcomed me in like I was a day 1 quitter.

He PM'd me his number and helped me post roll. Also, he told me we had a great bunch of quitters in Feb. Now I know I don't have the posting longevity as some and SandPike may have rubbed people the wrong way, but to me he is a friend and he cared about my quit. He's not the only one, but he was in the group.

Now hearing other quitters that are not in our month, and a small few that are, trash him really pisses me off. Could he have dealt it better? Sure. Was he the only one acting out? No. Do we all need to be friends? No; but we should have respect for the struggles that we are dealing with.

I am not 100% sure why SandPike was set off and I'm sad to see him go.

After thinking about what happened and why would I be upset I started to get mad at myself. I've come to terms that if I'd ever ran into the past me, i'd fucking punch myself right into the face! I have used every fucking demeaning stereotype slang you can think of. I thought it was all in good fun and the people that got upset about it were sensitive pussies.

I was totally fucking wrong! Once I got outside my fucking cocoon, I realized that the constant barrage of demeaning shit that we spew actually is harmful. Would you tell your kid they are a fag, pussy, cunt, bitch, whore, dike or homo? How about any of your love ones? What if someone said that to your kid? Would you sit there and laugh right in front of them?

When I joined KTC I chose to ignore the BS locker talk and focus on my quit. As an lying fucking addict, I can easily justify almost any behavior. As my quit grew stronger and I've dealt with my past lies to my love ones; I feel I can't simply stand by and let shit slide anymore. You see, if we don't say shit about the stupid fucking homo, gay, and faggot shit, then we are condoning it. If my kid ever has the chance to read my thread when I'm gone, I hope she is proud of me and not embarrassed that I didn't stand up for what I thought was right. Why don't the rest of you fucking addicts stop and think about your kids reading your posts? It is not as far fetch as one would think.

Now to another drink; drops mic....

[Rawls]

Day 100: Milestone: an important life or developmental event.

I'm proud that I've made it; 100 days, 100 days ago, seemed like a lifetime. Now I'm more determined to make this the last time I hit this number. Only higher numbers from here on out. I've got a lot of road to make up for, one day at a time.

Thank you everyone for the support and accountability. Stay strong!

Right on your heals Bro...
Congrats on C note and looking forward to many more Milestones!
Respect you and you quit, EDD ODAAT.

[KennyZ]

Day 100: Milestone: an important life or developmental event.

I'm proud that I've made it; 100 days, 100 days ago, seemed like a lifetime. Now I'm more determined to make this the last time I hit this number. Only higher numbers from here on out. I've got a lot of road to make up for, one day at a time.

Thank you everyone for the support and accountability. Stay strong!