Long time stalker, first time poster

[rdad]

Congrats Kenny on your 100. 200 will be here sooner than you think. Keep it up and stay active on here. Welcome go the Hall of Fame.

Nice KennyZ! Shit, you and this ^^^ bad-ass are 100 days apart. That bonds you guys for life in a hetero, slap-on-the-back-and-not-on-the-ass type of way. I would post support for him EDD in November, if you don't already. Congrats on the 100 days of freedom, but you are not cured! Keep posting roll, it's a cheap insurance policy bro.

Way to be Z! You got a good quit going on. Onward and upward Bro. 'party2'

[Smeds]

Congrats Kenny on your 100. 200 will be here sooner than you think. Keep it up and stay active on here. Welcome go the Hall of Fame.

Nice KennyZ! Shit, you and this ^^^ bad-ass are 100 days apart. That bonds you guys for life in a hetero, slap-on-the-back-and-not-on-the-ass type of way. I would post support for him EDD in November, if you don't already. Congrats on the 100 days of freedom, but you are not cured! Keep posting roll, it's a cheap insurance policy bro.

[BazookaJoe]

Congrats Kenny on your 100. 200 will be here sooner than you think. Keep it up and stay active on here. Welcome go the Hall of Fame.

[Steakbomb18]

Tomorrow HOF for Kenny Z. Well done!

Congrats Kenny! Day 100 is no small feat by any means. Your approach and tact to getting here, your story,... everything, (simply put) has been inspiring to watch.

[MikeM]

Tomorrow HOF for Kenny Z. Well done!

[rdad]

Day 90:

I'm more in control now. The instant rage is gone. I'm back to laughing off the little shit and enjoying my time with those who love me. Concentration at work is getting better.

One of the biggest reliefs is being totally honest to my wife. After I threw away 6 years of being dip free, I ninja dipped. She knew what was going on and I just didn't do it around her. It would have been so much easier if she would have yelled, but she was truly disappointed. That just crushed me whenever the topic came up. No yelling, just " I wished you would quit."

10 years of sneaking around wears on you. Keeping your cans hidden. Gutting it so you don't leave a spit bottle around. Making up an excuse why you insist on washing the bathroom curtains (because you were dip shitting and sneezed!). God, I'm tired just thinking about the crap I had to keep track of.

Thanks everyone for your help. It's not easy, but it's so much better being tied to the can.

Awesome brother! Much better all around without the poison! Hof is just around the corner my friend that's gotta make you smile! If you guys can do this without this site your a lot better man than I am! Rock on be damn proud of your quit,I'm proud for you and quit with you!

I might be a little sick in the head, but I love reading about and remembering all the stupid shit we used to do when we were dipping. Its good for a laugh because its all in the past. roflmao

I totally forgot about the bathroom curtain thing until I was writing it. Dip fucking stains white curtains if you don't wash it quickly.

Love this post. In your short time here Kenny you are stepping up and laying down some quit gospel. Few of us know of the 6-year quit only to cave experience and your posts are eye-opening to say the least. I'm a huge fan and want to see you keep running this back one day at a time. ODAAT, accountability, and brotherhood. THAT is what will be the difference for you this time. Proud of you man, keep it up.

Thank you. I can only hope it helps someone.

Definitely helps me...I had forgotten (no, blocked out) some of the stupid ninja tricks--used to sneak a lipper in the shower, only to swallow the whole damn thing when my wife came in to keep from being busted....Like your wife, like all wives, they know. And when they get quiet about it, no more fights, no more scoldings, one thing you can be sure of. That disappointment is just a different form of cancer. Only this time, its them you are killing. With the kids, its even worse. They don't understand addiction. They only understand Daddy doesn't want to pay attention to me right now....

Everyone here inspires me to:

Be a man.
Face the truth.
Lean on your brothers.
Post Roll.
Just quit.

Nice Mike! Well said Broth! 'oh yeah'

[MikeM]

Day 90:

I'm more in control now. The instant rage is gone. I'm back to laughing off the little shit and enjoying my time with those who love me. Concentration at work is getting better.

One of the biggest reliefs is being totally honest to my wife. After I threw away 6 years of being dip free, I ninja dipped. She knew what was going on and I just didn't do it around her. It would have been so much easier if she would have yelled, but she was truly disappointed. That just crushed me whenever the topic came up. No yelling, just " I wished you would quit."

10 years of sneaking around wears on you. Keeping your cans hidden. Gutting it so you don't leave a spit bottle around. Making up an excuse why you insist on washing the bathroom curtains (because you were dip shitting and sneezed!). God, I'm tired just thinking about the crap I had to keep track of.

Thanks everyone for your help. It's not easy, but it's so much better being tied to the can.

Awesome brother! Much better all around without the poison! Hof is just around the corner my friend that's gotta make you smile! If you guys can do this without this site your a lot better man than I am! Rock on be damn proud of your quit,I'm proud for you and quit with you!

I might be a little sick in the head, but I love reading about and remembering all the stupid shit we used to do when we were dipping. Its good for a laugh because its all in the past. roflmao

I totally forgot about the bathroom curtain thing until I was writing it. Dip fucking stains white curtains if you don't wash it quickly.

Love this post. In your short time here Kenny you are stepping up and laying down some quit gospel. Few of us know of the 6-year quit only to cave experience and your posts are eye-opening to say the least. I'm a huge fan and want to see you keep running this back one day at a time. ODAAT, accountability, and brotherhood. THAT is what will be the difference for you this time. Proud of you man, keep it up.

Thank you. I can only hope it helps someone.

Definitely helps me...I had forgotten (no, blocked out) some of the stupid ninja tricks--used to sneak a lipper in the shower, only to swallow the whole damn thing when my wife came in to keep from being busted....Like your wife, like all wives, they know. And when they get quiet about it, no more fights, no more scoldings, one thing you can be sure of. That disappointment is just a different form of cancer. Only this time, its them you are killing. With the kids, its even worse. They don't understand addiction. They only understand Daddy doesn't want to pay attention to me right now....

Everyone here inspires me to:

Be a man.
Face the truth.
Lean on your brothers.
Post Roll.
Just quit.

[KennyZ]

Day 90:

I'm more in control now. The instant rage is gone. I'm back to laughing off the little shit and enjoying my time with those who love me. Concentration at work is getting better.

One of the biggest reliefs is being totally honest to my wife. After I threw away 6 years of being dip free, I ninja dipped. She knew what was going on and I just didn't do it around her. It would have been so much easier if she would have yelled, but she was truly disappointed. That just crushed me whenever the topic came up. No yelling, just " I wished you would quit."

10 years of sneaking around wears on you. Keeping your cans hidden. Gutting it so you don't leave a spit bottle around. Making up an excuse why you insist on washing the bathroom curtains (because you were dip shitting and sneezed!). God, I'm tired just thinking about the crap I had to keep track of.

Thanks everyone for your help. It's not easy, but it's so much better being tied to the can.

Awesome brother! Much better all around without the poison! Hof is just around the corner my friend that's gotta make you smile! If you guys can do this without this site your a lot better man than I am! Rock on be damn proud of your quit,I'm proud for you and quit with you!

I might be a little sick in the head, but I love reading about and remembering all the stupid shit we used to do when we were dipping. Its good for a laugh because its all in the past. roflmao

I totally forgot about the bathroom curtain thing until I was writing it. Dip fucking stains white curtains if you don't wash it quickly.

Love this post. In your short time here Kenny you are stepping up and laying down some quit gospel. Few of us know of the 6-year quit only to cave experience and your posts are eye-opening to say the least. I'm a huge fan and want to see you keep running this back one day at a time. ODAAT, accountability, and brotherhood. THAT is what will be the difference for you this time. Proud of you man, keep it up.

Thank you. I can only hope it helps someone.

[Steakbomb18]

Day 90:

I'm more in control now. The instant rage is gone. I'm back to laughing off the little shit and enjoying my time with those who love me. Concentration at work is getting better.

One of the biggest reliefs is being totally honest to my wife. After I threw away 6 years of being dip free, I ninja dipped. She knew what was going on and I just didn't do it around her. It would have been so much easier if she would have yelled, but she was truly disappointed. That just crushed me whenever the topic came up. No yelling, just " I wished you would quit."

10 years of sneaking around wears on you. Keeping your cans hidden. Gutting it so you don't leave a spit bottle around. Making up an excuse why you insist on washing the bathroom curtains (because you were dip shitting and sneezed!). God, I'm tired just thinking about the crap I had to keep track of.

Thanks everyone for your help. It's not easy, but it's so much better being tied to the can.

Awesome brother! Much better all around without the poison! Hof is just around the corner my friend that's gotta make you smile! If you guys can do this without this site your a lot better man than I am! Rock on be damn proud of your quit,I'm proud for you and quit with you!

I might be a little sick in the head, but I love reading about and remembering all the stupid shit we used to do when we were dipping. Its good for a laugh because its all in the past. roflmao

I totally forgot about the bathroom curtain thing until I was writing it. Dip fucking stains white curtains if you don't wash it quickly.

Love this post. In your short time here Kenny you are stepping up and laying down some quit gospel. Few of us know of the 6-year quit only to cave experience and your posts are eye-opening to say the least. I'm a huge fan and want to see you keep running this back one day at a time. ODAAT, accountability, and brotherhood. THAT is what will be the difference for you this time. Proud of you man, keep it up.

[KennyZ]

Day 90:

I'm more in control now. The instant rage is gone. I'm back to laughing off the little shit and enjoying my time with those who love me. Concentration at work is getting better.

One of the biggest reliefs is being totally honest to my wife. After I threw away 6 years of being dip free, I ninja dipped. She knew what was going on and I just didn't do it around her. It would have been so much easier if she would have yelled, but she was truly disappointed. That just crushed me whenever the topic came up. No yelling, just " I wished you would quit."

10 years of sneaking around wears on you. Keeping your cans hidden. Gutting it so you don't leave a spit bottle around. Making up an excuse why you insist on washing the bathroom curtains (because you were dip shitting and sneezed!). God, I'm tired just thinking about the crap I had to keep track of.

Thanks everyone for your help. It's not easy, but it's so much better being tied to the can.

Awesome brother! Much better all around without the poison! Hof is just around the corner my friend that's gotta make you smile! If you guys can do this without this site your a lot better man than I am! Rock on be damn proud of your quit,I'm proud for you and quit with you!

I might be a little sick in the head, but I love reading about and remembering all the stupid shit we used to do when we were dipping. Its good for a laugh because its all in the past. roflmao

I totally forgot about the bathroom curtain thing until I was writing it. Dip fucking stains white curtains if you don't wash it quickly.

[rdad]

Day 90:

I'm more in control now. The instant rage is gone. I'm back to laughing off the little shit and enjoying my time with those who love me. Concentration at work is getting better.

One of the biggest reliefs is being totally honest to my wife. After I threw away 6 years of being dip free, I ninja dipped. She knew what was going on and I just didn't do it around her. It would have been so much easier if she would have yelled, but she was truly disappointed. That just crushed me whenever the topic came up. No yelling, just " I wished you would quit."

10 years of sneaking around wears on you. Keeping your cans hidden. Gutting it so you don't leave a spit bottle around. Making up an excuse why you insist on washing the bathroom curtains (because you were dip shitting and sneezed!). God, I'm tired just thinking about the crap I had to keep track of.

Thanks everyone for your help. It's not easy, but it's so much better being tied to the can.

Awesome brother! Much better all around without the poison! Hof is just around the corner my friend that's gotta make you smile! If you guys can do this without this site your a lot better man than I am! Rock on be damn proud of your quit,I'm proud for you and quit with you!

I might be a little sick in the head, but I love reading about and remembering all the stupid shit we used to do when we were dipping. Its good for a laugh because its all in the past. roflmao

[pab1964]

Day 90:

I'm more in control now. The instant rage is gone. I'm back to laughing off the little shit and enjoying my time with those who love me. Concentration at work is getting better.

One of the biggest reliefs is being totally honest to my wife. After I threw away 6 years of being dip free, I ninja dipped. She knew what was going on and I just didn't do it around her. It would have been so much easier if she would have yelled, but she was truly disappointed. That just crushed me whenever the topic came up. No yelling, just " I wished you would quit."

10 years of sneaking around wears on you. Keeping your cans hidden. Gutting it so you don't leave a spit bottle around. Making up an excuse why you insist on washing the bathroom curtains (because you were dip shitting and sneezed!). God, I'm tired just thinking about the crap I had to keep track of.

Thanks everyone for your help. It's not easy, but it's so much better being tied to the can.

Awesome brother! Much better all around without the poison! Hof is just around the corner my friend that's gotta make you smile! If you guys can do this without this site your a lot better man than I am! Rock on be damn proud of your quit,I'm proud for you and quit with you!

[KennyZ]

Day 90:

I'm more in control now. The instant rage is gone. I'm back to laughing off the little shit and enjoying my time with those who love me. Concentration at work is getting better.

One of the biggest reliefs is being totally honest to my wife. After I threw away 6 years of being dip free, I ninja dipped. She knew what was going on and I just didn't do it around her. It would have been so much easier if she would have yelled, but she was truly disappointed. That just crushed me whenever the topic came up. No yelling, just " I wished you would quit."

10 years of sneaking around wears on you. Keeping your cans hidden. Gutting it so you don't leave a spit bottle around. Making up an excuse why you insist on washing the bathroom curtains (because you were dip shitting and sneezed!). God, I'm tired just thinking about the crap I had to keep track of.

Thanks everyone for your help. It's not easy, but it's so much better than being tied to the can.

[Awkwood15]

Day 83: Last night my wife and I were talking while she was calculating our monthly budget. She mentions that our gas/auto expenses for the past two months have dropped ~$150/month. I said, while gas prices have dropped I haven't needed "gas" every-other-day. Then it clicked with her. I think she was surprised at how much I was spending on the crap.

Thinking about this made me realize how fucked up the addiction messes with your thought process. I know that I balked at paying a higher life insurance premium for tobacco users and delayed in purchasing the additional insurance. I believe it was $100 more per month.

Now I was happily stuffing $150 per month in my mouth and increasing my chances of dying sooner (and needing the life insurance for my wife and kid) but thought paying $100 more per month to protect my family was too much! Fuck.

I will keep this quit. I will make sure my family is protected. Any money left over will be spent on beer.

Thanks for that nugget of reality sir! It's amazing how much this addiction alters ones perception. You also got me thinking it may be time to purchase that additional insurance for myself... Proud to be quit with you!

[Rawls]

Day 83: Last night my wife and I were talking while she was calculating our monthly budget. She mentions that our gas/auto expenses for the past two months have dropped ~$150/month. I said, while gas prices have dropped I haven't needed "gas" every-other-day. Then it clicked with her. I think she was surprised at how much I was spending on the crap.

Thinking about this made me realize how fucked up the addiction messes with your thought process. I know that I balked at paying a higher life insurance premium for tobacco users and delayed in purchasing the additional insurance. I believe it was $100 more per month.

Now I was happily stuffing $150 per month in my mouth and increasing my chances of dying sooner (and needing the life insurance for my wife and kid) but thought paying $100 more per month to protect my family was too much! Fuck.

I will keep this quit. I will make sure my family is protected. Any money left over will be spent on beer.

AMEN BROTHER................you Rock... I needed that.
Proud to quit with you today.