Your life is gonna suck for a while until your body clears out the poison. Then it's gonna suck for a while until your brain recalibrates itself. Then, and only then, will you enjoy all the true health and emotion that is available in life. I can tell you that freedom is wonderful, and life after nicotine is more enjoyable than you can imagine. I can't, however, wallow in suffering with you. That is a distant, foggy memory, and I intend to keep it that way. But, these guys that posted below me can do that. They can battle with you every day.
I can promise all of you that it will get better. Y'all can remind me why I never want to go back.
That is a true brotherhood. We can all help each other here.
Reach out if I can help you any way.