Wow, been a hectic couple of days and haven't had a lot of time for posting to myself (been hitting that roll call though, that sucker's important). I needed the psychological "win" of making it past double digit days. Boy does it feel better to know that I've made it almost 2 weeks with this ugly girl in the rear view instead of in my pocket. It's definitely easier to say no (still have to say it though), and I'm super grateful for the encouragement (even if some of it is in the form of "don't be a pussy") as I keep on this journey. I'm writing to make sure that I have a reminder for myself how awful it is to get through this and how much better I feel now 12 days quit. I know that at some point I'll likely lie to myself with "it wasn't so bad, just grab a pinch to get through this bad day and you'll still be quit" and I want to make sure I have something to point myself towards. HEY! IDIOT (If you're thinking about going back)! It is that bad and you know damn well that even if the "1 pinch" lie was true, you can't do just "1 pinch". Stay honest, stay quit.