It is time for me to quit chew. Even when not dipping it affects my interactions with the environment around me. It is not worth if wondering if this person who gives into addiction on a daily basis is actually who I am.
It's been 10 years since I started. The amount of time surprises me but that's addiction for you.
Chew has messed with me every time I tried to quit. It tricks me into thinking that it will help me deal with stress. It has replaced the emotion of disgust that I should associate with chewing tobacco into one of longing. It sickens me to be manipulated this way. I hate nicotine except when I am fooling myself, which happens much too often.
I think this website and forum will help and so I will check it out daily.