Randall's Update:
Raider asked that I be sure to mention the bad parts of the quit in these updates as well. Here goes.
I am now 43 days quit and two weeks more successful than I have ever been in choking the nic bitch. I would like to say it has been getting progressively easier since my last update(around day 20), but truth be told, I had a nearly catastrophic setback around day 30ish. I won't single anyone out, but I had a really hard time accepting a couple quitters coming into our June group and riding us all weekend over some stuff that they knew next to nothing about within our group. I got pretty worked up and defensive when they wouldnt leave. I became pretty disenfranchised when I realized it is acceptable and even encouraged on KTC for quitters with more days under their belt to harass relatively new quitters still struggling in their quits pretty bad I viewed these antics as messing with some guys quits which could leave to caves. I did not see the benefit in it for myself and others in my group. I did understand how the harassment benefitted the few guys who were bored with their quit and needed some entertainment. However, the principle of possibly losing several active, newer devoted quitters, for the sake of a couple guys entertaining themselves and releasing their boredom prior to reaching the HOF was not something I could wrap my head around.
Thanks to extra effort of a couple of my Goon brothers and several vets genuinely invested the best for KTC, quit groups, and individual quitters I was refocused on the big picture and the reason we are all here. We are here for the quit. The promise and accountability which together = success. Disagreement with a couple individuals and even a principle of the site was was no reason to try it on my own and leave my June brothers with one less guy there in the trenches with them day in and day out. I swallowed my pride and walked back in with tail tucked between legs. While my hiatus in contemplating leaving was not even 48 hours, that time seemed like an eternity and was not easy. I learned the importance of using the tools that are useful for me (which there a plenty of), and to leave the rest.
I want to personally thank Raider, Cando, and Haws for their extra efforts in getting my head straight and reminding me what is most important. Without these guys I would be gone and possibly romanticizing with Nicci. Also, thanks to Dano and Deerhunter for checking in during my hiatus.
:Winner:
