OK at the two week mark of no nicotine, nearly 3 weeks with out skoal.
Here is the rant for my history of how shitty this is going.
Proud member of the April 2014 - Resolute Bastards.
Posted roll everyday, got bumped off on Day 5, didn't know how to get it back.
Makes me more careful posting roll in future.
100 DAYS - that's a long way off!
Tongue is raw from eating sunflower seed, salty snacks, peppermints and gum.
Every morning I check my pants pockets for phone, wallet, pager, snuff can.
Have a panic that I can't find my can for a split second, and move on with my day.
Things don't taste good right now either. probably left over residue candies and such messing with taste buds.
Cravings are still there. Fog is still there. Can catch myself staring into space for a few moments like a retard.
My wife mentioned that I am "harder" on her and the kids, as well as shorter tempered.
I don't have much patience and get irritated easy.
Still getting a mild headache behind the eyes.
As I have been saying, this quitting is hard.
So hard in fact, I don't want to do it.
I certainly am not going to do it twice.
I will buckle down, and do it once.
I have a few ex chewers not on this site for support, that are located nearby.
Scared shitless to have a drink, thinking that will be a bad trigger. Avoiding it for now.
I am a husband, father of two, Mechanical engineering technologist, and a volunteer fireman, I have intellect and support to beat my addiction.
I really never wanted to quit before, I had no idea how addicted I was until I started quitting. I will always be an addict, but do not have to be a practising addict.
That's all for now.