I still can't even picture myself without it, not as if I couldn't quit, but what life would be like without it. Its hard to fathom.
You can't look at it as a forever from now kind of thing. What we do here is take everyday as it comes and just promise to be nicotine free for one day. Now, I am not as experienced as these other bad ass quitters on here, but I will tell you one thing. On here we are all the same, a 5 year quitter or even a 1 day quitter is the same. We are all addicts and we all come here to promise each other that we will be quit for today.
Please take a look around. I found that looking at the pictures of cancer on this site keeps me remembering why I am quit today. You need to find your reason and have it be a constant reminder of why you are quit.
Are you lipping one right now? If not that is what it feels like. Freedom,,, thats what it feels like. Take your life back. Stop being a slave to something that is killing you. Millions live without out it everyday. Why can't you? Life is meant to be lived without nicotine. Make a decision. Toss that can of life taking good for nothing krap in the toilet. start living life the way it was intended.
Me not taking a dip at the moment feels more like an anxiety attack, feels like a pressure on my mind that moves through my spinal column down to my hips. It's akin to a bone chilling cold shiver.
I want to quit because I like my life, I like being healthy. I spent years in weight rooms, lifting, cardio, etc. I neglect fried foods, heavy starches, and unnecessary fats. I take care of myself in every aspect but the tobacco that clings to me.
I guess I should have been more clear in my first post. I was more hopeful that people would read my thoughts and see the underwritten cry. You guys write "just quit" as if it were that simple. Like I am supposed to get up right now and toss the rest of an almost full can away. On paper that seems very logical, a very simple task, but when it comes to doing it.. Well.. Is it like that for everyone? Is this a sign that I'm not ready? I feel hesitant because it is a part of who I am now. I've looked at the horror stories, deaths and dismemberments, I don't want to be that story. I don't want to carry around a can every day, be dependent on this "weed", be addicted to something that kills.
I even looked at the synthetic dip or fake dip, whatever you may call it and it gives me hope. I've often thought that maybe mints and gum could help me for a few days. Is that how someone starts this? Just chew gum for a day and if it works, great, if it doesn't try something else? It just seems like a long road and what do you do if you can't dip on the journey?