Nice job! You sound like someone that really wants to quit. I really wanted to for 25 years. I sometimes did stop for a day, or two. But Ktc quitting is different. When you put both feet in the Ktc pool, you quit as a team with other peeps chopping wood just like you are. They watch out for you, you watch out for them, and as a team success is soooooooo much easier.
Does all of this sound crazy? Yes. 831 days ago I thought it sounded like some whack nonsense. 831 days ago.
Dude, please join your quit qrouo and get your name on roll. Every day. It takes a minute, even from a phone with fat ass fingers (I'm typing this on a phone do please excuse the typos .) support your team, let them support you, and vets will jump in from time to time. Freedom is a wonderful thing. The brotherhood and accountability here will lead you to freedom.
I'm glad you are here, sir. See you on roll call....