Day 5 sounds so much better than days 1, 2, 3, and 4. I don't know what it is about 5 but it feels fucking great however my anxiety has been borderline out of control at times. I don't feel body aches, I don't feel like I'm coding out or anything but I feel like my brain locks up and I'm never going to be successful, I go deep down the rabbit hole only to to come out of it in a daze.
I'm a 32 year old business owner of 6 years with 11 month old twins living in a place that's too expensive on a single income as my wife stays home with the kids in expensive ass Yorba Linda, CA. The anxiety passes and I'm able to think clearly again. So far the thought of dip makes me sick but it's interesting to feel just how gnarly the addiction is. Along with quitting dip I'm not eating grains or sugar. Probably not the best idea but I need a change. I've let self-discipline go by the wayside and I need it back like I had it when I was a single college student getting A's, training hard, and hunting pussy on the weekends.
I'm not drinking until 10/22 when I go to see NOFX and Bad Religion in San Diego with my wife. I also completely came clean to my wife about ninja dipping a tin+ a day since before we met in 2009. She knew I would dip sometimes but not the extent. I've told everyone, even clients, that in itself is a major weight lifted. It's awesome to not lie anymore. It's also awesome not driving to 3 different places because the other two didn't have my flavor. I will not quit on myself ever again. I am quit forever.
Congrats on quitting, my friend! You've come to the right place, KTC is full of awesome people who only want to see you succeed! You HAVE got this!
I'm only on day 116, still fighting the fight, though it is easier now. I can relate to many things you said. I run the family biz with my pops and also live in way-too-expensive SoCal. And we have 3 littles. So I KNOW your stress. :) That was always my biggest trigger, so just know that nic's bullshit is coming... she's gonna tell you "you deserve it" so many times. Just be ready to physically distract yourself any way you can: go on a walk, pushups, run in a circle screaming... whatever you can do. (The guys here will tell you to slam your nuts in a drawer, though I can't attest to that working or not as I don't have a pair haha.) I've found daily HARD gym sessions to be extremely helpful for me, to relieve stress. I also took natural L-theanine, 100mg morning and night. (I found that the NOW brand is most effective for me.) Whatever you do, don't cave. The knowledgeable folks here will tell you that "problem (stress, sadness, etc) + nic = 2 problems." That's the damn truth.
You also sound like you're very hard on yourself, very self-disciplined. I completely relate here, the lack of self-discipline I felt made me so angry. BUT I do warn you against trying to conquer Rome in a day. (I try to do this often myself... never works.) Quitting dip might be the hardest thing you've ever done (it was for me, and for many of us). So I recommend focusing on quitting only, for now. Put the rest off till later, when you're more concrete in your quit. Many of us here gained 10lbs over the first few months. That KILLED me, but you literally start going insane during the worst craves, and munching on things helps. Losing weight down the road is a good thing, losing your jaw to oral cancer is not. This is an excellent time to "pick your battle", in my opinion. Plus, cutting grains can lesson your fiber intake, and fiber is dearly needed, especially early in the quit when GI functions go crazy.
You're doing a great job, checking in here every day! That, posting roll EDD, giving your number to EVERYONE, and getting to know your fellow quitters will help your quit tremendously. Keep up the great work, proud to be quit with you!! Check your inbox too!
