This is the greatest introduction I have ever read.
Not only have you identified that getting rid of your stuff was a great idea, you also realized as to what lengths you will go to to feed it (picking it out of the trash).
You and I are addicts. So are the other members of this site.
On this site, we post roll in the morning and say we will not use nicotine in any form all day. Fuck tomorrow. Then all we have to do is stay quit. When we wake up tomorrow, we repeat the whole process.
Take a look up at the top of this screen to the black banner. There is a pink "WELCOME CENTER" on the left side of the screen. It explains what we do and how we stay quit here.
The flu-like symptoms you are feeling is what we refer to as the "fog". It's your body's way of throwing a temper tantrum when it doesn't get its drug. Fortunately, you can control your actions.
When you are ready, go post day 1 over
here..
Get some numbers. Give yours. We'll hold you accountable. You just need to stay quit.