Introduction

[jconners]

Day 76
Feeling a lot better than my last post in this journal. Staying involved and picking others up. Can't thank Keith enough to get me back on track here - phone call is powerful tool against the nic bitch. I understand alcohol plays a role - my goal is to stay away but I know it will come up in the future. Going to take it one day at a time and work on a gameplan.

[Athan]

Day 70 - Ugh its been too long since I posted and I feel like shit. I feel my self slipping back into what made me fail the first time. I stopped drinking again - my goal is 90 days, my wife is going do it with me as support. My drinking and dipping go hand in hand - i started to notice it was getting harder as i was drinking multiple times during the weekend and I was actually thinking of getting away and going out by myself away from my family so I could dip. Drinking is my issue and its the only thing standing between me and death. After typing this it feels like I should never drink again and its probably true. I don't know but for now I'm not drinking and that feels good.

@jconners
I know you have heard it but it does get so much better. I would consider at least cutting back on the drinking and maybe have some type of substitute with you, fake dip, when you decide to participate in consumption. If you want help shoot me your digits and we can partner in our fight against this addiction. There is strength in numbers. Know need to walk alone.

There's an alcohol quit group and an alcohol cessation group. Alcohol destroys far more lives than it saves. The God who created you did not create you to be a slave to man nor substance. Be free.

[Keith0617]

Day 70 - Ugh its been too long since I posted and I feel like shit. I feel my self slipping back into what made me fail the first time. I stopped drinking again - my goal is 90 days, my wife is going do it with me as support. My drinking and dipping go hand in hand - i started to notice it was getting harder as i was drinking multiple times during the weekend and I was actually thinking of getting away and going out by myself away from my family so I could dip. Drinking is my issue and its the only thing standing between me and death. After typing this it feels like I should never drink again and its probably true. I don't know but for now I'm not drinking and that feels good.

@jconners
I know you have heard it but it does get so much better. I would consider at least cutting back on the drinking and maybe have some type of substitute with you, fake dip, when you decide to participate in consumption. If you want help shoot me your digits and we can partner in our fight against this addiction. There is strength in numbers. Know need to walk alone. 

[jconners]

Day 70 - Ugh its been too long since I posted and I feel like shit. I feel my self slipping back into what made me fail the first time. I stopped drinking again - my goal is 90 days, my wife is going do it with me as support. My drinking and dipping go hand in hand - i started to notice it was getting harder as i was drinking multiple times during the weekend and I was actually thinking of getting away and going out by myself away from my family so I could dip. Drinking is my issue and its the only thing standing between me and death. After typing this it feels like I should never drink again and its probably true. I don't know but for now I'm not drinking and that feels good.

[Athan]

12/26/2019... Going to start a religious fast/prayer in January with my wife ..

Love this! A husband and wife united in Christ is one of the most powerful forces in the universe.

[jconners]

12/26/2019
Wow haven't posted a journal entry in a while. Holidays do that to you but I still need to stay strong in my quit. I feel like I haven't been active with my group but made a point today to focus on them. I hope we don't lose anyone, hopefully i can help others with my experience of failing - its just not an option anymore. It never really was an option but my mind let me think it was. When i got to Wawa i still catch myself checking to see what they have available - I try not to look but its a habit and I will break it. Going to start a religious fast/prayer in January with my wife - I know this will add stress to my life but I feel like it will be good. Growing closer to God should help me with my quit. Happy to be quit today!

[jconners]

12/20/2019
Busy day back at work. Did my last minute XMAS shopping today - wow I was not alone. Feeling good but I almost text a buddy to go get a drink, I caught myself and thought wow its that easy. I decided against it and stayed busy by updating SSOA, reaching out and updating our text group and posting this journal entry. I can't do this without KTC and March - I got this and excited for the weekend. Smells like XMAS but also a good day to stay quit!

[jconners]

Great work on check in, posts and outreach.  Messages of support such as yours have been helping me get through my second day.  Much of it is a fog... but it is clear from KTC support that I am not alone.  Chaotique.

You are never alone, lets keep moving forward and winning. NNT!

[AndyCan]

Congrats on 10 days dude!  Enjoy the nic-free weekend.  Reach out if you need anything. 

[Chaotique]

Great work on check in, posts and outreach.  Messages of support such as yours have been helping me get through my second day.  Much of it is a fog... but it is clear from KTC support that I am not alone.  Chaotique.

[jconners]

12/19/2019
Of course with a day off work was nuts today. Stressed and busy - staying strong with my quit no doubt but work is kicking my ass. Not much else to say but I am quit today and pumped for it to be Friday!

[jconners]

12/18/2019
Day off from work today, busy running around getting last minute gifts and going to see Xmas lights with the family. Today is a good day and I know nic won't be on my mind but I need to remain aware because those days are ahead of me. I let me guard down last time and that won't happen now - I have my brothers. Today is a good day but I am prepared for those tough days - bring nic bitch I'll be waiting.

[Athan]

12/16/2019
With the help of a quick call from Athan I stayed sober and nicotine free last night - felt good. I did eat way too much but rather that then the alternative. Felt good this morning - works been crazy and I wish I could have been more involved today on the site. Have off tomorrow and going to be more active - my quit feels strong and ready for more.

The cool thing is, it steeled my resolve as well.  ODAAT brother.

[Nomore1959]

12/16/2019
With the help of a quick call from Athan I stayed sober and nicotine free last night - felt good. I did eat way too much but rather that then the alternative. Felt good this morning - works been crazy and I wish I could have been more involved today on the site. Have off tomorrow and going to be more active - my quit feels strong and ready for more.

I love to see quitters use the forums as intended.  Be accountable, ask for help, succeed.

That is a big win.  You have more wins ahead.  QLF with you today!

[jconners]

12/16/2019
With the help of a quick call from Athan I stayed sober and nicotine free last night - felt good. I did eat way too much but rather that then the alternative. Felt good this morning - works been crazy and I wish I could have been more involved today on the site. Have off tomorrow and going to be more active - my quit feels strong and ready for more.