So guess Ill stick here in the introductions forum until then...
Ive known about KilltheCan ever since its inception years and years ago, but up until recently, Ive never had a strong enough desire to quit, so I didnt't fucking care, lets just be honest. Even now, I dont want to quit, but because of my health, I seriously need to. Ive been in and out of the hospital most of my life due to health issues all stemming from nicotine use, and logic be damned, but my extremely addictive personality doesnt care about what happens to my health in the end apparantly.
However here in the last few months Ive been increasingly worried about my health and just how long Ive got left if I continue down this nicotine road. Thus I am in the process of weaning myself off of the shit. Ive quit before, a few times actually, years ago, but I always started up again. Hell lets be honest, if I quit this time, I cant guarantee that I wont pick it up again some day in the future, long after Ive quit. Maybe thats why Im subconciously really here, to not only quit, but quit for good.
Anyways, enough with the same backstory thats been told 10000x already youve all heard before...
Ive been dipping since the military 12 years ago. Its where I started using tobacco, both smoking and dip. Ive been off and on both forms, if not all forms of nicotine since them. Currently for the last 5 years or so Ive been 100% dip. Im from rural midwest, so dip is pretty common and widely accepted. You see it everywhere, and you stand out like a sore thumb if you DONT use it... thats the culture here. Hence it makes it much harder to quit when its so common.
At the moment, Im trying to wean myself off the real chew. Ive tried quitting cold turkey before and it causes more problems then cures. Ive only ever been able to wean myself off it, its the only thing that works.
But unlike in the past where I always half assed all my attempts, and gave myself plenty of cheat days, Im really trying to stick to it this time. On average, before this new attempt, I was dipping for at least a solid 9 hours out of every 24. Currently Ive cut back to around 3 to 5. Ive been using Smokey Mountain, a brand Ive known about for many years. Real Dip every 4 hours if I want it, for 30 minutes, then take it out immediately and toss in the fake stuff for another hour or so. Its really been helpful in tricking my mind into thinking im still chewing.
My goal is to continue like this for a week or two until I am comfortable with the new tolerance levels, and then go down to like 30 mins of real dip every 6 hours if i want it, 15 every 8 hours, etc. Its the only method thats ever managed to work for me. In the past I also always had a shitty job so coughing up money for fake chew on top of real chew was not logical. Not trying to brag, just saying I have the finances now to support the attempt this time. Ive got 3 cans of SM on hand, and 10 cans from Jakes on the way, with a 30 can order from SM on the way as well.
Never have I attempted this hard to quit by making a concrete effort financially to quit, so I really am hoping, almost praying Ive got the willpower this time to not let my money go to waste.
Yea, thats my story...