Hi Everyone
I am new to the site. This is my first real attempt to quit dipping. I am a lawyer, father of a 11-month old baby boy and we just found out my wife is pregnant with number 2. I started dipping at 18 years old and I turned 30 last week - so a good 12 years. I work a long hour office job and dip regularly for hours at a time. On Tuesday, I went to the dentist (same guy I've been seeing my whole life) and he told me that I have a mild case of leukoplakia in my lip. He was only able to see it while using a black light. He told me that it is not cancer but that it can develop into cancer. He stressed the importance of quitting immediately. I haven't slept or ate well since hearing the news and I've been obsessively reading everything there is to know about my condition. Seems like the literature on leukoplakia and the chances of developing cancer are all over the place, which has added to my anxiety. I've though a lot about my son, the baby on the way and how I do not want them to grow up without a father. I have never been so scared in my life. It is strange that, while I knew dipping could lead to serious health problems, I was never afraid until now. After two days of not dipping, I am already getting headaches and cravings. I know this will be a long and difficult road and hope that this website could be a valuable resource for me. If anyone has any person experience regarding leukoplakia and quitting, I would appreciate hearing from you. God bless.
Mike