Welcome,
@JZ. As MNxEngineer said, we're glad you found this site and hope you commit 100% when you're ready.
I think your definition of "Cold Turkey" and ours may be different. You said "I can't do it cold turkey" and then followed that with a statement about using jerky chews. Our "cold turkey" does NOT include fake chews AS LONG AS THEY DON'T CONTAIN NICOTINE. Use all of the Hooch, Teaza, Bac-Off, whatever you need as long as the product is nicotine and tobacco free. Most of us have done exactly that to fight the oral fixation part of this addiction.
As you learned from your last stoppage, there will always be "rough patches" in life, but as you also learned 1 Problem + Nicotine = 2 Problems. There are no solutions in a can, only problems. After I quit, I talked to my doctor because of anxiety and sleeplessness. She prescribed Xanax, but I didn't take it long because I didn't like the way it made me feel; it wasn't me. My family and friends understood and just dealt with my anger, confusion, and anxiety until those lesser demons of nicotine withdrawal subsided. Now I have nothing to blame my less bubbly personality traits on other than being a natural asshole
When you are ready, we'll be here. Although the process can be hard sometimes, the formula is easy: Brotherhood + Accountability = Success. MN gave you the link to freedom. Use it.
GS9502 - June 2020 Renegade of Quit