Hi guys,
I quit dec 24th this year. I have viewed KTC several times during previous failed attempts. Proud to say I’m 59 days nic free. I just recently finally joined the form and finally got the ball to post know that it would help keep me accountable.
14 years old I had my first dip. By 15 I was chewing a can of grizz straight or WG a day. At the time I was a serious high school wrestler with goals of winning a state title. I figured it was the one rebellious thing I could do without effecting my athletic achievements and health.. The lies we tell ourselves.
Fast forward to college and still dipping at least a can a day. By now I almost always have LC and pouches on me. Funny to think I was working out several times a day and would have done anything to achieve my dreams of becoming an All American. Anything besides quitting. I dipped when I woke up. I dipped on way to working out. Dip was and still is accepted in wrestling community. I bartended out of the season which I would hide my dip during work. I dipped into my coffee cup during class. I dipped when I studied. I dipped between matches. I dipped when I needed to shit. I dipped when I was stressed. I dipped when I was happy. I never really tried quitting in college. I think maybe once or twice but didn’t last more than a few hours.
Fast forward to 24 and still dipping well over a can a day. I am now starting my career in an office and things are different than previously. I now always have LC, pouches, snus and nic gum on me. Now I chew nic gum or snus all day at work. I still find time to sneak to bathroom or run an erron so I can put a LC in. Between 24-27 I finally realized dipping was not cool, but I was basically always consuming nic. I could not do it at work. My social circles changed a bit and it was very embarrassing habit. I had unsuccessfully tried quitting several times. Mostly using nic gum and fake dip. I found ktc very helpful but never joined and never made it more than a day with out nic. I would get to reducing gum to only a few pieces a day, but then I would find my self chewing 10-15 a day, then back to the same old habits.
The morning of thanksgiving 2020, the doctors though my dad had cancer. Luckily, we found out he didn’t.
December 2020, I visited the dentist who recommends I get a biopsy. You would think I would quit immediately, but I couldn’t. Even after being told doc is concerned about cancer I still had to have one more dip. I talked to doctor who I previously told I was trying to quit and I tried using Chantix and still using nic gum at this time ( I know ktc does not support this). In a very short amount of time I was finally able to reduce nic gum and decided to quit dec 24th. I figured I would be off work and around family who
I usually hid my dipping from.
I am very proud to say I coming up on 60 days. I owe a lot of success to this site. I actually never had my chantix refilled so I been off the meds too. I don’t really remember the last few months. It seems like a fog. I know I have spent more money on fake chew that I ever did on real stuff lol. I lay in bed reading HOF speeches at night. I read “quit quitting contract” regularly. It has got me this far, but i know i need more to keep my self accountable.
I have tried almost every fake chew out there. I think the anticipation that I will find something I like more than actual grizz keeps me inspired. I spend all day either with fake dip or tooth pics or gum or anything. Now that the nic is out, I can’t believe I was a slave for so long. I really still am since I think about it constantly. I may always think about dip, but I know I will not go back to using.
I am thankful for what this site has done for me and thankful to finally join. I’ll post roll tomorrow.