I had a real moment of strength last night with all this shit. My step dad is on his death bed just waiting out this DNR. The texts and calls from my mother have been absolutely heartbreaking. I was driving home from work, late. I wanted a dip so bad that I shoved a tea bag in between my cheek and gum. I was ready to pull in to the gas station and just buy 1 can. Have 1 dip. I had it fully justified in my mind. I was prepared to repost day 1 and take it and move forward. But I didnt. I'm onto day 4. Very proud of myself.
First, incredibly sorry to hear about your step dad. Praying for your family during this time.
Secondly, I'm very happy to hear you are posting a Day 4 today vs a Day 1. It should terrify you a bit though that you had it all justified in your mind. It's at (or even before) that point you should be texting every KTC digit you have in your phone and even calling someone from here to help you through that mental battle.
Hold the line brother. One minute, one hour, one day at a time.
@Fmk1221 @MNxEngineer speaks the truth. Build out a network of fellow quitters. They will pay huge dividends when times get hard. Reach out if I can help.
That may be what has worked for others but right now the awkwardness of a phone call with a complete stranger sounds more like it will make me want to dip than not dip. And to be fair, my group is full of cavers and guys who barely participate. I get more out of you veterans responding to my intro thread. I go in there and even try to post some motivation and bring the guys up and it just stinks like weakness over there. You guys with triple quadruple digits next your names. You're fuckin alphas, I wanna be like you not them.
Brother, trading digits with fellow quitters doesn't mean phone calls nearly as much as it means texting. I exchange texts with at least 20 quitters from lots of different groups every morning, making our promise to each other just as we do on our rolls.
Those phone numbers serve another purpose, too. Say you're not able to post your promise for one reason or another (computer issues, etc.). Having a fellow quitter's digits - especially a quitter in your group - gives you a way to ask for a text pick-up so you don't miss a day. I sent you my digits, not so I'd get a call from you or call you, but so I could personally text you my promise to stay nic free each day. I'm about to do just that.
Buddy, we are all down with you. We are here to hold you accountable, but we are also here to support you. We can't do that if you won't let us. A text or a phone call when you're in the mental battle you said you were in earlier is a helluva lot faster than waiting on a post here on this site.
Proud to be Quit with you every day you post that promise. Keep that shit up, brother.
GS9502