So this is me fucking bitching because I need to get rid of the stress and and you all get to be my punching bag right now.
first off day 16 is damn near as tough as day 1, WTF? But beyond that Ihave been working out and chewing the shit out of the trident gum and still struggling. This morning was probally one of the worse. First off I was late to work, my son was dragging his feet, fucking playing games, goofing off with the dog, and basically being an 8yr old. BUt I was not in the mood and snapped bad at him. So that is why im here bithing through this fucking keyboard. Then when I finally get out of the house, I get stuck behind some fucking peice of shit driver on a two lane blacktop that fucking cant do the speed limit and is swerving all over the fucking road. 45 min drive to work turned into and 1 hour drive because of this asshole. and to make things better my one and only passing lane is being blocked by some fucking big rig slugging it up the hill and shit head is in the other fucking lane. I was so ready to throw my hands up and stop at the nearest store to pick up a can, but then I looked at my watch and saw that i was late for work. So I have a very simpile job, i need to open the office by 7:00 am. Over the course of the last week I have not managed to get this done. Im ready to fucking chew just to feel that rush. I know that I should not, I have been quiting good. But i need help today. 'help'
NO!!!!!! You don't need to go load up on death dirt to get a rush!!! Per a now famous quote:
You will NEVER regret quitting but you will ALWAYS regret caving!!!!
DO NOT fall into the trap again!!! Quitting sucks and is the hardest thing you will EVER DO!!!!! BUT its the BEST thing you will EVER do!!! FREEDOM is WORTH the PRICE!!! You may be suffering right now but you have a long life of Freedom ahead of you if you stay quit!!! Which path do you choose???
Freedom or Slavery!!! Its up to you! I hope you make the RIGHT choice!
ADmann, bitch it out here. Not at your boy. Easier said than done, I know. I was a real dick to my kids the first few months, but come in here as much as you can.
Next, let me ask you - is dipping going to make your son listen any better?
Is dip going to make him move any faster?
Is a dip going to get that dumb ass driver in front of you to move the fuck along?
Is dip going to slow down time so you can make it to the shop by 7?
Fuck no. And you know it.
Sixteen days in is an incredible VICTORY! Yes, a victory. Look at it that way. You made it through all that shit (that will be there whether you are quit or not), looked that bitch in the face and kicked her right in the foofie.
Victory.
Keep fighting. It's worth it.
Shout if you need anything.
-Nolaq