Okay, so I didn't post roll all weekend because I was on a recruiting trip down in LR, AR. I used to live there for about 6 years and my best man still resides there. He offered me the couch and my recruiting budget is minute so I took him up.
We used to tear it up every night for the 3 years we lived together. Since leaving LR, I haven't done most of the stupid stuff I used to do. Dipping was the last thing that I had to give up and you all know how that is going.
So anyway, I get down there and the craves just whammied me. I had no craves on the 7 hour drive but when I saw my boy pack his fine cut, my mouth watered. I literally caved in my head about 100 times this weekend. To make it worse, I am fighting these internal demons to dip, drink and/or smoke and my boy keeps asking me if I want any. About the third time, I nearly punched him.
See, my boy is a train wreck. And as we all know, misery loves company. He knows that the crap he puts in his body is killing or going to kill him, but he says he can't quit because of his lifestyle. He's a pussy and knows it. He has already had two court mandated stints in AA. If I didn't know he was a wreck and trying to justify his actions by having me join him, I would have put my foot in his rear.
Fact is, I have been through hell and back with that dude, but the connection to all of the folks on this site saved my quit 100 times over the past 72 hours. So thanks for holding me accountable and The Coach is still QUIT!!!!
