I want to be perfectly clear to everyone on this site that I quit on this site Feb 4, 2007 and was quit @120 something days then I caved, after I caved I lied to my group and continued to post roll. My wife cought me numerous times after that dipping and I lied to her about it but she knew better, on the sat before I began my quit this time she called me out on it again and I proceded to give her that "I dont know what you are talking about look" but there was no more denying it. I truly do want to be quit this time and I truly did want to be quit last time so I cant tell you this is going to be the magical time but that is my intention. I tell you all this just so you know my background. I am quit now 17 days and I plan to continue posting roll every day I am quit, you can choose to believe me or not I dont really care the posting is for me. I will be happy to help anyone I can any way I can.
Mike
Plato said...be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle.
do you respect yourself truok?...i have always told my sons to never judge anyone on an error. because, you have not walked in thier shoes.
you my friend are getting a second chance. keep up the good work and don't let yourself down again.
respect cj? well I am not sure about that yet, but I am trying to do what is right for me and thats all I can do at this point.
i wish you well. remember...this is a life or death decision. i can not speak for everyone else...but, i want to see you post here everyday with sincerity.
don't take life for granite. do everything you can to live.
"Granite", Jim? :huh:
yeah, because life is not worth granite... it's just a hard piece of stone. what is it you don't understand? :wacko:
(thanks for the proof reed) *granted*) :P
Kinda like "role" call......or car "pull". :lol:
***11x4 chuckles and remember's the car pull tunnel syndrome comment***
'crackup'
*my two cents*In the beginning of my quit when someone caved especially within my group, I felt sorrow and a bit of helplessness for not being there to guide them through the storm that soon would past.
Then somewhere in the middle of my quit, I felt hurt and betrayed that a brother or sister would do something in which we all have been fighting with .. our addiction. I was so angry because many of us endure trials and tribulations during our life.
I realized I was a hypocryte for the thinking the latter half about anothers cave because of my
First HOF speech explaining at that time about my several attempts to quit. These are all stepping stones for each of us. I hope those who begin this journey to quitting their addiction will realize. Ultimately, you are the one in control. You have the power. No one else. You have to quit for you. Throughout over 20 years, I'd try to quit yet to go back to the one thing I thought I loved. It's only when I was at rock bottom Jan 07 when I discovered this site. Dipping was a burden, a heavy burden. It was a job I hated doing. It put evil thoughts of doubt into my head that I couldn't live life without it. It made me feel worthless and a liar for so many years. It made me weak.
I don't feel like that any more since quitting. I feel a sense of renewal. A rebirth so to speak. I am damn proud that on this day I know I am not using dip as a crutch for stress, saddness or sorrow. And I no longer feel sympathy for those who cave. They were compelled to
give into their addiction and sadly it won!
This site holds all the tools you will ever need ... but you have to use them and not blame your cave on anything other than yourself. You are shown these tools from the very first post on Day One. We are all human. We make mistakes. But we learn from those mistakes.
If you truly want to quit, remember a few things:
1) Participate within your quit group as well as other groups.
2) Get lots of phone numbers to help in a time of need. (not just stored in your phone but written down when you're without it.)
3) Educate yourself by reading not only articles and HOF speeches but go to other groups and read about what they went through. Just go to the last page and there is our quit history. Our footprints throughout our journey.
4) Remember the moto! One moment, minute, one hour ... One day at a time!
5) Think positive. Believe in yourself and all the accomplishments you've made.
6) Never be afraid to call someone you've never spoken with before or afraid to let others help you even if they have less quit days than you. No matter what we all encourage each other. That's why this site works.
If I left anything out, please feel free to add to the list.
You are not in this alone. You can do this and when you falter realize that one of two things happened. You either didn't use the tools created to help through a crave or you didn't really quit for yourself. No one can make you want this. Only you. Do you want life or perhaps and more likely death? You pick.
*Umm .. crapola! Sorry I gave much more than my two cents* mylilsecret
