Just venting, here goes.
Day 1 off nicotine, day 7 off snuff.
Guts are shitty. I did just have some abdominal surgery, so assumed it was simply that.
After doing some reading, I can sympathize.
25 years of straight skoal, fuck that was a long time.
What was I thinking?
As I said still re-covering from surgery, scared shitless of triggers when I return to work.
First cup of Coffee in a week was a bad one, and right after supper.
Eating a pile of shit. Peppermints, candies, jamming salted pretzels in my lip.
Must look like a fool,
I am not giving up! I had no idea how bad of an addict I was/am.
I never wanted to quit.
Cant believe I never tried.
I WILL DO THIS. THERE IS NOT ONE SHRED OF DOUGHT.